(Clearwisdom.net) We have recently lost three fellow practitioners to sickness karma since February 2011. Every one of us should examine ourselves and evaluate how well we are doing the three things. I'd like to share my personal experience of going through sickness karma, and hope that it can help other practitioners in the same situation.
I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1996. I have always regarded myself as being steadfast in believing in Master and the Fa. I have been doing the three things, but wasn't diligent. Recently, I felt that housework had become overwhelming and it was hard for me to keep a balance between taking care of my children and grandchildren, and studying the Fa. In trying to conform to human society and be a good person, I reduced my time for Fa-study and doing the exercises. I managed to send forth righteous thoughts four times a day, but the quality was poor. I was recently taken advantage of by the evil factors in other dimensions and almost died.
At 2:30 a.m. on April 3, 2011, I woke up feeling pain in the area of my heart. I got up and walked to my husband's bedroom to tell him to send forth righteous thoughts for me, but I collapsed on the floor before I could reach his room. Another wave of pain hit me and I thought, "I have to tell him immediately, or he would never know even after I die here." That thought was not righteous and almost cost me my life. I made it to his bed and was able to say only one sentence, "My heart is not well," and passed out.
I woke up a moment later with no fear. I told myself that no one could harm me, for I am Master's disciple. I felt much better after this thought and was able to go to the bathroom by myself. When I walked out, I thought, "Quite a few fellow practitioners have died under similar circumstances." As soon as I had this thought, I passed out again.
When I came to again, I told my husband that I was fine because I am a Falun Dafa disciple and I do not acknowledge the old forces' arrangements. Immediately, I felt much better.
My husband helped me to my bed and sent forth righteous thoughts with me. I completely recovered. I then burned incense, thanking Master for saving my life. Afterwards, my husband and I went back to bed. When my husband was about to fall asleep, he saw a person in white with messy hair and eyes wide open standing in front of me. Immediately, my husband sat up and sent forth righteous thoughts. Then the person disappeared. It was already past 3:00 a.m.
After sending forth righteous thoughts at 6:00 a.m. the next morning, my husband and I decided not to tell our children about this incident and go back to our home in the countryside as we had previously planned. My legs felt heavy as soon as we set off. I told myself, "I am Master's disciple. I will walk the path Master has arranged for me. I do not acknowledge anything arranged by the old forces." After this thought the heaviness was gone, so I was able to go home and do truth clarification.
I thought I had passed this trial, but the next one came immediately. From my understanding, the evil will never stop persecuting me and trying to drag me down and ruin me.
Upon returning to my children's home from the countryside, my two daughters came to see me in tears. They had found out from my neighbor what had happened before we left, and were upset with me for not telling them. They urged me to be examined by a doctor. My son also did the same as soon as he found out.
I understand that true cultivators have no illnesses. So I told myself, "Okay, I will go, I have no illnesses anyway." My husband and I kept sending forth righteous thoughts on our way to the doctor and asked Master to help strengthen our righteous thoughts.
I kept sending forth righteous thoughts throughout the exam, and, indeed, no illnesses were found. My heart rate was the same as a young person's. The doctor said, "It is rare for someone your age to not have any illnesses." He also told my husband, "So many men develop prostatitis in old age, but you are an exception."
All of my three children witnessed Dafa's power and wonderfulness once again through this incident. They said, "Mom and Dad, please don't be bothered by daily errands. You don't have to escort our kids to school everyday anymore. Please spend more time studying the Fa and practicing." My son called his aunt and said, "Auntie, please practice Falun Gong like my mom. It is wonderful."
I have learned a lesson through this incident. I now understand Master's Fa, "good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences." (Zhuan Falun) As soon as I developed human thoughts, I passed out and as soon as I developed righteous thoughts, supernormal things happened. A divine thought versus a human thought can mean the difference between life or death. I have come to understand how serious cultivation practice is and how important righteous thoughts are.
For the past ten years, many friends and relatives have started practicing Falun Gong after witnessing my physical improvements. They have also benefited from Dafa. If I fail to conduct myself well, then it would bring about huge damage to saving sentient beings, and thus damage Dafa. Master extended my life in order for me to practice cultivation, not to enjoy everyday life.
I would like to remind fellow practitioners that when you are facing a tribulation, make sure to believe in Master and the Fa. Never treat yourself as an everyday person. You must break away from the old forces' arrangements and let go of all human thoughts and notions. Let us only take the path arranged by Master and negate everything else.
