(Clearwisdom.net) I began to practice Falun Dafa after my husband's persistent persuasion and also because of suffering illnesses for a long time. At first, when I listened to Fa lectures, I could not understand anything. On my way back home, I asked a fellow practitioner, "What is cultivating Dafa?" That fellow practitioner replied, "I do not know either. I am also a beginner. I guess we will get it gradually." I said to myself, "That's right. Hard work will pay off."
At that time I wondered: "Teacher will install Falun in the lower abdomen area for genuine practitioners. When will that be? How will I know?" Then, after one o'clock that night, while I was in a half-asleep state, I saw Teacher appear. Then I saw a Falun smoothly falling down into my lower abdomen area. Teacher left when I was just about to thank him. I suddenly woke up and realized that it was a dream. I immediately stood up and subconsciously touched my lower abdomen area. It was a miracle. Falun Gong is really a miracle Gong. I decided that I would cultivate to the end and would never change my mind.
Since there were too many words that I did not recognize, I could not read Zhuan Falun in its entirety. I was very worried. Later a fellow practitioner told me, "Don't worry. Read along with me." I thought that made sense. There was no use to worry. On the other hand, worrying is an attachment. As long as I worked hard, I would be able to read the entire book and Teacher would also help me. As a result, less than six months later, I could read Zhuan Falun in its entirety. In my daily life, I spent more time on Fa study and doing the exercises. I also paid attention to my behavior and my xinxing improved. I also began to know how to cultivate.
My son and my daughter-in-law often argued with each other and our home environment was tense all day long. At that time I thought that their arguments had nothing to do with me. However, I could sense some complaints about me from my daughter-in-law's words. I felt it unfair. I thought to myself, "As a mother-in-law, I am the best. I have taken care of all the household work. I think you are enjoying your life too much. If you two keep arguing with each other, you should move out." Later, my daughter-in-law argued with me directly. I was wrong on everything no matter what I did. At that time I forgot about being a practitioner. I felt very sad and wronged, and cried several times.
One day, I realized that I was a Dafa practitioner. How could I behave like that? I murmured to myself, "Teacher, please give me a hint." As a result, I had a dream that night. Teacher told me to cultivate boundless tolerance and by doing that, the conflict will be resolved. After waking up, tears ran down my face. I felt very thankful for Teacher's benevolent hint. I thought to myself, "How can I be a Dafa practitioner in the Fa rectification period if I cannot be a good mother-in-law?"
Thus, I began to look inward and realized that I did not treat my daughter-in-law as my own daughter. I disliked whatever she did. After learning the reason, I began to voluntarily get closer to her. At first, she did not want to talk to me. I did not give up and treated her as a patient mother would treat an immature daughter. Doing this is easy to say, but sometimes I felt it was hard to maintain my xinxing. At that time, I would hear Teacher's voice, "Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in spring"（"The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos" from Hong Yin - Volume II). My daughter-in-law is a teacher. On this year's Teacher's Day, I asked her, "Today is your holiday. What do you want to eat? I will cook it for you." Hearing what I said, she became very happy and said, "Thank you, Mom!" One week later, she came home and said, "I bought a necklace for you. Take a look and see whether you like it or not." I happily accepted it and said, "I like it." That was the first time I wore a necklace. My husband and my son saw that and said happily, "This is like a real family!" After I adjusted myself, I did not hear any more arguments at home. My daughter-in-law's words did not hurt me any more. I felt truly thankful to Teacher for helping me resolve our family conflicts.
On my cultivation path, there has been joy and hardship. I felt remorse when I did not do well in some tests. I also had times when I could let go of some attachments and felt happy and peaceful. Although I stumbled on my cultivation path, I always remember that I am a Dafa practitioner. I must do the three things well. Teacher, please be assured. I will not let you down!
Category: Improving Oneself
