(Clearwisdom.net) My mother is a Falun Dafa practitioner. On December 22, 2007, she suddenly showed symptoms of cerebral hemorrhage. One side of her body and her lower limbs were partially paralyzed. In about two weeks, my mother was able to overcome the symptoms and conduct daily basic activities on her own through Master's benevolence and care. After the false appearance of sickness karma struck her, my mother had strong righteous thoughts. Many people came to see her, and no matter what other people said to her, she always told them, "If you really care for me, then please read the Fa to me and sincerely recite 'Truthfulness, Benevolence, and Forbearance is good,' and 'Falun Dafa is good!'"
My sister and I are also practitioners. We took care of her day and night during those days. We took turns reading the Fa to her and sending forth righteous thoughts for her. Previously, whenever the sickness karma appeared, reading the Fa to her was very effective. This time, during the first two days, it did not work at all, and she appeared to be in a coma at times. When we read to her, she either moaned or was asleep. Before the New Year, it was very cold and snowy. Sometimes, when we saw that she had fallen asleep, we would try to rest for a while. But before we fell asleep, she would start moaning again from the pain or would ask for water. Because of this, we were unable to sleep for days. This seriously affected our day-to-day work and life, as well as having an adverse effect on our doing the three things well.
I quickly looked within myself. My sister and I had always relied heavily on my mother and had not been able to balance our treatment of her as our mother and a fellow practitioner. My mother had the attachment of doing work. She had too much emotional attachment toward the two of us. She helped us a lot with our daily chores and therefore relaxed her cultivation.
Secondly, when we were reading the Fa to Mother after the sickness karma appeared, our hearts were not pure. It is not wrong to study the Fa when something happened; however, sometimes it is very complicated. If there is just one bit of attachment of pursuit, for example, if we used reading the Fa as a way to cure sickness, then we would not be cultivating ourselves well.
Thirdly, our righteous thoughts were not adequate. We were too afraid that Mother would not get through this tribulation. Ten years ago, the doctors had said that she could only live for six more months. Dafa has prolonged her life for ten years. When we saw that she had become paralyzed in her lower limbs and that she was sweating all over, we thought that it was a sign of impending death. Therefore, we informed our siblings to be prepared for the worst. We thought that if Mother recovered, all my relatives would again witness a miracle made by Dafa; if mother died, there would be no negative effect. In fact, this so-called thought of "harmonizing" was actually accepting the persecution. We are Dafa disciples in the Fa-rectification period. We do not accept any form of persecution. We should only go on the road arranged by Master.
Mother also found many of the attachments she had, for example, the attachment to doing work, the attachment to being nosy, the attachment to competition, the attachment to prefer one person over another, and so on. Once an environment of cultivation was formed, her righteous thoughts were greatly enhanced, and her condition improved miraculously. On the third day, she was able to double-cross her legs to do the sitting meditation. On the fifth day, she was able to practice the standing exercises. On the seventh day, she could go to the washroom by herself with the help of a cane. Two weeks later, she went to take a shower by herself.
These two weeks seemed like a century to us. Every step forward was very difficult. For example, when she wanted to walk, she could not move her feet. When doing the exercises, she could not control her hands. She could not keep her balance when standing. When studying the Fa by herself, she would read the first sentence but could not find the next sentence. She could not put on her clothes by herself, and so on. To accomplish all these tasks, she needed strong righteous thoughts, enormous endurance, and will. My sister and I kept reminding her, "You are a Dafa disciple. You can ask Master for help. You have to demand every part and organ of your body to follow the instructions of your brain. The exercise movements have to be accurate. The five exercises have to be completed all at once. Hang on, hang on, hang on." She kept saying to herself, "I have faith in Master; I have faith in the Fa. I have faith in Master; I have faith in the Fa. Master, please give me strength, I want to walk, I want to do the exercises. I have to correct every incorrect state of mine."
When practicing the sitting meditation, Mother was supported by a quilt and pillows. Even if she was leaning sideways, at least she did not lie down. When practicing the standing exercise, she was lopsided. Her body leaned this way and that, and she was about to fall at any time. We realized that at these moments, only righteous words could enhance her will.
Sometimes, when we saw that she was having so many difficulties, we as daughters really wanted to let her lie down and rest, and we wanted to help her finish what she had to do. Whenever this notion came out, Master's words, "In Fa-Rectification Your Thoughts Have to be Righteous, Not Human" helped us continuously correct ourselves so that we were able to maintain pure, righteous thoughts to enhance our mother's righteous thoughts and help her through every challenging step.
It has been almost three months since her condition first appeared. She has lived in my house without someone looking after her for four weeks. She attends group exercise every morning and group Fa study. Whenever she has a chance, she "clarifies the truth" and persuades people to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party. When her condition is good, she can study two lectures of Fa during one afternoon. (She is 73-years old. Before obtaining the Fa she could not read at all).
My mother was able to eliminate the false appearance of sickness karma very quickly. To me, the biggest realization is that we should steadfastly have faith in Master and in the Fa. We should help each other as one body and always look inside ourselves when encountering any situations. Only in this way can we manifest that Dafa is supernatural and that Dafa disciples are supernatural.
At this time, I want to apologize to fellow practitioners who are in the tribulation of false sickness karma right now. I have not cared for you as I cared for my practitioner mother. But I will always send forth righteous thoughts for you, just as all the other fellow practitioners are doing. I sincerely hope you can immediately eliminate the false sickness karma and be back to normal.
The above are my personal understandings. Fellow practitioners, please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
