(Clearwisdom.net) Dear Master and Fellow Practitioners,
I would like to thank Master for his compassion and salvation. I am responsible for editing truth clarification materials. Last year, I was responsible for our local issue of the Minghui Weekly. Now I have taken on three booklets of truth-clarifying materials. All of my accomplishments have been attributed to cultivation and compassion. I would like to share my experiences with everyone.
Relinquishing the Attachment to Editing Work
When I began to work on the Minghui Weekly last year, I did not want to spend too much time on editing, so I was always in a rush to meet the deadline. One day, I suddenly saw a message on my computer, "The media should be the best." When I focused on the message, the words had changed. I felt very ashamed of my lack of initiative, and I also felt a strong sense of responsibility. I have to do my best in my work, but my understanding on this hint from Master was still not clear enough. This year when I worked on a booklet exposing the persecution of practitioners at the local forced labor camps, I still tried to save time and rushed through it. So for the cover and a portion of the booklet, I copied it from other published papers on the Minghui website and composed the rest with some local stories. After I submitted it to the Minghui editors, it was not published for a while. Later, an editor told me that the booklet's contents were too strong for people to accept and suggested that I change it. I was not very happy. How come other papers with the same cover and similar content got published and mine was rejected? Later, I realized that I was looking outward and the publication was an issue on the surface. I had to look within for my own problems. I realized that I had an attachment to seeing my work published on Minghui, harboring jealousy and not wanting to hear criticism. I still felt that there was more and I still need to get over this hurdle. As I debated with myself and worked on other tasks, I did not modify the booklet for a while.
Several days later, during a conversation with other practitioners, I found that my problem with editing was that I had not realized the importance of saving people through my work. I looked at my editing as ordinary work. Although I was capable of doing a better job, I did not spend enough time on it. I was afraid of spending too much time. On the other hand, I had a condescending attitude when writing articles with a showing-off mentality. Realizing this, when I was able to abandon these notions, I began to work on editing with compassion. From the beautiful Shen Yun performance, I realized that Master had set the standard for us. We must strive to achieve that level of perfection. I poured my energy into the details from cover to cover. After a week of hard work, I re-submitted the booklet to Minghui and it was published the next day.
On Better Coordination
Last year, some practitioners in our area suffered severe persecution. Several projects were halted and some practitioners developed a strong sense of fear. Friction grew among several coordinators. In the beginning of 2009, I became a coordinator and played a new role. I learned to change from personal cultivation to caring for the group.
After I became a coordinator, my schedule became busier. In addition to my editing, I also provided technical support and dealt with other issues. I felt so busy and tired that I only focused on my own feelings. One day a practitioner called to invite me to her house during lunch break. I was not very happy because her house was at least 30 minutes away and I did not want to use my lunch break to travel that far. When I arrived, she said her printer was not working. I was somewhat irritated and turned around to leave. She asked me to take a look since I came all this way. She was ready to print Master's lecture when the printer broke down. After she tried different things, the machine didn't respond. Looking at her helpless situation, I felt ashamed. How could a practitioner be so indifferent when fellow practitioners faced difficulty? How could I call myself a coordinator? So I decided to take a look. I immediately found the problem and fixed it in two minutes. On my way back home, I felt bad about my low xinxing level. As a coordinator, my priority should be determined by others' needs, not my own preferences.
Tolerance of Others Removes Division
In the beginning of 2009, Practitioner B heard from others that Practitioner A, one of the main coordinators in our city, had compromised with the evil at the beginning of the persecution and caused significant damage to Dafa in our area. Practitioner A had never told others about his wrongdoings. Practitioner B, however, did not talk to A directly. Instead, he and some other practitioners speculated that A might have been a spy. Although the incident had passed, I found my own problems through looking within. I lacked tolerance and measured others with the Fa principles, but not myself, especially when it came to coordinators. When I focused on others' problems, the division among practitioners grew. In the future, we must have enough compassion, so that we can make progress along with other practitioners and harmonize the entire group.
Please correct me if I have any inappropriate understandings.
