(Clearwisdom.net) I was initially a poor talker. After I started practicing Falun Gong I came to understand the meaning of life and realized being slow of speech and tongue was not bad at all. I understood that the loss of personal benefit was nothing, and having the opportunity to practice Dafa was worth everything! I stopped paying attention to being slow of speech and tongue.
However, the problem arose when it came to speaking with people of the truth about Dafa and the persecution. How could I do it while being slow of speech? I thought my writing was relatively good, so I could explain the facts on the Internet. People "came to me" via computer as soon as I logged onto the Internet. Later on I could successfully persuade people to quit the evil Chinese Communist Party (CCP). The results were pretty good.
However, explaining the facts while at work remained a difficulty. Working in a municipal institution under the ruling of the evil CCP, every employee is subject to the evil Party's threat at any time. As soon as one hears the truth, he/she would become quite nervous and worry others would find out and report him/her so that he/she would be punished. Given my clumsiness with words, I have not been able to speak with large groups; I was only able to speak with a few close friends and the result was therefore limited.
During the 2009 Chinese New Year, my workplace and supervising institution sponsored a sports event attended by more than 300 people. I had planned to explain the facts during the event; however, I could not open my mouth when the time came. I found myself so petty that day and felt defeated. During the 6:00 p.m. global sending righteous thoughts, I saw in another dimension that my righteous thoughts had eliminated the evil in the entire field of the sports event, and the remaining people were shouting and jumping for joy surrounding a stage. I was on that stage. I understood that Master saw my lack of righteous thoughts and in his compassion let me see this - to encourage me and strengthen my confidence.
From then on I started to hand out Shen Yun Performing Arts DVDs among co-workers, given that I was not good with words. Normally I gave these face-to-face as a small gift, and told the recipient it was a very beautiful show to enjoy watching. Someone reported me, and an official talked to me about it. He was relatively polite, but conveyed the request that I not explain things about Dafa and the persecution, or hand out disks. He softened when I took the opportunity and calmly explained the facts to him. He reminded me to be careful, or he could not protect me if he himself was implicated. I thanked him, realizing that I had to pay more attention to others' level of acceptance, to avoid bringing them too much pressure.
These experiences and Master's guidance have changed me from being glad about being slow of speech and tongue to realizing its shortcomings, and overcoming it little by little.
I am still far from those practitioners who are good with words, but I will do better and better.
