(Clearwisdom.net) Teacher told us:
“But what I hope is that after taking a fall, you will all learn something good from it. Don’t always take away bad things from your experiences. When you learn bad things, you are in fact using human thinking to consider things, and becoming more cunning, and sly, which means you are becoming worse. I have spoken with you before about what a bad person is: he is someone who is cunning. Whereas someone who is kind-hearted and whose thinking is not that complicated is a good person.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference”)
When I studied this paragraph, I could not help feeling guilt and grief in my heart.
As secretary of the local Chinese Communist Party committee in the law enforcement branch, I had practiced Falun Gong for less than ten months when the persecution started in July 1999. I knew that Falun Dafa was good and Teacher was good from an emotional sense rather than a rational one. I talked to as many people as I could about the beauty and splendor of Dafa out of excitement and introduced a dozen police officers to Falun Gong. However, I was cultivating while still holding on to my fundamental attachments and human notions because I did not have a rational understanding of the Fa. When faced with the ferocious persecution, the attachment of fear and my cunning human nature that I developed over a long period of time in CCP culture were controlling my thoughts and behavior. On the one hand, I was steadfast in my belief and practice of Dafa. On the other hand, to pass the CCP's examination, I read a magazine article that slandered Dafa during a local CCP committee meeting. My behavior amounted to assisting the evil in committing crimes and spreading poisonous propaganda for the CCP. I had committed the blunder of slandering Teacher and the Fa.
Teacher has boundless benevolence and did not give up on me. Teacher has continued to protect and care for me along my path of cultivation. As I made progress in my cultivation, I felt the guilt more and more heavily. When I thought about what I had done, I felt tremendous regret and remorse. I did not live up to the standard set by Teacher and the Fa. I want to sincerely admit my guilt: “Teacher, I did the wrong thing. Please accept my deep regret and repentance.”
Through continued and in-depth Fa study, I gradually realized the seriousness and danger of my cunning nature. I always resorted to shameful means and methods to protect my personal gain. It was completely contrary to the cosmic nature of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Being cunning is a poisonous element developed in the CCP culture that a cultivator should get rid of. I want to use this opportunity to expose and eliminate it.
I also hope that the practitioners who wrote the three statements for the CCP will at the same time write to and publish on Minghui (Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net) their solemn declarations. Fellow practitioners should learn a positive lesson from my experience and get rid of the habit of being cunning in cultivation. Don't let the evil exploit our loopholes. We must correct ourselves, conduct ourselves with righteous thoughts and deeds, assist Teacher to rectify the Fa, save all sentient beings, and return home with Teacher after achieving consummation.
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