(Minghui.org) Falun Dafa practitioners went to study the Dafa books at Ms. Wang's (alias) home from 2008 to 2013. Unfortunately, our group study environment came to naught because of dissension amongst practitioners and was disbanded.
Practitioners need to look within for attachments when they face or experience problems. Instead I blamed others and thus was unable to help establish a cohesive group environment.
Making an Effort
It took me quite some time before I returned to Ms. Wang's home. I went to her home in August, 2014 . Her eldest daughter opened the door and instead of greeting me she looked at me coldly.
Ms. Wang, in her 70s, was in bed and looked as if she was experiencing sickness karma. She urged me to leave because she was going to meet with her children and discuss her future. I got angry and left. On my way home I felt very bad, but for human reasons, I thought that I had come to see her, and I was thirsty and tired and was not even asked to sit down.
At home I calmed down and studied the Fa. I looked within and realized that Ms. Wang's family does not practice Falun Dafa. How could I get angry with ordinary people? Ms. Wang was facing a tribulation and I should help her.
Master said:
“The next person's things are your things, and your things are his things." (“Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference II)
I went to Ms. Wang's home again a few days later. Her second daughter opened the door, looking at me with a cold face. I ignored it and went to Ms. Wang's room.
Ready to Die
Ms. Wang looked emaciated and told me she was weak and did not feel hungry. Besides, she needed to hold onto something when she walked and could no longer do the Falun Dafa standing exercises.
Her children did not support her practicing Dafa, so she could not calm down to study the Fa.
She then asked me to help her find a cemetery spot. This type of thinking is wrong for a practitioner, and I told her so, especially for a practitioner who started practicing more than 10 hears ago.
'As a matter of fact, with regard to the veteran students [that started] prior to the persecution, I raised all of you to your positions. As long as you can go about things with righteous thoughts and righteous actions you can protect yourselves perfectly well, and that applies as well for new students that joined later.' (Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005)
Holding Wrong Attitude
After I returned home, I did not keep the demeanor of a practitioner, but kept complaining about her. After I shared with fellow practitioners it dawned on me that my attitude was wrong.
Practicing Dafa is very serious. If any thought or idea is not righteous, the old forces could easily take advantage of this loophole. I asked a few practitioners to send righteous thoughts for Ms. Wang as often as possible.
One practitioner said that Ms. Wang should look within and fundamentally change her wrong thoughts. Then, she would truly improve.
I recalled that Ms. Wang's husband passed away more than eight years ago. She still held a big grudge against him because he gave all his wages to his parents and siblings. She had to use her meager wages to support three children.
There was so much I remembered, including that Ms. Wang could not do the sitting meditation in the full-lotus position, even after 10 years of cultivation. I knew it for several years, but I did not realize its seriousness because I was not clear on the Fa.
I dared not point it out to her and was afraid that she could not accept it. I recognized my attachments, such as not wanting to offend her and to be a nice person.
Practitioners Have No Enemies
I went to Ms. Wang's home again and talked to her about her husband and that she had to let go of her resentment.
Master said,
'… if you can’t love your enemy then you can’t become a Buddha.'” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Houston)
I told her that she needed to send righteous thoughts and measure all her thoughts with the Fa.
‘The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.’” (“Drive Out Interference,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
When I returned to Ms.Wang's home she had changed. She again studied the Fa diligently and did the exercises regularly. Her face was rosy.
I deeply felt Master's great compassion. Master gives his disciples opportunities again and again.
Helping Ms. Wang helped me on my cultivation path. I learned to look within and let go of attachments, such as being anxious, saving face and feeling resentment. More importantly, I learned to forbear, understand fellow practitioners and become more compassionate.
Category: Improving Oneself
