(Clearwisdom.net) When I obtained the Fa in 1998, I was very excited at the time. I had in the pat always felt it was so hard to live in the world and I had attempted to commit suicide twice. After obtaining the Fa, I studied the Fa and practiced the exercises every day. My body and mind were assimilated to the Fa. It was so wonderful.
The persecution started less than nine months later however. I went with many fellow practitioners to Beijing to appeal and validate the Fa. I was arrested at Tiananmen Square and taken to the Beijing Office of our city. They called the local police department to pick me up. After I was taken back to the local police station, the police asked my husband to pay 500 yuan in bail. At that time, I was six months pregnant. I was released, but my sister who went to Beijing with me was sent to a detention center.
I moved to another city after my child was born, and opened a store. However, I seem to always have debts no matter how hard I work. I know practitioners should not owe money. But I still have debts although I tried my best. My husband does not have a job, but he spends money at will. In those years, I also sent righteous thoughts to eliminate the financial persecution towards me. After reading fellow practitioners’ articles, I realized that the reason was that I had not exposed that I paid bail before.
After reading Hong Yin Volume III, and looking within, I found my attachments to fighting and profit. My husband and I have been married for more than 20 years. My husband was not the decision-maker, as I took care of everything. If he didn't follow my direction, I complained and scolded him. After studying the Fa, I found my attachments and sent righteous thoughts to eliminate them. Because I didn't do things diligently and did not know how to manage a business, my business didn't run well. I had an attachment to profit and was attached to how much I could earn every day. I rectified my thoughts with the Fa and assimilated to the Fa. I sincerely said to my husband, “Please manage the business. I didn't do well over these years. You would do better than me.”
My husband has had a complete change since that day. He no longer played mahjong, he no longer went with his friends to drink alcohol, and he bought no more lottery tickets. The person who works in our store asked why my husband changed so much. I knew it was a case of “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Zhuan Falun). I will strive forward, cultivate myself well, and talk to more people about Falun Gong while following the path of assisting Master in Fa-rectification.
