(Clearwisdom.net) My cultivation state has not been good for quite some time. I haven't sent righteous thoughts at the four set times each day, haven't adequately studied the Falun Dafa teachings and haven't gotten up early to do the exercises. When I reflected on my cultivation state, I realized that I'd been interfered with by my attachment to comfort.
I recognized that this was interference. I felt interference from all kinds of bad substances. However, I still couldn't become alert. In the evenings when my wife returned home, I became a little bit better after working with her to convince people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) on the internet, and listening to her daytime cultivation stories. Nonetheless, I became sloppy again after she left for work the next day. This problem lasted three days. On the third afternoon, I thought over my situation and started to realize that the old forces were trying to drag me down by taking advantage of my human notions, and the bad substances in my field that I have not eliminated. They would drag me down if I didn't study the Fa.
I realized that I should study, so I returned home and turned on my computer. I watched Teacher's Fa lecture while sitting in the in the full lotus position. My mind encountered strong interference while I was watching. All sorts of human thoughts and bad substances continuously created more bad thoughts and feelings in my mind. Then I thought to myself that I just wanted to assimilate to Dafa. I am a cultivator. I wanted to listen to Teacher's Fa attentively. After thinking that way, the interference continued to surface in my mind, but I negated it. After listening to one lecture, my mind became alert.
However, I missed the exercises again the next morning. I looked inward and realized that in addition to the fact that I couldn't do the morning exercises, I also didn't want to cultivate diligently, but instead lived as an everyday person to make my life easier. For example, after I realized that I was being interfered with and wanted to study the Fa, I chose to watch the Fa lecture video instead of reading the book. Why did I behave that way? It was exactly because I felt that it was harder to read than to watch the video. How serious my attachment to comfort is! Doesn't that show that I am attached to everything of an everyday person's life?
Teacher pointed out:
"Whether you can let go of ordinary human attachments is a fatal test on your way to becoming a truly extraordinary being. Every disciple who truly cultivates must pass it, for it is the dividing line between a cultivator and an everyday person." ("True Cultivation" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
If I don't want to eliminate my attachment to comfort, this also means that I don't want to cultivate to a higher level. The attachment to comfort is not only an impediment to Fa study, exercises and sending righteous thoughts, but also affects my every thought. Subsequently, I'm not able to be on the Fa all the time and treat myself as a cultivator. This in turn severely affects the task of saving sentient beings requested by Teacher. Such an attachment has affected the three things required for us to achieve consummation. It is indeed a very serious issue.
Today, I also realized this major loophole by reading an article by a fellow practitioner. I wrote this article to eliminate the attachment and also disintegrate the rotten demons and evil specters that interfered with my cultivation by taking advantage of my loopholes.
