(Clearwisdom.net) I first learned Falun Gong in a detention center in April 2001, during a time when the persecution against the practice was very rampant. I have been practicing and studying the Fa consistently for just over two years. Although I haven't done well, I would like to write down my experience to share with fellow practitioners and also to encourage myself.
I relied on studying the Fa to maintain righteous thoughts. On the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom), I read a lot of sharing articles written by fellow practitioners and learned about the three things we should do. To clarify the facts, I made brochures and weekly publications from information on the Internet and distributed them myself. I found that the process of making brochures was also a process of cultivation. I was able to eliminate a lot of attachments, such as the attachment to doing projects.
In residential areas with security guards, it was relatively easy to distribute truth-clarification materials, because for each building, there was a mailbox for each unit at the bottom of the stairs. However, many advertisements were also distributed there, and people often threw them away immediately. In order to help those with predestined relationships learn the facts, I put the materials in envelopes and sometimes printed pictures on the envelopes as well. I complemented the brochures with the weekly publications. When I made a brochure, I would ask myself if I would want to read it myself if I were an ordinary person and what types of materials would interest me. I started with where I lived. The first time I did it, I prepared the material the night before and waited until the evening. Because my husband returned home late, I told my child that I was going to be out for a little and left. But even before I reached the bottom of the stairs, my legs started shaking and my heart was pounding. I reminded myself that what I was doing was the most righteous thing in the universe and that I was looked after by Master. Still, I was afraid of people seeing me, as though I was a thief. Actually, nobody saw me. It was only that I lacked righteous thoughts. Although Master was protecting me, I was still scared. Distributing the materials didn't take very long, and I didn't have any trouble at all. I was delighted. I only hoped that people with predestined relationships could learn the truth and be awakened.
Gradually my fears went away. I thought it was better to hand out information during the day. I started with my own residential area and expanded my coverage. Once I was handing out materials in a residential area with a great many security guards. When I saw that there was no security guard near me, I distributed a few more brochures in one particular building. As I turned around to walk towards another building, a security guard stopped me and asked what I was doing. At first, I didn't remember to use righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil elements behind the security guard and was a bit flustered. I told him that I had an appointment to sell insurance. The security guard asked which unit I was visiting. I didn't know what to say. He asked me to open my bag. I said he didn't have the right to check my bag. We debated for a while and I didn't know how to escape. Suddenly, my compassion emerged. I thought, "I can't just let him be destroyed like this." As my thoughts changed, he signaled for me to leave and escorted me to the gate. My only regret was that I failed to clarify the facts to him. When I returned home, I looked inward and saw that I had attachments to fear and to doing projects. Actually, human beings are very weak. If they weren't controlled by other elements, they couldn't do anything to cultivators. If my first thought had been to eliminate the evil factors that controlled him and then I clarified the facts, wouldn't that have been great! Aren't we here to save people? Otherwise, why are we handing out truth-clarification materials? All of this is about saving people. I didn't do well because I hadn't studied the Fa well, and my one thought led to my failure to clarify the truth to him.
Some fellow practitioners were sending forth righteous thoughts close to different targets. I followed a route near a prison to send forth righteous thoughts. Along the way, there was a lot of interference, and I felt very afraid. I learned from other practitioners' experiences and repeated to myself, "Falun Dafa is great, 'Truth-Compassion-Tolerance' is great." Shortly after, my hands stopped sweating profusely, and my heart stopped pounding. The bus transfer also went very smoothly. After one hour of sending righteous thoughts, I returned home safely.
I also write facts about the persecution on yuan bills and use them to clarify the truth. The first time I did it, I walked around three times in the supermarket to observe how vegetable vendors collect money. I saw that they didn't check the bills at all, so I spent the marked bills in a hurry. Later I realized that if people didn't look at the bills, my efforts would be in vain. I began sending forth righteous thoughts when I wrote on the bills to help those with predestined relationships learn the facts. As my righteous thoughts became stronger, my heart also calmed down. Now, everyday, if I don't spent some bills with persecution facts on them, I feel that I have failed to complete an important task.
I once dreamed that I followed Master to the human world, but I did not do well to meet Master's requirements. In the last few months, I have lagged behind. Even when I realized this, I had a hard time correcting myself. From now on, I will continue to improve through Fa study and continue to be diligent. I will do even better in the three things Master asked of us.
Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
Thank you, Master. Thank you, fellow practitioners.
