(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa toward the end of 2015.
I was bad tempered and calculative before obtaining the Fa, almost to the point of being shrewd. The Fa taught me how to improve myself, however. People around me now say that I am a true gentleman who always displays a pleasant personality.
Beginning in 2012, I became concerned about the future of the Chinese nation. I had learned how the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) had caused great damage to our people. I then learned in 2015 how Dafa disciples were being cruelly persecuted. The practitioners still peacefully clarified the truth to people. I was touched by their kindness and courage.
At the end of 2015, I found an electronic version of Zhuan Falun and soon to begin my own journey of cultivation.
I had a rough start. I felt that everything in my life was going against me. Yet, Teacher said:
“Abundant troubles rain down together ...” (“Tempering the Will” from Hong Yin)
I had worked my way up in the company where I was employed. I was in a high position, yet my subordinates began to talk to me with disrespect. My parents also reacted negatively to my cultivation. Were these tests? I spoke with other practitioners about it and they all agreed and encouraged me to not fail the tests. It was a difficult time for me.
I had further discussions with some other practitioners regarding things I was confused about when reading Zhuan Falun. Some of them were also new to the practice, and they told me I needed to enlighten to it myself. Their tone made me uncomfortable, as if I were their subordinate. This irritated me.
I wanted to berate them, but then I realized it was an opportunity for me to cultivate and improve. How could I give up cultivating myself just because of a little difficulty? Who was I cultivating for? I encouraged myself to endure it. I really had come a long way.
In these two years of cultivating, I have done many different types of truth-clarification work. In the process I realized that using the Internet to talk to people about Falun Dafa fit me best. I have helped about 200 people quit the CCP, and some have even taken up the practice of Falun Dafa. I am happy for them and happy that I am a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple.
I was reported to the police at the beginning of 2017. I was falsely accused and arrested. I firmly believed in the Fa. While in the detention center, I talked to many people about Falun Dafa. Many were interested and listened to me every day. Others were too poisoned by the CCP and tried to interfere.
One time, while talking to several people, a detainee who often tried to interfere once again attempted to stop me. I had some bad thoughts about him and said, “I hate these animals that interrupt me while I am talking.”
I hoped he would go away, but he instead began to badmouth me. I realized that I was wrong and should not have insulted him. I thought about apologizing but hesitated. I told myself to put Dafa first and to let go of my idea of self.
At dinner that day he sat behind me. I turned around to face him and sincerely apologized.
I said, “I am sorry for insulting you. Please accept my apology and forgive me.”
I saw a change in him, and there was no animosity in his eyes.
He replied, “It’s fine. I was at fault too.”
I used this opportunity to talk to him about Falun Dafa and the persecution and asked him to not say anything bad about Dafa, that it would not be good for him. He agreed, and from then on, he didn’t make any more trouble for me. I enlightened that “opposition” cannot save people, but that only true compassion can.
I was detained for eleven days. After I was released, I went to the repair shop for my motorcycle. The shop owner asked where I had been. I told him about my arrest. He thought I was a good person and asked me why I would be arrested. I told him it was because I practiced Falun Dafa. He also had misunderstandings about Falun Dafa.
“You have been deceived,” I said. “Falun Dafa teaches people to be good. All practitioners try to be good people.”
I told him many things about the practice. Whenever I returned to the shop after that, he would tell other customers about me: “He is a Falun Dafa practitioner. He is good tempered and well mannered. I used to think the practice was a cult, but that was all propaganda from the CCP. Truth is, they are all good people!”
My cultivation environment became much easier a while later. My parents no longer opposed my practice, and fellow practitioners were more respectful toward me. However, I slowly began slacking off. I did not conduct myself with a high standard like I used to, and I found myself having many human attachments. I had arguments and was defensive. Why could I not let go of my self? I found that because the evil wasn’t as rampant as before, and my cultivation environment became easier, I had relaxed in my cultivation.
I wrote this sharing to encourage myself to push forward, to conduct myself with high standards again. I want to treasure this last amount of time to do better in saving others. Thank you, Master.
Category: Improving Oneself
