(Clearwisdom.net) I am 60 years old and began Falun Dafa cultivation in 1998. Before I began cultivating, I had all kinds of illnesses. I tried various medicines and methods, but my illnesses did not get any better. Everything I tried only made me suffer more, and I was wasting money.
Just as I was about to give up all hope, I became a practitioner on October 6, 1998. After five days, all my illnesses disappeared and I was no longer in any pain! I couldn't describe the happiness I felt. I was amazed: How could Dafa and Teacher be so good? Without an injection or medicine, all my illnesses had disappeared. How could I be so lucky? I secretly made up my mind that I would cultivate diligently. If it were not for Teacher, I probably would not be alive today. It was Teacher who arranged everything and has taken care of me.
Validating the Fa
In less than a year after I began cultivation, the CCP began persecuting Falun Dafa. One by one, practitioners went to Beijing to appeal and to clarify the truth about Dafa. At the time, knowing that such a good cultivation way and Teacher had given me a second life, I had to commit all my efforts to validating the Fa. I went to Beijing to appeal to the government without a moment of hesitation. But I was arrested as soon as I arrived and held in a detention center for 45 days. In 2002, I was arrested again and sentenced to three years in prison. I was able to get out after two and a half years. But practitioners were being ill-treated in prison and their families were implicated. During those two years, my father and I spent New Year's eve in prison.
Walking Out from under a Shadow
Unable to study the Fa during several years of imprisonment, I suffered from interference: I developed severe anxiety and fear when I got out of prison. How severe was my fear? I was even scared when I heard cars honking loudly, bicycle bells, doorbells, and the ringing of the phone. When I heard any kind of ringing, I shook all over and I couldn't stand up or speak. When my father asked me what was wrong, I spoke indistinctly and signaled him to play Teacher's lectures. I felt a little better when I listened to Teacher's lectures. Teacher took care of me during that critical time. I couldn't possibly have passed each test and tribulation without the help of Teacher.
My personal understanding is that practitioners who have come out prisons and forced labor camps will need understanding from other fellow practitioners. We need to use righteous thoughts to help them, study the Fa together, share with them, and send forth righteous thoughts together. We should not embrace any kind of bad thoughts about them and thus create bad feelings in the space surrounding those practitioners. It will not help them, and it will hurt them.
I study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts every morning and go out to clarify the truth in the afternoon. I also write articles and go to the countryside to distribute information material about Falun Dafa. Plus, I go to the vicinity of prisons to send forth righteous thoughts even when it's raining. I sat in the woods for an hour and sent forth righteous thoughts. In the beginning, I had fear. Then I discovered that my fear became less each time, and my bad thoughts were eliminated more and more. Sending forth righteous thoughts near the prison made me feel very light--it became better and better and my fear disappeared. It was like Teacher said, "If thoughts are righteous, evil will collapse." ("What's to Fear?" from Hong Yin II) The evil is nothing. It was Teacher who saved me during the most difficult time. Teacher led me back to validate the Fa and to save sentient beings.
Clarifying the Truth and Saving Sentient Beings
Teacher gave me back my life. Clarifying the truth and saving sentient beings are our greatest duty, which Teacher has entrusted to us. After getting out of prison, I was able to walk out of its shadow with Teacher's protection and the help of fellow practitioners. My condition has improved and I am able to clarify the truth better.
Most of my and my husband's relatives live in the countryside. The living conditions in the country are pretty awful. I always brought gifts when I visited them. I carried the gifts in a bag on my back when I visited each home to clarify the truth and to encourage them to withdraw from the CCP. I disregarded the severe cold in winter and intense heat in summer. On rainy days, the roads were very muddy. I often stepped in cow dung and got trapped when my shoes got stuck, and my bag fell in the mud. Carrying an umbrella along with a bag on my back, I walked on the muddy road from home to home without missing even one. Some of our relatives were highly poisoned by the CCP, and I clarified the truth to them many times until they understood and agreed to quit the CCP.
After I finished clarifying the truth to my relatives, I did the same to friends, neighbors, and colleagues. I studied the Fa in the morning and clarified the truth in the afternoon without a break, even during the New Year holidays. I was able to persuade more than a dozen people to quit the CCP each time.
