(Clearwisdom.net) I am 29 years old, and I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1995. After going to college in 1999 (when the persecution started), I stopped studying the Fa, stopped having contact with the world outside my classes, and lived as an ordinary person. While fellow practitioners were busy saving sentient beings these past few years, I only had this little righteous thought left: "Falun Dafa is good." My pure heart was obscured with thoughts of fame, profit, and sentimentality after I started to work, because I never studied the Fa solidly and lacked a cultivation environment.
In 2003 my colleague's mother, who is a practitioner, had me watch a VCD. I saw a foreigner holding a banner that said "Falun Dafa is good" on Tiananmen Square. His shaky Chinese was clearly heard: "Falun Dafa is good, all the world's people know it!"
My heavens! How thunderous it was to me! Tears flowed down my cheeks like rain. All my memories flooded back. I suddenly realized what a Falun Dafa practitioner should do. A foreigner can shout, "Falun Dafa is good" on Tiananmen Square, so why can't I? I was fighting to be successful, bitterly competing for fame and profit. I was just like Master pointed out in "Cultivating Amidst the Delusion" in "Hong Yin": "Happiness to them is vying and competing." Thinking about how fellow practitioners are validating Falun Dafa and facing the pressure, I felt so ashamed!
Master saw this little righteous thought of mine and gave me a hint in a dream. I saw a huge net in the sky that became smaller and smaller. I did not realize what that meant when I woke up. I had little Fa with me at that time--I had even forgotten Hong Yin. Only later did I enlighten that it must have meant the Fa net was tightening and that we should seize the day.
Then I had another dream, which I still clearly remember to this day. I dreamed that I saw Master, my first time seeing him. The persecution had ended, and the Fa was rectifying the human world. I did not reach consummation, so I could not go home with Master. I was in front of Master, who was so tall. I looked up at him, holding his hand, begging and crying, "Master, please give me another chance, I will cultivate diligently this time!" Master said slowly, "No more, there will never be another chance." I can remember Master's expression was beyond description. My heart was in excruciating pain.
I woke up and realized it was a dream. That meant I still had a chance. Thank you, Master! I was crying so hard with gratitude. I made a vow, "Master, I will cultivate. I do not want anything or fear anything, I just want to cultivate diligently and follow you home!"
I came back to cultivation, but my cultivation path has been filled with pitfalls, and I have had to pass trial after trial with hardships. Thanks to Master's benevolent protection, I wobbled through all these tests. I enlightened that the dream I had was Master hinting to me to come back to cultivation based on my limited level at that time. Through studying the Fa later, I learned that, as a "Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple," personal cultivation is not the first priority; saving sentient beings is the key mission.
I left home last year to avoid being arrested. Master arranged for me to meet fellow practitioners in another city, and we formed a Fa-study group. We created a good environment to study the Fa. Currently I am doing the three things diligently. I know I still have attachments, including the pursuit of comfort. But I believe, "When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, Master has the power to turn back the tide." ("The Master-Disciple Bond," Hong Yin II). As long as we are doing the three things well, everything is under Master's control.
My fellow disciples, please advance diligently! Let us be worthy of Master's benevolent salvation. I have penned this dream to share with fellow practitioners who are not so diligent so we can awaken with a clear mind. In this fleeting moment, let us fulfill our grand historical mission to bring more sentient beings back home by following our Master!
Since my level is limited, please point out any errors.
