(Clearwisdom.net) I have been practicing Falun Gong for 12 years, but for two of those years I fell behind. I now treasure time all the more in doing the three things that Teacher requires of us. For the past few years, I have been steadily walking on the path of Fa-rectification. Nevertheless, I still feel I am falling behind those fellow practitioners who are more diligent.
Whether a sentient being will be weeded out or not has to do with us! After growing in my level of cultivation, I have a humble insight on the importance of saving sentient beings. I believe we should use all the available resources to save sentient beings. Our truth-clarification materials production sites play a very critical role in saving sentient beings. I was considering establishing a materials site but evil beings from other dimensions were interfering with me financially. As a result, I had been living under strained circumstances and had no money to build up the site. At times I could hardly afford two meals a day. It is not because I didn't have a decent job or required skills to produce materials, but because there were always unexpected incidents in my family that required a lot of money. For two years I faced the same problem. Although I sensed the presence of evil beings from other dimensions creating financial problems, I couldn't pinpoint the root cause, let alone prevail over the interference.
As I studied the Fa more, I realized that it is Teacher who truly saves people and that we are but Teacher's disciples assisting Him in the Fa-rectification. As long as we have the wish to assist Teacher with Fa-rectification, Teacher will make all the necessary arrangements for us to fulfill the wish.
Before I established a home materials production site, I had been sending forth righteous thoughts at frequent intervals, and I humbly begged Teacher to reinforce my righteous thoughts, "Your disciple is determined to build a truth-clarification materials site at home and eliminate the old forces' financial persecution." A month later, an opportunity arose. A fellow practitioner learned that I wanted to build a materials site at home and asked me to pick up her donation money. The next day while I was getting ready to call on her, something unfortunate happened. The police lured her downstairs and arrested her. I was sleepless that night, sending forth righteous thoughts. I kept searching inward. Did I have any human attachments that resulted in this arrest? Did I have any attachment to dependency? No, the evil beings have no business interfering with saving sentient beings. By interfering with us saving sentient beings, the evil beings from other dimensions will only bring about their dooms more quickly. It became very clear to me that the evil beings were interfering with my establishing a new materials production site, so I started to target those interfering evil beings when I sent forth righteous thoughts.
When I went to work every day and looked at people on the streets, I registered a feeling of sadness and wondered, "How many of these people know the truth about Falun Gong?" From the bottom of my heart, I made up my mind to shoulder an important responsibility! I had to establish a materials site. Why was I hesitating? Did I have to wait for help to build one? Did I have to wait until I had a lot of money to build one? Did I have to keep depending on fellow practitioners to provide me with truth-clarification materials? I had been considering everything from just "my" perspective: "How could I shoulder the mission Teacher has bestowed upon me? How could I fulfill my own pledge?" As I thought more about it, I realized that I must not wait another day.
We build truth-clarification materials sites to save more sentient beings, but the old forces aim to destroy the sentient beings. It follows that the old forces are struggling desperately to interfere with and damage our truth-clarification materials sites.
I then decided to get a loan to build a materials production site. Some fellow practitioners objected to this decision and argued that practitioners should not incur any debt. One even accused me of "being attached to accomplishments and creating mighty virtue." But I knew perfectly how I had positioned myself on this issue. As long as I have the ability to pay back the loan and find someone willing to issue me a loan, there is nothing wrong with getting a loan. Every person is a different case. I think we should evaluate our own circumstances before we act.
However, I kept thinking about the comment that I was "attached to accomplishments and creating mighty virtue." Sometimes when I remembered it, I felt insulted, but other times I wondered why she had said these things. Sometimes I wondered if I was right in getting a loan. Later I decided that it was Teacher giving me a hint through her that I must not do Dafa work as an ordinary person and that I must not be attached to building a "career." I should ensure that each person to whom I clarify the truth understands and accepts the truth about Falun Gong. I now repeatedly remind myself to save sentient beings as a Falun Gong practitioner and not to do Dafa work as an ordinary person.
As I continue studying and memorizing the Fa, I keep thinking of new ways to save sentient beings and persevere in executing these ideas. The evil beings can do nothing about me. After a while, I received money for the materials site. My company then increased my salary by 700 yuan. When I received the next paycheck I was in tears. I knew Teacher had been watching over me and knew the increased salary was meant to fund the site. I started to save the increased salary and decided to pay off the debt in full once I saved enough money. Little did I expect that my company would raise my salary by another 300 yuan a month later. I again could hardly believe it when I received that paycheck. Another two months later, I was promoted, and my salary was increased by another 1,000 yuan. In short, my salary was increased by 2,000 yuan in just a few months. It was rather extraordinary because the policy of my company is to permit a salary increase only once every six months.
Because of this experience, I truly feel that Teacher is beside us at all times and that Teacher sees our each and every thought. I understand that all the salary increases are meant for saving sentient beings, so I use all of my salary increase on saving sentient beings. I also developed a better understanding of a passage of the Fa,
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master." (Zhuan Falun)
It is not because we are very competitive or are very smart that we are given financial rewards. It is because of our wishes to save sentient beings and to upgrade our xinxing that Teacher makes arrangements to give us what we need to save sentient beings. Everything we have, we obtain from the Fa.
I shall use all the favorable resources Teacher has bestowed upon me to do well the three things! I shall not disappoint Teacher, who has endured immense hardships to save us out of his compassion! I shall not disappoint those sentient beings who have braved coming down to earth.
