(Clearwisdom.net) I am a retired government employee who fortunately came to know Dafa on July 13, 1996. At that time I didn't think much about doing the exercises to get rid of my illness, but I read, copied, and recited Zhuan Falun eagerly. Even if I did not get to eat or sleep, I would never spend a day without studying Zhuan Falun. In my years of Dafa cultivation I never abandoned the Fa and clearly remember Master's words,
"Cultivate Dafa with all your heart, nothing could be more important." ("Gaining the Fa" in Hong Yin)
Since I am a Dafa disciple, Dafa takes priority in my life, because it is the Law of the Universe that has created everything. I only stopped studying the Fa during three incarcerations in a detention center and one time in a brainwashing center. Otherwise, each day I read three chapters of Zhuan Falun. Up to now I have read Zhuan Falun more than one thousand times.
As a government employee, I know that without Master's care and the truth of the Fa, it was unlikely that I would ever have been able to abandon my attachments to recognition, benefits, and emotions; nor would I have been able to disclose the CCP's evildoings, clarify the truth, and walk correctly on the cultivation path in the face of such insane persecution.
When I studied the Fa, I realized I didn't do enough to clarify the truth and offer sentient beings salvation. Initially I did not dare to explain the facts face to face or go to city leaders to clarify the truth to them. Second, fear and self-preservation held me back from venturing out to distribute informational materials. My repeated attempts to overcome this obstacle failed. I knew my notions held me back and I agonized about that. When Master saw that I wanted to offer sentient beings salvation and that I wanted to rid myself of fear, he enlightened me from the Fa and let fellow practitioners remind me. Now I have overcome these attachments. I can clarify the truth to whomever I meet, and as long as a thing is relative to rescuing people, I will do it. Now I clarify the truth face to face, use paper money inscribed with truth-clarifying messages, distribute informational materials, and log onto the Internet to explain the facts to others. I let go of my attachments and ego. When I do Dafa things, I become calm.
I will share my experiences in clarifying the truth and persuading others to do the "three withdrawals" (withdrawing from the Chinese Communist Party and its youth organizations). If I have any shortcomings, please correct me.
Comprehending the Fa and letting go of fear
I worked in an administrative department and knew many people. Because I refused to denounce Falun Gong, I might have lost my job, but it led merely to sanctions. Because I financially supported fellow practitioners to go to Beijing to appeal, I was criticized at citizens' meetings attended by several thousand people, and I became a "famous" Falun Gong practitioner. I was required to report my issues within a certain time and at a certain place, but their private comments about my job performance were excellent. This is actually a comment on Dafa disciples, as it is Dafa that makes me an excellent person.
Knowing lots of people at work provided me with good opportunities to clarify the truth and offer sentient beings salvation, but at the same time, this was also difficult to do. Since I had been detained, some people were afraid of getting in touch with me for fear of guilt by association. I used to be these people's leader, but some of them didn't understand why I would say the CCP was no good or why I wanted to persuade people to do the three withdrawals.
I am cultivating myself into a divine being. Even if there are difficulties, I still need to clarify the truth. Because I know many people and it is easy for me to get along with others, I persist in clarifying the truth face to face. No matter whether they are from the State Security Department, the Politics and Law Committee or the 610 Office, or are my former classmates, I never miss any opportunity. Even if some of them are unwilling to do the three withdrawals, I still tell them about Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
In the first half of 2006, a boss reported me when I told him the facts about the persecution. From then on I was afraid to clarify the truth. Fear restricted me for several months, and I was reluctant to tell people the facts anymore. My wish to live a comfortable life became stronger.
Through studying, reciting, and copying the Fa and reading practitioners' experience sharing articles, I found the root of my fear--ego! I was afraid of having a tough time, of being persecuted, of making my family suffer for me, and of losing my advantages and being harmed. I realized that my fear and ego were human instincts that prevented me from doing righteous things with righteous thoughts. I have always done things to validate the Fa but not in an open and dignified manner. I didn't wholeheartedly devote myself to this process. Instead, I thought too much and didn't really behave like a divine being, which weakened my power to resist the evil. I realized if I let go of self-centeredness, it would be easy for me to get rid of my fear and achieve the best truth-clarifying results.
Everyone I get in touch with is someone I should offer salvation to
Since Minghui broadcasts the exercise music, I have started to do the exercises at night and do not go to sleep until I send righteous thoughts. In the morning I can read a chapter of Zhuan Falun after I send righteous thoughts. Then I go out to clarify the truth. Many people come out to do business, and I might meet more people. Whenever I meet someone, I tell the person about Falun Gong in a natural way. I don't need to go to their homes. Meeting anyone these days, I unhesitatingly clarify the truth; once you hesitate, you lose the opportunity. I take Dafa amulets (1), paper money with truth-clarification messages written on it, and other materials. When I meet my supervisor, colleagues, and friends, I ask about their health and then tell them the facts. If I see someone buying vegetables, I ask whether it is expensive or good quality. Any way I can, I try to start a conversation and then clarify the truth face to face. So long as you want to rescue people, you can talk to them in any circumstances. When you really think that the three things are things Master has asked us to do and think about offering sentient beings salvation, you think less about yourself and can rescue more sentient beings.
Fellow practitioners risk their lives to make and distribute lots of informational materials, but today there are so many advertisements posted everywhere that sometimes when people see them, they just take them to be ordinary advertisements and throw them into the trash, missing the chance to be rescued. Once I clarified the truth to a Buddhist kulapati (a guru or head person) who said she often found Falun Gong materials in her mailbox but never read them and just threw them away. "Today I have listened to you and know that Falun Dafa is a righteous Fa and that it is persecuted. I will read the materials later."
One of our missions is to clarify the truth and offer sentient beings salvation. By studying and comprehending the Fa more, egocentricity and fear formed in the old universe are decreasing. Now I keep thinking about how to offer more sentient beings salvation in an efficient way, and just think about others. I want sentient beings to know Dafa's goodness, tell them the truth, and give them an opportunity to be saved. As I said above, I previously was too fearful to distribute materials, but now I do it even though I know face-to-face truth clarification is somewhat restricted by circumstance and it is also difficult to tell people profound things. If you send them materials, after they read them, having face-to-face contact will clear up their misunderstandings. Once these people know and tell the truth to others, they then become our word of mouth "media" to clarify the truth and thus give more people an opportunity for salvation.
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(1) Amulets - In China, practitioners sometimes clarify the truth by giving people something small to wear or cherish, bearing a few words reminding them of the goodness of Dafa.
