(Clearwisdom.net) This is the first time I have written about my personal cultivation experiences to share with my fellow practitioners. I didn't know what I should talk about or how to start. I decided to write about some of my thoughts and experiences. They were not extraordinary and are just examples of things that all Dafa disciples should do every day.
I won't talk about the arrangements by the old forces, since no matter whether you behave yourself well or not, you are trapped in their plans. I will tell some stories about how I've assisted Master during the Fa-rectification period. Although I haven't cultivated myself well, I have had a very righteous heart. Master teaches us, "One righteous mind can subdue one hundred evils." (Zhuan Falun)
The road that I have walked is the path of my cultivation and assisting Master during the Fa-rectification period. On January 10, 2001, with strong righteous thoughts, I returned to Tiananmen Square and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil. I pasted labels that had Fa-rectification messages on them onto guardrails, which were located just behind the policemen on duty. I also pasted those labels on public telephone kiosks and in other public areas in order to display them to more people. When I returned home, I made some more labels and wrote: "Falun Dafa Is Good" and "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance Is Good" on them, and then I pasted them everywhere. The next day, on an advertisement billboard in front of me, five Chinese characters with the meaning of "shining colorfully everywhere" gave out a golden light. I realized that Master was encouraging me with those words. Another time, when I was distributing truth-clarification fliers, I posted them on people's front doors with double-sided tape. Every time I posted them, there was a little sparkle coming out of the air. I knew that Master was encouraging me and telling me that I was doing a good job.
Once, not long after we had just begun the practice of sending forth righteous thoughts, I was sitting with two other practitioners, when we had just begun holding our palms upright. I suddenly felt that there was a force coming from my left side above my head. Just as Master has taught us,
"Back then, whenever you held your hand up vertically in front of your chest, the evil would line up in formation as if it was about to do battle, and it would come in swarming hordes." (Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A.)
As a result, I immediately felt great pain in my legs, which were crossed in the lotus position. The pain was so sharp that I almost couldn't endure it. Yet I kept on holding my hand up, even though my hands trembled slightly. I had a righteous thought in my mind, which was that I was determined to eliminate all those evil elements thoroughly, to disintegrate them all at once. I silently recited Master's Fa-rectification verse: "The Fa rectifies the cosmos, the evil is completely eliminated." My legs were still aching very much, and I felt that I couldn't make it this time. I opened my eyes and looked at the two other practitioners. They sat there still like mountains. Immediately I gave up the impulse of releasing my legs from the lotus position; I would endure to the end. Master taught us, "When it's difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it's impossible to do, you can do it." (Zhuan Falun, Lecture Nine) After a while, I saw some black qi gradually dissipate from my right side with my celestial eye. Twenty minutes later, I opened my eyes and saw the other two practitioners looking at me quietly. I felt sweat on my forehead and the skin on my face was tight. This battle between righteousness and evil moved me profoundly, and I would not forget it.
I always try my best to hold onto righteous thoughts. Once, I was carrying a large bag of truth-clarification materials and walking along a paved road. I recited the poem from Hong Yin Volume II:
"A Great Enlightened One fears no hardship
Having forged an adamantine will
Free of attachment to living or dying
He walks the path of Fa-rectification
confident and poised"
Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions (Hong Yin Volume II)
I got into the habit of reciting poems from Hong Yin or Master's Fa-rectification verses while I was doing things to validate Dafa.
Once, I went to visit a local practitioner. She told me, "I don't know why my neck cannot move." I replied, "Come on, let's send forth righteous thoughts so that the evil cannot persecute you." I sat face to face with her, and we held our upright palms with our legs crossed in the lotus position. I concentrated and sent out my pure energy targeting her neck. Ten minutes later, she said, "I am okay right now. Dafa is really marvelous!" Another time, I went out in the middle of the night to post truth-clarification messages. When I returned, my teeth suddenly ached and my cheek also became swollen. I thought: It is absolutely correct that I have been doing the three things to validate Dafa. If this is caused by my own karma, I will say nothing and endure it. If this isn't my karma, I will immediately send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors behind this. Later on, I just fell asleep. The following day when I woke up, I found that the swelling in my cheek had gone away and my teeth didn't hurt anymore.
