My Technical Skills Increased When My Xinxing Improved
(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Dafa prior to April 25, 1999, but soon after that the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began its persecution of Falun Gong.
Firm Belief in Master Helped Me to Disintegrate Interference and Persecution
I remained steadfast in Dafa when the regime began persecuting Falun Gong practitioners. Veteran practitioners later helped me to go out to clarify the truth. Initially I distributed materials. During that time I let go of many attachments, the worst of which was fear.
The regime agents launched a large-scale persecution campaign against Falun Gong practitioners in the city in which I resided in early 2002. Back then, I knew that I should go out to validate the Fa, so I began making materials. My non-practicing wife was worried about me. She discovered that I always went out during my free time and she said to me one day, “You’re occupied with your things every day. Once you’re arrested, you’ll have nothing left.” I told her, “It’ll be OK.” Since I was not studying the Fa well and didn't yet know about denying the old forces’ arrangements, I left loopholes for the evil forces to persecute me.
There used to be only one large Falun Gong informational material production site in our city, and the authorities monitored it closely. I didn't study the Fa well and often only believed that if I was not afraid, everything would be fine. I was consequently imprisoned and tortured at the police station. I told Master in my mind, “Master, I must do a good job. I will not give them any names or information about the material site.” After that thought, Master sent the following Fa to my mind,
“Indestructible righteous faith in the cosmos's Truth forms benevolent Dafa disciples' rock-solid, diamond-like bodies, it frightens all evil, and the light of Truth it emanates makes the unrighteous elements in all beings' thoughts disintegrate. However strong the righteous thoughts are, that’s how great the power is.” (“Also in a Few Words” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I had immediate insights. I would not allow myself to be tortured. I would disintegrate the tortures. As soon as I sent that thought, I could feel the people handling my case becoming less fanatical. They could not touch me when they tried to burn me with their cigarettes, and neither could their electric batons hit me. They wondered, “Even the death-row inmates can't tolerate these tortures. Why don’t the tortures have any effect on you?”
In addition to my full-time job I was busy with tasks at the material production site, including purchasing and delivering materials. The evil forces in other dimensions could do nothing to me, so they began to persecute my family members. My father fell down the stairs, and his bones from the tailbone up were fractured. He was in his 70s when the accident happened. The doctor told us, “He needs to stay in bed for at least three months.” My family decided to let me take care of him.
No one was home when I got home that night. Father was alone in bed and said, “They’ve all left. They don’t want you to go out to do the dangerous things.” The next morning I told him, “If you let me do Dafa work, you’ll be able to stand up.” Feeling miserable, however, he said, “Then I won’t eat anything this morning so that I won’t need to use the bathroom.” Unmoved by human sentiment, I knew that Master would help me find ways to do Dafa tasks. I put some food next to his pillow and left.
I was busy all day long with everything, and it was already very late when I got home that night. I was surprised to see Father leaning by the side of the bed, but no one was home with him. He told me how he had gradually sat up, got down, and went to the bathroom by himself, even though it took him over 40 minutes to get there and back. He then assured me, “I won’t need you tomorrow. I can take care of myself.”
Dafa gave me the righteous thoughts and allowed my father to benefit. My family also witnessed the miracles that took place with my father.
Learning How to Explain the Facts to People
I had worked on making materials for a long time—printing and making truth-clarifying materials—especially after the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was first published. We used large printers to make large quantities of the Nine Commentaries. After the project was finished I felt lost. Other practitioners went out to clarify the truth. They all did a great job speaking with people, but I didn't even know how to start. I knew I should go out to explain the facts directly to people and advise them to quit the Party.
At first I was unable to adjust my schedule for the new tasks. Soon, a practitioner who was very good at explaining the facts to people asked me to collaborate with her. I accompanied her every day, and wrote down the names of those who were quitting the Party. After a while my confidence grew, and about that time that practitioner was transferred to a different location. In the beginning I only spoke with seniors who looked very kind. When it snowed heavily, I even waited for the seniors to come to me on the sidewalk. Our merciful Master arranged for me to meet all those who have a predestined relationships with me. I helped them to quit the Party.
My Skills Improved Along with My Xinxing
To make materials we have to know to fix the printers, and very few people knew how to fix them. In some areas there was hardly anyone who knew how. To solve that problem, I decided to learn.
Even though I had never used printers before, I believed that Master would help me. With Master’s help I was indeed able to repair printers.
When I first learned how to repair printers, I had some conflicts with other practitioners. Due to my lack of compassion back then, I even planned to buy a train ticket back home before fixing the printer for them. While sitting on a bench in the train station, I calmed down and remembered what Master told us:
“As gods see it, for a cultivator to be right or wrong in the human world is not important in the least, whereas eliminating the attachments that come from human thinking is important, and it is precisely your managing to eliminate those attachments rooted in your human thinking as you cultivate that counts as important. (Applause) If you can manage to handle things calmly no matter how wronged you may feel, if you can remain unmoved and not try to come up with some kind of excuse for yourself, then with many things you won’t even need to argue. That’s because on your path of cultivation there is nothing that is by chance. So, when you get into a heated exchange and it stirs things up in you, or you get into a conflict over something that concerns your vital interests, perhaps the factors behind it were put there by Master. Maybe you only get upset when it's a case of someone saying something that really provokes you or hits a sore spot. And maybe the person really did treat you wrongfully. But, those words weren't necessarily said by that person. Perhaps they were said by me. (Everyone laughs) I want to see how you handle things at the time. When you butt heads with that person, it actually equates to butting heads with me.” (“Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan”)
I learned that I needed to become more compassionate and upgrade my xinxing. That's when I returned from the train depot and repaired the printer.
In order to fix a printer I usually had to take it apart and put it back together several times to determine the problems. Sometimes I felt so tired. I even thought that it would perhaps be better for me to go out to talk to people directly. But as soon as I sat down and studied the Fa, I could see the source of my problems.
Sometimes it looked as if the printer had only one problem. And yet, I could sense there were actually other things wrong with the machine, so I worked on all of them, even though the practitioners couldn't understand why all of a sudden there were so many problems. I also tried to explain to the practitioners at first, but if that didn't work, I would simply work on it without saying anything. I treat all printers as Dafa tools. I treasure and protect them.
Helping practitioners to repair printers actually gives me a very good opportunity to raise my xinxing. I have been on the road visiting different places to repair printers for practitioners, during which time I have come across all kinds of disagreements and conflicts. Constant Fa-study and genuine cultivation has helped me realize that, each time I've raised my xinxing, my technical skills also increased, and miracles occurred afterward.
I began to teach practitioners, whose circumstances made it possible for them to learn, how to repair printers. So far I have taught several dozen practitioners, and many of them can now do it themselves. At the same time I have been constantly correcting myself. Since I lost my job after the persecution began, I put almost all of my efforts into Dafa tasks and had been very poor without an income. Now that practitioners have matured and can take care of the technical problems themselves, I have found a job. I also explain the facts to people and correct myself according to the requirements of Dafa.
I still have many attachments to relinquish. Master has given me so much. I can only follow the requirements of Dafa and move diligently forward and continuously improve.