(Clearwisdom.net) I am a 38-year-old woman, a farmer from a suburban area of Deyang City, Sichuan Province. I was fortunate to obtain the Fa in 1998. Today, I am summoning all of my courage to write about the difficult life I had earlier on, and the new life I gained after obtaining the Fa. I want to share my story with fellow practitioners.
Falun Dafa Gave Me a New Life
When I was born I was already sick and weak, and no medical treatment could cure the illness. In my youth, I only had a few years of schooling. When I grew up, I was short, skinny, and malnourished. I had no energy and had a difficult time doing anything. I couldn't even wash my own clothes, so it had to be done by my mother. I became a burden to the family.
After the age of twenty, I got married. My husband is also a farmer. There was a lot of work to do in the field, household work, taking care of pets, etc. However, I was in a poor physical condition and had no energy to do anything; neither did I know how to do those things. This made my husband's whole family angry. My mother-in-law began to complain and then verbally abuse me. My father-in-law, my husband, and his sisters all began to be condescending toward me. I had never suffered such abuse before. I got very angry and fought back but I could not win the arguments with them. After getting married, my illnesses such as pyelonephritis (low back pain, frequent urination, etc.) cystitis, hepatitis, chest pain, dizziness, insomnia, and other ailments became even worse. Moreover I was pregnant. My husband was not understanding and wouldn't help me when we had family conflicts. I felt lonely. I passed my days by suffering from illness and insults from the family. Later, I gave birth to a daughter, who was very weak. My mother-in-law became even more fierce. I became angry, which made my head dizzy and my chest pain worsen. I could not stand the suffering and would cry, and felt it was too hard to live anymore. I thought about ending my life and got some pesticide. But when I was ready to drink it, I saw my daughter lying on the bed, and thought, “What would she do without me?” The pain of the possibility of a severed connection between mother and daughter dispelled the idea of committing suicide. Yet, as time went on, my daughter and I lived a life of discrimination. The locals are also aware of my former plight.
One day in 1998, a kindhearted auntie introduced Falun Gong to me. It was a day I will never forget. She said, “You should try to practice Falun Gong. It might greatly change your health and family environment.” I immediately followed her to the practice site and began to learn the exercises. At night, I slept very well. The next day, the pain that I had had in my whole body disappeared. My urine was dark for half a month, and then I recovered from the pyelonephritis. Shortly after that, my remaining illnesses were gone.
Each day I studied the Fa and followed the principles of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance in doing things. I understood that my illnesses and family conflicts were because of the karma I created in the past. I became more open-minded and kind, no longer felt grudges or hatred, and began to have a good relationship with my mother-in-law. My family life was harmonious again, and I became illness-free. How excited I was! Local practitioners were also very happy for me. Suddenly I became healthy and energetic, I could eat anything, and I could do all kinds of household work. My whole family was happy, and they praised Falun Gong. Neighbors also witnessed the extraordinary things that were happening to me.
One by one, other people with predestined relationships around me began to obtain the Fa. I took my daughter with me to practice and went to various places to promote the Fa. Once I rode a cable car with my daughter and practitioners, and went to a far-away town. On the way home, I realized that there was something wrong with the cable car. I rode it to the body shop to have an inspection. The machinist was very surprised and said, “Can this car still run?” I replied, “Yes. We went to a place dozens of miles away to promote Falun Gong and just came back.” He said, “The battery was plugged with the power cable. How come it can drive? Falun Gong is really outstanding. It is really amazing.” I could not express my gratitude towards Master. Then I introduced the practice to those on site and told them my personal story.
Feeling incomparably happy being bathed in the Buddha's light, my youthful face was often covered with smiles!
Getting Up after Falling Down and Catching Up with the Fa-Rectification Process
The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched its persecution of Falun Gong in July 1999. Among the many horrible tactics used, agents from the police station and village committee went door to door to make practitioners sign a guarantee statement to give up Falun Gong. They would arrest and detain those who would not sign the paper. Fearful of the CCP's campaign, my family claimed that not signing the statement would impact my daughter's residential record and her possibility of attending college. My husband and my parents-in-law cooperated with the CCP agents and asked me to quickly sign my name on the paper. Under the pressure, I signed my name. Tears kept flowing and I knew that I had done something that a Falun Dafa practitioner should not do. My heart felt so dirty. I knew it was wrong. I felt sorry to Master and Dafa. I felt very sad, confused, depressed, and had no spirit left, no smiles. I dropped to the lowest point in my life. What should I do? Falun Gong was so good, but the CCP dared to force us not to practice it any more. Why? What was wrong with following the principles of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance? What was wrong with becoming a good person and healthy again, which was beneficial to the country and to everyone? I went to the market and visited some practitioners. One practitioner said, “Get up quickly if you fall down. It is no use to feel sad. You should issue a statement letting people know that your signature is not valid since this was against your will. You should make up for your mistake with action and issue a statement saying you will firmly practice Falun Dafa.” Therefore I used my real name and made a solemn declaration.
