(Clearwisdom.net) I was persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and became homeless for years. My husband also suffered from pressure by the CCP, which included deception, intimidation, threats and so on. So he misunderstood me and refused to provide for me any longer. Without financial support for my daily subsistence, my cultivation path was fraught with difficulties.
I could not clear up his misconceptions. Instead, I resented him, because he, despite being affluent, refused to financially support me or contact me during all these years.
I improved my xinxing through Fa study and cultivation and gradually let go of my resentful thoughts. However, a trace of resentment still remained in my mind. I followed Teacher's requirement of saving sentient beings and so spoke to my husband about Falun Gong a few times. I lived by the principles of the Fa, looked inwards and improved my mindset. I sent forth righteous thoughts for my husband to eliminate all evil influences in his environment. Finally, I helped him overcome his poisoned mind.
I felt that Teacher always protected me during that period of time. I realized that Teacher would give me wisdom, abilities and guide me to free my husband from the CCP's traps, as long as my mindset for saving sentient beings was firm and my xinxing had improved. One most memorable incident was when my husband harangued me for destroying his life, which I persistently denied. I then felt a huge current of energy bursting out from my right hand. It was the time for sending righteous thoughts. I immediately lifted up one palm and my husband suddenly changed and asked for my forgiveness. My face was bathed in tears. I deeply appreciated Teacher's benevolence and the solemnity of Dafa. I also appreciated Teacher' compassionate salvation through which my family could learn the truth.
I had studied the Fa from a hand-written copy of Zhuan Falun for many years because I had not been in touch with fellow practitioners. I progressed very slowly. I then found a truth clarification flyer and I started to read lectures from the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom) , as well as articles written by fellow practitioners. I benefited deeply and kept improving my xinxing. I began to write and submit articles to the Minghui website. If published, I learned much from the edit and comments and improved further. Even when my articles were not published, I learned from the articles written by fellow practitioners. I then looked inward to eliminate my attachments, attitudes and shortcomings. I have benefited from this a lot.
On one occasion, I was moved to tears when during experience-sharing I saw how fellow practitioners improved. At that moment, I let go of all my attachments, especially the resentment. I felt fellow practitioners' selfless contribution and experienced their pure mind, as well as the mighty virtue of Dafa and Teacher's benevolence. I found many of my shortcomings.
Under Teacher's compassionate protection, our practitioners' cooperation grew stronger and we are still standing firm despite ten years of persecution. I firmly believe that, with Teacher and the Fa, we will grow more mature in our cultivation, more harmonious, cooperate better and become more capable in saving sentient beings. We carry out our historic mission to save sentient beings by assisting Teacher in the Fa-rectification.
Thank you, great and benevolent Teacher! Thank you, fellow practitioners!
Category: Improving Oneself
