(Clearwisdom.net)
I thought I knew the purpose of clarifying the truth, but it was only recently that I became clearheaded. Clarifying the truth is for the purpose of saving sentient beings, in other words, saving others rather than getting something for ourselves, including rectifying others' impression of us.
I still remember that several years ago, when I first leaned how to use the Internet, I was able to locate contact information for my classmates and send them emails telling them the truth about Dafa. After routine greetings to my classmates, I did not realize that I had blended an impure attachment into clarifying the truth at that time: My classmates knew that I was most distinguished among them, so they should all believe me and in Dafa.
I also had improper behavior: When someone misunderstood Dafa, I would be very upset, since I have difficulty when people do not easily understand me or believe me. I become impetuous and raise my voice. When somebody pointed this out to me, I took it as normal, and in line with the standards of everyday people. Who can keep calm when persecuted so severely? I also complained that people refused to come to their senses.
With Teacher's hints, I calmed down to think it over. I realized that I had mixed a lot of selfishness into clarifying the truth, resulting in my getting upset and being misunderstood, which was caused by my attachment. One of the attachments that was fully demonstrated is the attachment of fame. Because Falun Dafa practitioners were disgraced by the CCP regime, I wanted to rectify the negative impression that others hold. When I recognized this attachment, I felt that I moved forward in cultivation and obtained a deeper understanding of clarifying the truth.
Clarifying the truth to save sentient beings is what we do for others, not for ourselves. So from this perspective, it does not matter how other people view us. I felt mentally relaxed when I understood this point.
Some time ago, I sent out some emails to clarify the truth, and some of those who responded called me names. However, this time, I did not have any bad feelings, and I did not get angry. When I responded to one person, I shared some understandings on his point of view, and as a result, he totally changed and said that he was against the CCP. I remained unmoved by his change because I had clarified the truth from the heart and did not need anything from him. Why should I get upset? Getting upset is the result of failing to get something that I want. Since an attachment was impacted, and feelings were hurt, the reaction of not being happy resulted in covering up an attachment which should be gotten rid of with noble righteous thoughts.
