(Clearwisdom.net) An experience clarifying the truth made me realize that attachments deeply hidden in my heart have interfered with me while clarifying the truth.
Because I clarified the truth to others in my work place, my boss had a talk with me, trying to convince me to stop. I thought that it was a good opportunity to tell him why the CCP persecutes Falun Gong, and that Master teaches us to be good people. I had been arrested before. I was afraid and the result of my discussion with the boss were not good. He said to me, "We do not support or oppose, but you cannot say such things in the work place." So, I temporarily stopped clarifying the truth.
After a period of time of studying the Fa, my level of enlightenment increased. One day, one of my co-workers quit her job and wanted to go home, however, she did not leave immediately and stayed for quite a while. I thought of the reason why she did not leave. It must be because Master wanted me to clarify the truth to her. It was a chance arranged by Master for me to improve myself and a chance for her to be saved. However, when facing her, I just could not open my mouth.
I looked inward. What on earth was the barrier? After analyzing my thoughts, I found the most fundamental attachment hidden deep in my heart: selfishness.
The sufferings that I had experienced before manifested because of my selfishness. When doing things, my thoughts were always centered on how I felt, what I did for Dafa and what I would obtain. I would be happy if others praised me, unhappy when others disagreed with me. After clarifying the truth, if people did not accept it, I felt uncomfortable, and if they accepted it, I felt good. I found that all of these came from selfishness. I was self-centered and considered my own feelings first when doing anything. Is this not something from the old universe? Master tells us to cultivate to become selfless, altruistic, righteous and enlightened beings.
I made up my mind to break though this barrier. After calming down, I took a Falun Dafa bookmark and told her, "Keep it. Our karmic relationship allowed us meet. Remember what is written on it. Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good. I wish you the best of luck. One day you will know that what I give you is the best." She gladly accepted it, "Thank you. I need to go home now". I stood there in amazement after seeing her reaction.
Through this experience, my heart suddenly felt relaxed. I know that as long as I follow Master's Fa, treat and save people with compassion, Master will help me. I enlightened that, as a disciple, we need to treat every problem based on the Fa principles, break though our attachment of selfishness and do what we should do as Falun Dafa practitioners.
