(Clearwisdom.net) I am an older practitioner and only studied at school for less than four years. Because I was born into a landlord's family, I was persecuted by the CCP and suffered a lot of hardships. As a result of the many tribulations I had to endure, I became tough, impatient, and competitive, and did not like others to criticize me. After I obtained the Fa, I've walked my path till today despite stumbling many times. I deeply appreciate Master's benevolent salvation. On the path of validating the Fa I feel that I have not done well. As a Dafa disciple, I want to summarize my cultivation.
From Not Knowing How to Use a Computer to Printing Materials
I set up a family truth-clarification materials production site at my home in 2007. My daughter is mainly in charge of making the materials and I assist her. Although I had a computer I did not know one English word and did not want to make the materials by myself. One day a practitioner reminded me, "You should learn how to use the computer and print the materials so that you can shoulder some of the workload and reduce your daughter's burden!" After hearing that, I did not feel confident. I asked myself if I was able to learn it. After I considered it again, I realized that thinking this way was wrong, that it was a human thought. I am a Dafa disciple, and with Master and Dafa I am able to accomplish anything. It was not accidental that I heard those words, and I could surely accomplish anything.
I was determined to do it. However, when I began to learn to use the computer, things got sticky. I spent a long time just learning how to hold a mouse. Because I did not know how to use it properly, I could not open a file. Finally I could open a file, but then I could not find the document! I felt that I was old and uneducated and had a bad memory, so my daughter got irritated when she tried to teach me. I also became impatient and said, "Who taught others like you?" It is also a process of cultivation to learn technology!
I wanted to give up several times, especially when my daughter's attitude was bad. However, when I considered it again, I thought: "Is it more difficult than cultivation?" I tried to eliminate the mindset of holding myself above others and being unable to stand hearing others' critical remarks. I tried my best to learn and memorize. Soon I was able to print a single page! And later I was able to print pamphlets. Seeing the materials that I printed on my own, I was really happy. I appreciated Master so much! Without Master's help, how could I, an uneducated woman in her 60s, possibly learn to use a computer? It is really unimaginable!
Eliminate Selfishness
Because I had suffered a lot of hardships and lived a hard life when I was young, I had formed a habit of being extremely thrifty and did not want to spend money. After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I gradually let go of the attachment of pursuing profit, and at the same time Master has helped to eliminate a lot of bad substances for me. One of my neighbors is an old woman, and nobody takes care of her. I pity her and often give her money and things. She knows Dafa is good, and when people who do not know the truth say bad words about Dafa, she will speak up for Falun Dafa out of a sense of fairness. In the past I was attached to money and was very selfish. Maybe I could help others, but it was impossible for me to give others so much money. It is Dafa that has changed me and made me become benevolent.
I have not done well and still have many human attachments and do not know how to write an article. With my daughter's help, I have written down my cultivation experience. If there is anything improper, please kindly point it out.
October 4, 2009
