(Clearwisdom.net)
Life and hope renewed
I was born with strong characteristics and have been fighting for things my whole life, but ended up with nothing. What I got was endless suffering, especially when I tried so hard to pursue something and ended up not getting anything. Later on I pinned all my hopes on my child, hoping she could become an outstanding person and have a perfect life. I got the exact opposite.
When she was ten years old, she developed heart disease from the wrong kind and quantity of medications. We visited many hospitals, and she still was not cured. We were told she would have to recover on her own. I asked the doctor what the possibility of recovery was and he said, "You should consider having another child."
I couldn't believe it. I understood how severe it was. My husband was not happy when I gave birth to a girl. If he heard this latest news, it would be even worse, so I could not tell anyone. On my own I visited one hospital after another on her behalf and almost collapsed mentally. I thought about committing suicide, but when I saw my young daughter, I could not leave her behind all by herself.
I was fortunate during the summer of 1996 to start learning Dafa. Master said,
"I am telling you this principle that everyday people are unable to realize. You may think that you are good at everything, but your life does not have it. That person is good at nothing, but his life has it, and he will become a boss. No matter what everyday people think, that is only the viewpoint of everyday people. From the perspective of a higher life, the development of human society progresses according to the specific law of development. Therefore, what one does in life is not arranged based on one's abilities. Buddhism believes in the principle of karmic retribution. One's life is arranged according to one's karma. No matter how capable you are, if you do not have de, perhaps you will have nothing in this life. You think that another person is good at nothing, but he has a lot of de. He could become a high-ranking official or make a big fortune. An ordinary person cannot see this point and always believes that he should do exactly what he is able to. Therefore, he competes and fights all his life with a badly-wounded heart. He might feel very bitter and tired, always finding things unfair. Being unable to eat or sleep well, he feels sad and disappointed. When he gets older, he will end up in poor health and all kinds of illnesses will surface." (Zhuan Falun)
It was around midnight when I read that. I could not hold back my sobs. I was afraid of waking others up, so I cried under my blanket. Why did I suffer this much? Why was I always so tired? It was all because of jealousy. I suddenly understood. Since then, I have treated others with kindness and have eliminated my competitive mentality.
The whole family benefited
All my illnesses disappeared, and I felt great. The most obvious was that the goiter on my neck disappeared. Soon after that, my daughter started practicing Falun Gong. While doing the standing stance exercise the first time, she fainted. Although she and I did not understand that it was Master purifying her body, we had no fear. Several days later we went to the practice site again. While doing the same exercise, my daughter vomited. Since then she has been healthy. When she had her physical exam at school, I specifically asked the doctor to pay more attention to her heart. After school, my daughter came home and told me, "The doctor said, 'Your heart is as strong as a baby's heart.'" I knelt before Master's picture and cried for a long time.
Not too long after I started Falun Gong practice, we went to the city. My daughter rode on her dad's bike, and I rode another bike. While making a turn, my husband and daughter were stuck in between two huge, speeding trucks. The trucks went right by my daughter's legs. An accident was about to happen. Now I realize that it was to take my daughter's life, but Master protected her. Those two drivers stopped and started arguing, blaming each other for not following the rules of the road and not knowing how to drive. I saw very clearly what had happened from behind, but I did not have any fear.
Once again at home the three of us realized if it weren't for Dafa, she would have been dead. After that my husband began Falun Gong practice but did not continue, though our family has become more harmonious and our financial situation has become better.
My colleagues witnessed how I changed. Many of them started reading Zhuan Falun and wanted to learn Dafa. I have benefited so greatly from Dafa, which has given me a new life. Many people said that without Dafa I would not have lived until today. I wish I could have the opportunity to show my gratitude to Master face to face. I know only if I practice Falun Gong well will I not let Master down. I would like to take this opportunity to extend my great gratitude to Master!
Appealing for the right to practice Dafa and telling people the facts about Dafa and the persecution
Fellow practitioners and I went to the provincial government office on July 20, 1999, to appeal for the right to practice Dafa. The police took us back in the middle of the night. The next day I heard on the radio that everyone had to hand in their Dafa books and exercise tapes. Anyone that defied this order would be subjected to a home search. I was then greatly afraid and handed in two books.
It was crowded in the police department office. I felt odd. Fellow practitioners did not talk. It was as if they were doing something wrong. People laughed at practitioners every now and then. When it was my turn, the division chief looked at me and said, "You are well-educated. Why do you believe in things like this?" I responded calmly, "You do not understand. I believe in this exactly because I am well-educated. It is very good!"
All of a sudden everyone looked at me. The division chief said, "Go ahead--explain to me how good it is." I said, "Let me give you an example. Let's say when I first entered this room I didn't do anything or say anything, and you came up and kicked me. In that case, our Master told us that we should look inward to examine ourselves. We should not blame others. What do you think about us, good or bad?" The division chief said surprisingly, "Right! Such a great Fa! Why do they forbid you to practice? If everyone practiced this Gong, then our job as police would be so easy!" His assistant poked him from behind and he immediately stopped talking. Soon after that this division chief was dismissed. He did not participate in the persecution. Two future division chiefs who participated in the persecution suffered from terminal illnesses.
This evil persecution is unprecedented. Many people were initially fearful. Practitioners have become more mature after numerous tribulations. I will look inward and become a qualified cultivator. I would like to send my highest regards to Master!
