(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Gong during 1998. Back then, I had firm faith in Master and I conducted myself according to Dafa's requirements. My character improved a lot and my previous stubborn diseases like neurosis, a weak heart, atherosclerosis of the heart and brain blood vessels, gynecological diseases, anemia, and low blood pressure all disappeared. Having seen such a huge change in my physical condition over a very short period of time after I started to practice, my husband, who is a non-practitioner, greatly supported my cultivation in Falun Dafa. I respected Master and the Fa, cultivated enthusiastically and vigorously, and I achieved the status wherein my body felt light and was free of all disease.
On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party and Jiang Zemin started to suppress Falun Gong with a full-scale persecution. Simply because I posted on a wall the words from my heart: "Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance is good, Falun Dafa is the righteous law," I was forcibly taken away by the 610 Office, illegally arrested and had to serve three years of imprisonment at the Jinan Women's Prison.
When I came home in 2004, I found that my family's attitude towards me had completely changed. My daughter was a teacher. The Education Department had a rule that teachers' relatives were not allowed to practice Falun Gong. She had thus been pressured by her workplace, her colleagues, and her family. My son worked in Jinan City and his mind also suffered a heavy blow. Although he was already 29 years old then, he still did not have a girlfriend. He was afraid that if he had a girlfriend, she would ask about his mother and know that his mother was in a prison. My husband was a construction worker. He went out to work early and came home late, yet he still had to cook dinner himself. Sometimes because of working overtime or traveling for a great distance, he came home very late, tired and hungry. It was really an ordeal for him. So, they vented all of their grievances on me. They did not allow me to continue my cultivation in Dafa. I was allowed to practice only at home if I wanted to practice, and I was not allowed to clarify the truth outside.
Because of the change in my health, my husband and my children all knew that Falun Dafa was good. Their reason for opposing me after I was released was that "the Chinese Communist Party governs China. No matter how great Falun Gong is, do not practice it if you are not allowed to." Being interfered with by sentimentality, sometimes I thought about things with my human attachments. But I was a Dafa practitioner. My faith in Master and the Fa did not change, and I did not forget that Master asked us to do the three things well. With no other choice, I did things in secret. Once my husband discovered that I was distributing truth-clarifying materials. When I came home at midnight, he said to me, "How long were you out? I was so worried." I thought that it was not right if I kept doing things like that. Master taught us to "Clarify the truth thoroughly, eliminate the evil with righteous thoughts, save all beings, and safeguard the Fa with determination" ("Dafa is Indestructible", Essentials for Further Advancement II). What we are doing is saving people, which is righteous. The more secretly I did it, the more afraid they became. Ordinary people should move with Dafa while Dafa disciples should definitely not move with ordinary people. They all came here to learn the truth and obtain Dafa. I thought that I should not keep treating them as my family and that I should save them, regarding them as sentient beings. I then told them of the crimes that the Chinese Communist Party had committed, the reason why I clarified the truth to the world's people, and the different kinds of indicators showing that the heavens will eliminate the Chinese Communist Party. I also told them about the grand situation of Dafa spreading all over the world and the situation of the three withdrawals (withdrawing from from the Communist Party, the Youth League, and the Young Pioneers), etc.
Now my husband does not fear Dafa any longer. He does not question me about distributing truth-clarifying materials, and he does not lose his temper with me no matter how long it takes for me to do the three things. When it is time for sending forth righteous thoughts, he often reminds me as well. Seeing that nothing could sway my mind in studying Dafa, my children no longer say anything. Furthermore, they all withdrew from all of the Chinese Communist Party's organizations.
I have written about my experience to remind fellow practitioners who still have the attachment of fear when facing their families. You should not be afraid of this or that when facing your family members. Clarify clearly what needs to be clarified and let go completely of what needs to be let go. The result will be, "After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!" Zhuan Falun (Third Translation Edition)