Holding onto righteous thoughts, I always felt very calm and at ease when I was doing things to validate Dafa. I had set up a family truth-clarification materials site and successfully run it for three years. I was not in a panic when I suddenly had to cope with the confiscation of my equipment by the police. While I was watching them searching my home, I felt calm and thought: This is what I should be doing and you guys shouldn't make such a fuss. Yet they made phone calls and videotaped the whole process with such excitement. They were busy searching everywhere in my home, just like a group of bandits. They took away all my valuables and personal belongings and packed them into a car, even including some of my family letters and my marriage certificate.
I reflected and found that it happened because my xinxing hadn't caught up with the requirements of Fa-rectification, which thus brought losses and troubles to our saving sentient beings as a whole body. They arrested me and took me to the nearby police station and put me in a small cell with iron bars. The gate was left open. I explained the facts about Falun Gong to the policeman who was monitoring me. I said, "The Chinese Communist Party is acting irrationally. Falun Gong had been widely spread in China for seven years before the persecution. The CCP suddenly didn't allow people to practice it. Why did the CCP find fault with Falun Gong and refuse to see the benefits that Falun Gong has brought to people and our nation? If the government can point out what mistakes we made, then we can correct them. Why do they keep on illegally arresting Falun Gong practitioners, beating them, sentencing them and sending them to forced labor camps and prisons? They have already persecuted so many Dafa disciples to death." The policeman had nothing to say and he only mumbled, "The government doesn't allow it..." Later on, My husband went to the police station and looked for me. When he saw that I spoke eloquently and continuously, he stopped me, "Don't give your speech here. I've already found some people with the authority to rescue you." I replied, "Don't spend your money trying to save me from this. The path I am taking today will be left for people in the future." I knew that this was my knowing side validating the Fa, and as a result, the evil factors were disintegrated. Subsequently, a policeman released me from the small cell and allowed me to sit on a couch in the hall outside. Six hours later, I was released.
In order to coordinate with each other as a whole body and suffocate the evil, many fellow practitioners sent forth righteous thoughts for me at the time, and some of them quickly logged onto the Internet and exposed the evil acts done to me by the CCP. Then, some acquaintances of my family helped to resolve the matter successfully. I also had some regret in the matter that I shouldn't have cooperated with them and answered their interrogation. The policemen were confused by my release, but they didn't know that this amazing thing happened because of our cooperation as a whole body, our strong righteous thoughts and the mighty power of Dafa.
"When disciples have ample righteous thoughts
Master has the power to turn back the tide"
(The Master-Disciple Bond, Hong Yin Volume II)
I try my best to actively cooperate in saving sentient beings and validating Dafa. No matter what my fellow practitioners need, I want to help find it for them. When I went to the truth-clarification materials production site, no matter how many copies were available, I would take all of them. If I couldn't distribute them all by myself, I would give them to my fellow practitioners nearby, I never left them lying unused. Whenever there was the need for small currency bills to write on to make the truth-clarification bills, I would collect money and go to several banks to exchange for small bills. During this year's Spring Festival, I exchanged over 40,000 yuan for the small one-yuan bills. Then I allocated all those small bills to my fellow practitioners to write on and distribute in order to clarify the truth about Dafa. A fellow practitioner from another place didn't have money to exchange with me, yet she took 1,000 yuan in small bills. I just told her that I contributed this money for making truth-clarification materials. I fully trusted my fellow practitioners, and if there was a shortage in the amount of the money, I would make it up myself. When I had such a peaceful mind, there were few mistakes that occurred.
I studied the Fa lecture, "Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference" with a clear mind. Master teaches us,
"Compassion is an enormous energy, the energy of righteous gods. The more compassion that is present, the greater this energy becomes, and it can disintegrate anything that is bad." ("Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference")
Upon reading this, I thought that I should fill my whole world with this compassionate energy, and let it become greater and greater, and then I can save the sentient beings with this compassionate energy. I would like to assimilate my own life to the Fa-rectification, and fulfill my mission as a Dafa disciple to assist Master in rectifying the Fa and saving more sentient beings.
During the process of assisting Master to rectify the Fa, I realized that I had a lot of attachments and human notions that I needed to get rid of, so studying the Fa well is vital for me.
My fellow practitioners, please point out any inappropriate parts in my sharing.