After becoming clear and knowing what to do, I began to clarify the truth at home, and exposed the CCP's lies, saying things like: I used to be very sick and couldn't do anything. However, right after I practiced Falun Gong, I became healthy and could do all kinds of work. Falun Dafa does not ask us to pay money. You have all witnessed this. The CCP's propaganda is full of slander and rumors-- do not be fooled. After practicing Falun Gong, I was able to arrange everything well at home and in the fields. We had crops to harvest and we had too many vegetables to consume by ourselves. We also had poultry flocks, and the pigs were fat. I dared not to imagine such a situation before. But the reality was right in front of my eyes. This is our benevolent Master who gave us such a blessing. I started respecting the elderly, and took care of things for them. The neighbors have also witnessed the good acts of practitioners. My mother-in-law also gave up the bad habit of cursing people. The big lump on her leg also disappeared. Her illnesses that relapsed each year also stopped occurring. She also stopped complaining about pain that she used to have in her whole body. Our entire family has greatly benefited. In the evenings, when my daughter watched TV, her father would remind her, “Go to study the Fa with your mother.”
In middle school, my daughter gets along very well with her teachers and classmates. She often clarifies the truth to her classmates at school. Sometimes she brings some of her classmates home if she cannot explain the facts about Dafa well, and asks me to clarify the truth to them. After that, we persuade them to withdraw from the CCP's affiliated organizations. Her classmates have told her, “Your mother knows a lot!”
Saving More Sentient Beings
Later, I felt that I should clarify the truth to more sentient beings. When Master saw me have the wish to save more people, immediately an acquaintance asked me to go to the township to help watch their shop. They trusted that Falun Dafa practitioners would do a good job. The boss purchases some products, then I handle the sales. I hand in the money from the sales a few days later. The boss pays me each month. Because my parents-in-law are very healthy, they take care of all the necessary jobs in the field. The money I earn is used to support the family. My husband also frequently goes out to do some extra jobs. Everyone is happy. I felt that I had an unhappy life before. Now I am bathing in Falun Dafa, and have become a happy flower.
I ride an electric bike and leave for work early in the morning and come home late at night. I study the Fa and do the exercises at home in the morning and at night. During the day time when I do business, I meet many people. When there are no customers, I read Falun Dafa books and practitioner-related news such as Minghui Weekly. At first, I felt nervous when I tried to clarify the truth to people. I would beat around the bush and still could not get to the point. After that I would feel regretful. But soon I met a practitioner nearby. We exchanged our experiences of clarifying the truth to people.
I firmly remember Master's teaching,
“Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy...” (“Rationality” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
After spending more time in Fa study, and exchanging more experiences with other fellow practitioners, I began to be able to feel magnanimous and use all kinds of methods to clarify the truth and assist Master to save more sentient beings. In the past few years, more and more people have heard me clarify the truth. Whenever they walk past our store now, they will greet me with a smile.
Sentient beings are awakening. Through clarifying the truth to people, many businessmen with predestined relationships have also gradually begun to practice cultivation. Previously it was common to see robberies and even murder on the street where our store is located. Now, with the glory of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance, the environment and the people have begun to change for the better. Some customers have said, “We should change the name of this street to Falun Gong Street. No matter what we buy, we are able to hear the truth. Plus, these are genuine goods with a good reputation.” Not only the people, but town officials and the police are aware. This is Buddha's compassion, and the fortune of sentient beings.
Recently, I studied Master's new scriptures, and realized that I still have a lot areas that I need to improve on, or am not doing well enough in. Sentient beings came to this world to obtain the Fa. There are still a lot of beings who are poisoned by the atheism of the CCP and have not found the way to return their genuine home; they only pay attention to the benefits directly in front of them and refuse to learn the truth. They are the most miserable ones. I must spend more time in Fa study, and study the Fa well, and guide young practitioners to do the three things well. I will try to live up to Master's expectations!
