(Clearwisdom.net)
Living an Extremely Unhappy Life Before Practicing Falun Dafa
Before I began practicing Falun Dafa (also known as Falun Gong), tribulations always travelled with me. I had little control over half of my body because of cervical spondylosis. For more than 20 years, I had pus in my stools. I also suffered from other illnesses, such as psoitis and heart diseases. Every day I took a lot of medicine.
After I got married, my life became even worse. When our son was one year old, my husband suddenly became mentally ill. This hard blow caused me to fall into despair about life.
Afterwards, I anchored all my hope in my son. However, when he was 10 years old, this hope was dashed, as he also became mentally disordered. Every day, he lost control and threw things and beat people. All the appliances at home were smashed and broken. Looking at my ill son, I felt hopeless and couldn’t stand the tribulations anymore.
I then tried various ways to end my family members’ lives. Once I brought my son to a riverside for a walk, planning to push him into the river, and then I would jump in. But I couldn’t do it.
In order to cure my son, we tried many qigong treatments during those years. In doing so, we spent all of our savings. And none of it had any effect. It was the same for my long-term illnesses. Although I had taken countless medicines throughout years, I never saw any improvement.
Practicing Falun Dafa Led Me to a Bright and Hopeful Future
In 1995, after being introduced to its miraculous effects of healing and fitness, I began practicing Falun Dafa. Since then, I have become the happiest person in the world.
Through studying Dafa’s teachings, I came to understand that all my tribulations were caused by karma from previous lifetimes. I was suddenly enlightened and didn’t have thoughts of suicide anymore.
After practicing Dafa for a period of time, all the illnesses that tortured me for years amazingly disappeared. More miraculously, my son and my husband no longer had their mental disorders. They both recovered without any treatment. Therefore, they supported my practice and were full of gratitude to Master and Dafa. I began enjoying a relaxed and happy life, unlike anything I had ever experienced.
However, after the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began the persecution of Falun Gong in July 20, 1999, I was forcibly taken into custody several times. And I was tricked into being “transformed” while detained in a brainwashing center in 2001. After I was released, I stopped studying Falun Gong’s teachings. My son and husband then persuaded me to restart my practice. One day they held a copy of Master’s article, “A Suggestion” and asked me to read it. I refused to do so in the beginning. Then my son started sobbing uncontrollably, crying, “If you stop your practice, Master will not take care of me. What should I do with my life?” My husband also burst into tears, saying, “Our family will stand no chance if you do not practice anymore.” Seeing both of them crying, I felt sad as well; I therefore took article and started to read it. I got hot and cold after reading it, and I realized that I had made a serious mistake. As a cultivator, it a serious stain to betray Dafa. I didn’t eat or drink anything in the following 10 days, and I felt regret and painful sadness. With tears, I wrote a solemn declaration, announcing my wish to resume my cultivation and telling Master that I would devote my life to safeguarding Dafa!
Devoting My Life to Safeguarding Dafa and Saving Sentient Beings
In order to spread the truth, I bought printers and related equipment to make truth-clarifying materials. Every day I went out to distribute about 200 copies. In 2005 I suffered a severe fever and stomachache. I knew it was interference from the old forces; so I didn’t acknowledge it and still persisted in handing out about 100 copies a day. Sometimes I couldn’t walk due to the severe pain. Then I just sat and took a rest on the roadside.
In 2006 my bile duct was blocked and my face became black and blue. It was so painful that I even thought of death. But immediately, I realized that these thoughts were not righteous and at once denied it. I thought that I could not die, and I must tell people the truth about Falun Gong. In addition, I needed to deliver truth-clarifying discs to fellow practitioners on the following day.
The next day I struggled to arrive at the practitioner’s home. She was scared upon seeing me, asking in surprise, “How did your face become this way?” But from beginning to end, I could feel that Master was near me at every moment. Soon I recovered.
During the process of clarifying the facts and distributing truth-clarifying materials, I encountered danger many times. But each time it was dissolved by revered Master. Once when I distributed materials in a residential community, someone suddenly asked me, “What are you doing?” Then I immediately found six security men in their twenties standing behind me. I thought at that moment, “What I am doing is the greatest and most righteous thing.” Then I clarified the truth about Falun Gong to them. After all of them accepted the facts, I left the community safely under the care of Master.
Another time I asked a middle-school student to quit the Party's organizations. The student then shared this with his father. Upon hearing this, however, his father became angry and suddenly seized my bicycle handlebars. It happened so suddenly that I forgot to send forth righteous thoughts at that moment. More and more people surrounded and watched, and the father also called the police. Standing in the middle, I told him seriously, “You will pay a penalty for doing this. I am a good person. I did not commit any wrongdoing!” He felt regret after hearing this, but the police had already come by this time. It wasn't until this moment that I realized I should send forth righteous thoughts. At the same time, I reminded myself not to fear and mentally asked Master for help. A police officer asked me to get in the police vehicle. I said, “I’m a good person; I don’t belong there.” While asking Master for help in my mind, I began to walk forward with my bicycle. Another officer followed me, saying, “Let me talk with you.”
He attempted to find out my name and address, claiming that he wouldn’t make a record. I didn’t cooperate with him at all. As I looked at him, I sent forth righteous thoughts. When we came to an intersection, I planned to make a turn and told him, “I must leave now!” He made a call for instructions and then said, “You may leave now.” In this way, I finally returned home safely.
On another occasion I was surrounded by a couple while distributing Falun Gong materials, and the man even seized my arm. I then clarified the facts to them. The woman said, “You are lying. My husband is just in charge of this.” I was not affected and kept on clarifying the truth for more than 30 minutes. The couple listened carefully, and finally, the man relaxed his grip, saying, “Well, you can leave now.” I knew it was Master who protected me again.
I once distributed materials to a residential building. When I reached the fourth floor, a resident came out and started to shout after finding me there. I immediately asked Master for help and mentally thought to freeze him there. The man was stopped there; however, I forgot to freeze his mouth. He was still shouting. As I was distracted, I missed a number of steps and fell down to the floor. The floor clanged extremely loudly as soon as I hit it. However, I wasn’t injured and stood up and left safely. Again, it was because of revered Master’s care.
During these years, I kept on going out and telling people the truth about Falun Gong every day. At most I clarified the truth to more than 40 people a day. At the least, I clarified the truth to a dozen people. I felt that it was like wandering around in society, as Master mentions in Zhuan Falun. I encountered all kinds of people. But whoever I encountered, I reminded myself to remain unaffected and to persist in saving sentient beings. My husband and son both supported my clarifying the truth to other people, and they often encouraged me. So far I have helped over 20,000 people quit the Party's organizations.
Revered Master scooped me and my family up from hell, gave me all the best and took care of me on my cultivation path. Only by firmly following Master’s words and walking well on the last leg of my cultivation path can I live up to Master’s compassionate salvation. Thank you, Master!
