(Clearwisdom.net) A motorcycle hit me outside my home one evening in April 2000. My entire family saw the accident and they were all shocked. I said, "I'm all right." I asked the rider to carry me into the house and told him that he could leave.
The next day my son said, "Let's go to the hospital and get you checked out. We can rest easy if everything is all right." At the hospital, the x-ray showed three injuries to my lumbar spine, and we were told that I was in very critical condition. My son decided that I should stay in the hospital to get treatment and left me without any choice in the matter.
After being hospitalized for 27 days, however, I was still paralyzed and could not look after myself. The doctors suggested that I was permanently disabled. At that critical moment, several practitioners came to see me. I was very grateful for that visit, as I felt so ashamed of not passing this test. The practitioners were very concerned, asked about my injuries and the effects of the treatment. I told them, "I have not moved since I arrived here and am still in the same position." My fellow practitioners asked me what I wanted to do. I answered immediately that I would return home to study the Fa and take the path arranged by Teacher. The hospital was not the place for me. The hospital agreed to discharge me.
I looked within and realized that I was a practitioner and thus I should measure everything with the Fa and I should also look within. Looking within is a magical tool and fundamental to passing all tests.
I was unable to sit up, so I read Zhuan Falun while lying down and kept sending righteous thoughts. Ten days later I was able to look after myself and after 15 days I could walk with the help of a stick to the practice site to do the exercises. After the exercises I went back home and didn't realize until reaching my home that I have left the walking stick at the practice side. This was indeed a miracle. After my neighbors witnessed this, they had a heated discussion. They agreed that Falun Gong's Teacher was truly a real God.
From looking within, I realized that I had not been clarifying the truth well. I was ill at ease when telling people about the persecution of Falun Gong. I failed to be calm and composed. I realized that I was still worried about protecting myself and that this attitude was keeping me from doing well in talking to people about Faun Gong. Nor did I do well in persuading people to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its subordinate organizations. I had a combative attitude and was annoyed when they didn't thank me and were rather distant. I held the thought, "Don't blame me when calamities strike!"
I felt very depressed for failing to do well in persuading people to withdraw from the CCP's organizations. I looked within and held the thought: "I descended with Teacher to help Teacher to rectify the Fa and save sentient beings. I made grand vows and understood that anything involving saving human lives was of the greatest importance. Therefore, I should not blame others when I fail to do a good job in persuading people to quit the CCP and its subordinate organizations. Teacher has asked us to look within. The reason why I failed was that I had human notions. This meant that I lacked the power of the Fa and lacked compassion."
"The greatest manifestation of shan is compassion, and it is an expression of tremendous energy. It can disintegrate all that is not right." ("Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference")
I understood that if I had the Fa in my heart, there would be nothing to be afraid of. Therefore, I studied the Fa with a calm mind, did the exercises, and sent forth the righteous thoughts. I sent a very powerful righteous thought that, as a Fa-rectification period practitioner, I must assimilate into the Fa.
After I generated this thought, everyone that came to our factory to process grain quit the CCP organizations after I talked to them. They also repeatedly thanked me for telling them. I told them that they should thank our Teacher. Predestined people continued to come to me. On the surface, I doing this, but, in essence, it was Teacher. Those who withdrew from the CCP organizations usually persuaded all their family members to do the same.
Teacher is actually beside me, protecting me. I am able to walk normally again after being paralyzed. My health was completely restored, and I feel very light. I feel as if I am being pushed when I ride a bike, and the grain processing factory is operating well. I also began helping with the household chores again. On witnessing the changes in me, all my neighbors said, "Falun Dafa is good and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good."
This is my personal sharing. Although my thoughts are very simple, it's what I experienced when helping Teacher. Please kindly point out any shortcomings.
