Returning to the State of a Cultivator by Letting Go of Attachments
(Minghui.org) I began my cultivation in June of 1996. Teacher's infinite grace and the infinite power of Dafa transformed me from an illness-prone individual to a healthy person. I was immersed in the light of Dafa and was truly happy. However, after the persecution was launched by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) in 1999, I was arrested and persecuted many times. Each time, Teacher rescued me. I want to share my personal understanding, that is, that cooperating with the evil will not save us and may cost us our lives, while following Teacher's arrangement and denying the old forces' ways will bring health and happiness.
On March 8, 2001, I was arrested and taken to a forced labor camp for one year. All day long the evil officers there played DVD's that slandered Teacher and Dafa. Being mistreated both mentally and physically for months, I developed symptoms of tuberculosis and had water in my lungs. I coughed a lot and my chest hurt. By September, they let me go home and called it a “medical leave.” My husband was also detained in a forced labor camp, so I stayed with my sister. My sister wanted me to go to the hospital, and I was asked to stay there. The doctor tried to remove the water from my lungs every day. One day the doctor said to me, “Why is there no sign of improvement?” At this point I realized something from Teacher's Fa teaching at Changchun on September 18, 1994, and understood that genuine practitioners do not get sick.
Hence, I had no reason to stay in the hospital. Teacher was using that doctor to awaken me to this truth. I returned home that evening, read one chapter in Zhuan Falun, and did the five exercises. The next day, I returned to the hospital to finish the check-out paper work. The doctor wanted to do a an ultrasound to check on the water in my lungs. He was surprised to find that there was none! I saw once more how miraculous Dafa is.
On August 22, 2003, I was arrested again and illegally sentenced to three and half years in jail. I was forced to work like a slave for long hours, sometimes up to 16 hours a day. I could not study the Fa or do the exercises, and my health deteriorated until I was in critical condition. In September of 2005, they sent me home because they believed that I was about to die. My son cried when he saw how weak I was. My daughter carried me downstairs and noticed that I was really light. She thought I looked like I was 90 years old, although I was only 58.
At home I concentrated on studying the Fa and doing the exercises in the morning. My family members helped me to mail informational materials to clarify the truth about Dafa to people. I still could not eat much and had diarrhea, but I did not worry about these problems. One month later my health was back to normal. My friends, relatives, and colleagues witnessed that I regained my health.
By July 2007, the evil CCP wanted me back in prison because I had not completed the three-and-a-half year-term. One police officer said to me, “We are nice people. When you had health problems, we let you go to the hospital.” I replied, “I did not go to the hospital. I regained my health by doing the Falun Dafa exercises. You guys arrest good people and persecute them. You do not give me the freedom to believe or do the exercises. You interfere with what I can do to stay healthy. That is why I was in critical condition.” After hearing that, he had nothing more to say.
As I reflected on my cultivation over the years, I believe that the reason why I was arrested was because I lacked righteous thoughts. I knew Dafa was good, but I did not understand that, as a Dafa disciple during the Fa rectification period, I needed to validate the Fa in a dignified manner. I was fearful and wanted to protect myself when the persecution environment was harsh. The evildoers saw my fear and used it. It is dangerous not to align one's thoughts with the Fa. By studying the Fa and letting go of the selfish idea of protecting myself, my fear gradually disappeared. In addition, my righteous thoughts grew as well.
“Over the past year, students’ own karma, inadequate understanding of the Fa, inability to let go of attachments amidst tribulations, inability to deal with things using righteous thoughts amidst painful trials, and so on, are the main reasons behind evil’s escalation of the persecution, and are the true fundamental excuses that the evil has used to damage the Fa. ”
“If a cultivator can let go of the thought of life and death under any circumstance, evil is sure to be afraid of him. If every student is able to do this, evil will of itself no longer exist. All of you are already aware of the principle of mutual-generation and mutual-inhibition. If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist. This is not to be self-imposed, but is achieved by truly and calmly letting go of it.” (Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s), Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Reading the above quotes helped and guided me through my tribulations. Through putting these words into practice, I was able to let more and more things go. Fearful thoughts were reduced and righteous thoughts increased, leading to a more peaceful state of mind.
Learning the Fa well and doing the three things well are activities of Dafa disciples during the Fa rectification period. Evil people have no power. We must completely reject the arrangements of the old forces in order to be free of illness and possess good health, which is the proper state for practitioners.
The above is my personal understanding. Please point out anything improper. Heshi!