Do Not Fall into the Old Forces’ Trap
(Minghui.org) My cultivation state hadn’t been that great the past few months. A recent xinxing test, which I failed to pass, finally triggered me to look within to identify my problems.
I found that I had not been strict with my own cultivation, and that I had fallen into the old forces’ trap.
Because I failed to follow the Fa’s standards for every single thought of mine, I missed a lot of opportunities to improve my cultivation and accumulated a lot of karma as a result.
The old forces then exploited my loopholes and suppressed my main consciousness. I could not study the Fa with a calm and clear mind. I often forgot I was a Falun Dafa practitioner. Meanwhile, the old forces kept strengthening my attachments and weakening my righteous thoughts.
When I was attached to lust, the old forces kept playing those scenes in my mind, making me long for those lustful moments.
When I harbored a strong competitive mentality, the old forces arranged different tests to temper me. I would often fly off the handle at the most trivial things at home or work. Adding the influence of the Communist Party culture, I caused some damage to Dafa.
When I became afraid of being arrested for my belief, the old forces played up my fear and let me imagine all kinds of circumstances in which I’d get arrested.
What was worst was that the old forces severely interfered with my Fa-study. Before the persecution began, I often joined group Fa-study and was diligent in reading Dafa books. After the persecution started, however, I slacked off in studying the Fa and loosened my guard against the old forces.
Without solid Fa-study, I had trouble summoning my righteous thoughts, as they came from Dafa. Without righteous thoughts, I wasn’t able to pass the tests. My inability to remove my attachments was then taken advantage of by the old forces. This was truly a vicious cycle.
After I realized my issue, I intensified my sending forth righteous thoughts and required myself to stay clear-minded during the process.
In the meantime, to address the issue of not being able to study the Fa with a calm mind, I started memorizing the Fa word by word so as to stay focused and improve the quality of my Fa-study.
After several days of adjustments, I found myself much more clear-minded.
I hope my sharing will awaken practitioners who've encountered similar issues, and caution them not to fall into the old forces’ trap. We should strengthen our righteous thoughts, eliminate all possible loopholes in our cultivation, and truly walk the path arranged by Master.