(Clearwisdom.net) I used to have quite a problem with my attachment to fear. Because of it, I have experienced many obstacles in my process of doing the three things, as a Dafa disciple should.
When a fellow practitioner gave me dozens of truth-clarification posters to be put up, I was uptight, scared, and looking around constantly. I felt that there were eyes everywhere, making my voice sound stressed and strange, and my appearance look unnatural. I didn't have the courage to refuse her offer and after she had left, I wrapped them up with paper layer after layer and hid them away. A few days later, I took out about a dozen of them. Then I waited until late at night, carried the posters on my bike, and after making many turns and with some difficulties I finally posted a few of them. As I was getting into bed, I felt insecure suddenly about a poster that I had pasted near the entrance of an alley. Some passerby might have seen me and taken a picture of what I was doing. So I hurried out of my bed, dressed, and rushed back to the alley and took the poster down.
Afterwards, I was ashamed of myself for what I did. Having read Minghui Weekly, thinking about fellow practitioners making informational materials and passing them out, knowing their grand actions in clarifying the truth in person, I greatly respect their noble spirit in assisting Teacher rectifying the Fa of universe. Sometimes I was touched to the point of tears. I wondered why this has happened. Since we all study the same Fa--the same Zhuan Falun, fellow practitioners have done so well, why have I myself done so poorly?
I dug into my mind deeper and found that what barricaded my advancement was my attachment to fear. Why did I have such a strong fear? It was all postnatal notions. I am a Dafa practitioner, protected by Teacher's Law-Bodies, and guided by Dafa. I must disintegrate the attachment of fear and clean it out! Hence, I kept strengthening Fa study, reciting Teacher's Fa-teachings, and reading some fellow practitioners' experience sharing articles.
As Teacher's Fa made me brave, when going out again to distribute materials, my state of mind became more stable each and every time. I changed areas for sticking fliers, from quiet places to more populated areas, from small alleys to shopping markets, malls and promenades as well as bus stops, schools, factories, empty place in front of the local courthouse and its surrounding areas, small communities, teachers' apartments, court dormitories, district and city's residential buildings for Chinese Communist Party (CCP) officials. In the process of distributing truth materials, my attachment of fear has been getting less and less, and the quantity was getting bigger and bigger--from less than a hundred to more than a hundred. Thus I came to realize, the small posters such as "Falun Dafa is good; Truth-Compassion-Forbearance is good", "Heaven wants to destroy the CCP; withdrawing from CCP guarantees your safety" are really powerful. These are just like powerful neutron bombs, capable of destroying all the rotten ghosts and evil Communist spirits in other dimensions, so that we are able to save the Chinese people controlled by evil Communist spirits.
When people are leaving or coming home, they would automatically walk by stairway entrances where they could see signs of Falun Gong as well as what will happen to the CCP. These statements will naturally take root in their hearts, their microscopic fields of life, rendering them able to be saved by Dafa.
When Dafa truth stickers were in short supply, I bought some self-adhesive tape to make my own. There are some benefits to writing my own materials such as convenience, quantity and time--all suitable to my own plans as well as those of fellow practitioners.
Prior to writing Dafa statements either on real money or on self-adhesive tape, I always send forth righteous thoughts, requesting strength and guidance from Teacher and also asking guardian gods for protection. Righteous thoughts are able to suppress evil and destroy disorder as well as overhaul the human mind and to save people. Because Dafa saves people, we Dafa disciples are merely spreading the sacred information--that is to say, as Dafa dissolves and nurtures us, we embody, rectify, and assist, with our sincere cultivation, the mighty virtue of Dafa.
I distributed booklets, fliers, DVD's, and Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party early on, but only at night, and only in downstairs locations. After continuously studying the Fa, the attachment of fear, I felt, must be eliminated. Furthermore, I found that shorter and older residential structures in the city are getting less and less, and more people seem to be living in the much taller and newer buildings. If I don't change the area where I've been distributing materials, I would be reaching fewer and fewer people. Doing the distribution at night, lights have to be turned on, otherwise it's harder to see things. It would be easier to be spotted by residents and security guards.
Since it is urgent to save sentient beings, Dafa disciples should take control of time and the manner in which we use it. As far as we are concerned, as long as it's about saving people, regardless of the time, it is safe. Even when alone we have Teacher's Law Bodies and guardian gods. Therefore, I tried to distribute materials during the daytime, and it turned out pretty well. Now, frequently I do it during the day. Fellow practitioner A and I are housewives and go to work too, so our time is very tight--we help each other. She burns DVD's, and together we print weekly news and do the distribution. Sometimes when more materials reach us, we both distribute it together during the daytime. Even though we have come across security personnel or more people staying outdoors in the summer time, they didn't bother us at all.
It has been reported on the Clearwisdom website that some distributed materials were destroyed in some areas, and this was brought to my attention. Thus, I made some adjustments in distributing materials, such as when doing it in the daytime, we wrapped the Nine Commentaries in old newspapers and hung it on the door handle of the resident, making sure that the materials will safely arrive in the people's hands.
