(Clearwisdom.net) When I was young, Mother took me to attend several nine-day Falun Dafa lecture series. Additionally, there were audio lectures playing at home every day. I not only learned that “Falun Dafa is good” and about Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, the Fa-principles became deeply rooted in my heart.
After becoming an adult and getting a job in May 2004, I tried to improve my xinxing as Master asked and tried to validate the Fa with my own righteous actions. Working as a cashier in a supermarket, it is common to make minor errors. I always turned in any extra cash and paid any shortages using my own money. What surprised the head cashier was that during my four years working at that job, I never had a cash shortage.
Starting in October 2008, I did the exercises with Mother every morning and studied the Fa with her every evening. I often went out with her to distribute truth-clarification materials and put up posters. On the way between home and my workplace, I often checked to make sure the posters were still firmly attached and sent forth righteous thoughts so that they would be seen by many people and not be damaged. If I saw discarded materials, I often picked them up and distributed them again.
Once I was told to hold back group bonuses because of a new company policy. My coworker forgot about it and gave bonuses to two people in the group along with their salary. When the third person in the group came, I told her that her bonus was on hold due to company policy. She immediately became furious and asked why only hers was held back, but not the bonuses for the other two people? I told her what had happened and she threw the things in her hand at my head. Many people around us were stunned. I remained calm and kept explaining to her, but it did not help. She continued to swear at me loudly and the people on the entire floor could hear her yelling. While I was being humiliated in front of so many people, I remembered what Master said in Zhuan Falun:
“Someone says: 'If someone kicks me while I’m walking down the street and no one around knows me, I can tolerate it.' I say that this is not good enough. Perhaps in the future you may be slapped in the face twice, and you will lose face in front of someone whom you least want to see it. It is to see how you will deal with this issue and whether you can endure it.”
If this had happened to me in the past, I would have started to cry. In Zhuan Falun, Master also said:
“During the process of transforming karma, to keep yourself under control—unlike an everyday person who would mess things up—you should always maintain a heart of benevolence and a mind of kindness. If you suddenly bump into a problem, you will be able to take care of it properly. When you always maintain a heart of benevolence and compassion, you will have time or room to buffer the confrontation and think, should a problem arise suddenly. If you always think about competing with others and fighting back and forth, I would say that you will start a fight with others whenever there is a problem—this is guaranteed. Thus, when you encounter a conflict, I would say that it is to transform your black substance into the white substance, de.”
While keeping Master’s words in my mind, I kept calm and continued to do my job as if nothing had happened.
There were three openings for a promotion and four people applied. One of them was on maternity leave and the other one worked from home. Although they hardly did anything, they were promoted, while I was not. In Zhuan Falun, Master said,
“If something is yours, you will not lose it. If something is not yours, you will not have it even if you fight for it.”
And,
“Our school of practice directly targets one’s mind. The key issue is whether you can take it lightly and care less about the issues of individual gain and interpersonal conflicts.”
Therefore, I did not pay much attention to it, but continued to do my job well.
Above are my personal understandings. Please point out anything inappropriate.
