(Clearwisdom.net)
I have been practicing Falun Gong for two years. From primary school to university, I never heard any positive information about Falun Gong, only the many forms of slanderous news on TV. I was busy studying at that time, and I did not carefully consider what was really the truth. During my university studies in Beijing, I never received any informational materials. I originally disliked the evil party, although I was selected to be an activist to join the party due to my outstanding school work. In the university environment, nearly all of the students with good marks were dragged into joining the party. Many of my classmates joined, but the person in charge of recruiting for the party actually ignored me. I had always come in first in exams in class, but I did not join the party before graduating.
Soon I was admitted to post-graduate study, and in that period I ran into my classmate. He is also a fellow practitioner now, and this predestined relationship is very precious. Thinking back, I am really thankful to this fellow practitioner, as he explained the truth to me well and clearly. In the first year of post-graduate study, we did not live in the same room, and hardly had any contact. We lived in the same room from the second year. I did not know he was a practitioner in the beginning, and this lasted quite a long time, probably because the persecution was quite severe, or I always played games in my spare time. When I look back now, I do feel that I was very confused. After a very long time, we chatted before sleeping at night, and we talked about divine beings. I really enjoyed listening and asked many questions. I felt he was quite right, especially when he talked about the mercy of Buddha, and many people’s minds were not righteous and they worshiped phony Buddhas. I thought he said it really well.
Afterward, I saw him Internet surfing with software to break through censorship. He also told me the general content of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and the true situation of Falun Gong. As I was busy at study, I did not read the “Nine Commentaries”. But once, he played several minutes of a recording of Teacher’s lecture. I remember clearly, it was about prehistoric civilization. I was playing games at that time, but I heard it clearly, although it was only one section. I told myself that I had to read it later. Just before graduation, he asked me if I was willing to withdraw from the Chinese communist youth league on the Epoch Times website. I agreed to it; we probably were the only non-party members in the class. Before we separated, I asked him for the Internet breaking software, and began to search for the truth myself.
I arrived at another city for work, and I felt strange in the beginning when I looked for a job. I had no hope with other companies no matter how hard I tried, but a state-owned business signed me up within two hours of the initial contact. I was quite hesitant, as it was very far from home, yet unexpectedly my mother did not oppose it. School teachers and schoolmates were supportive, and said this kind of company was good. After I settled down in the workplace, I searched for information on the Internet during my spare time. My colleagues hardly ever talked about Falun Gong. I read many persecution facts on the Internet, as well as articles that mentioned the supernatural nature of Zhuan Falun. Finally one day I found all of the Falun Dafa books through the Freegate software, and I downloaded Zhuan Falun onto my work computer. I read when nobody was around. It took me several times to finish reading, and I felt so good. The Fa principles in the book seemed so perfect. Although there were many special words that I came across for the first time, all of a sudden the Fa principles about virtue and karma broke through many of my notions. I was a bit suspicious about what is real. I like rational thinking and found that the principles in the book were reasonable, and I could explain many things that I did not have a solution for. After reading the book, sometimes I was even thinking about the content on my way from work, as if I discovered things in another world. I did not have a computer or Internet where I lived, so I went to an Internet bar when it was packed with people playing games and chatting. I still played games at that time. I just started the game, and then connected to Internet. I was on the Internet all night for a period of time. There were fewer people after midnight, so I could listen to Teacher’s lecture. Sometimes I fell asleep while I was listening, and I continued to listen when I woke up, when there were less people. I watched video footage of the five sets of exercises on the Internet, and I did not know where I got so much courage, when I dared to watch it publicly. I was thinking while I watched, “Let the people beside me watch games or go to sleep”. Very quickly I memorized the formulas for the exercises and most of the movements.
I had no contact with fellow practitioners. Sometimes my colleagues told me which places had people handing out Falun Gong materials, but I always missed them. At the end of last year, I bought a computer and a wireless network card, so I no longer needed to go to the Internet bar, and I stopped playing games. I realized that I began to practice late, so I needed to use all of my spare time to study the Fa, while I read through all of Teacher’s lectures and articles several times. I finished memorizing Zhuan Falun once. During unceasing Fa studying, while getting rid of post-natally acquired notions, I gradually found the matters that interested me before to be tasteless, and to be attachments to be abandoned. I can see nothing in other dimensions, and I hardly have special sensations physically related to cultivation, but I believe it in my heart. I study the Fa for over two hours at night, and practice the fifth exercise after 11 p.m. I could cross both legs soon after I began to practice. It was very painful for over a year. I normally practiced for over half an hour. Later it was not so painful, and sometimes I felt comfortable in meditation. After the exercises, I sent forth righteous thoughts at 12. I do not need an alarm in the morning. I usually wake up by myself at around 5:30 a.m. I practice the first set of exercises several times, before sending forth righteous thoughts at 6, and then I continue exercising for half an hour. My work environment is quite relaxed, so I have more time to study the Fa. I felt my righteous thoughts getting stronger, yet I could not find fellow practitioners, so I read their articles on the Minghui website. I see nothing in my third eye. I just enlighten from the Fa's principles and am fully confident, even when I study and memorize the Fa by myself. I should still be courageous and diligent, and undertake my mission.
Along with more Fa study, I realized I should explain the truth to people around me. I took the opportunity to tell my colleagues, and helped some people to withdraw from the party and its affiliated organizations, including two party members. I spoke to more people, the news spread quickly, and to the ears of company cadres. Our company is state-owned, with many party members, and it definitely does not hire Falun Gong practitioners as a matter of policy. One afternoon in early September, the department head called me in for a chat. On the way there, I guessed what it was about, and prepared myself. As I guessed, the department head asked me straight away if I had urged people to withdraw from the communist party and its affiliated organizations. I answered without reservation. He knew some information about Falun Gong and told me that cadres from the head office were going to speak to me directly. He told them that he would do my “ideological work.” I felt what I did was righteous, and I remained unmoved. He said a lot, and urged me to consider my future. He also asked about Falun Gong, and I told him that Falun Gong had spread to over one hundred countries, along with the news about organ harvesting by the CCP. He could not convince me, so he finally asked me not to talk about withdrawal from the communist party and its affiliated organizations with anyone. I did not agree, and said: “I will not agree to that.” As a Dafa practitioner, I should act according to the Fa, and not guarantee anything to the evil. Finally, he had no more to say, and he just told me to handle it well. At night, I continued to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts to negate all arrangements and the persecution of the old forces. "Hearing the Tao in the morning, one can die in the evening", what would I have to fear?
This matter happened nearly a month ago, and there have been no new developments. I have known the Fa, I am a particle of the Fa, and in this special time, I should try my best to explain the truth and save people.
