(Clearwisdom.net) Teacher mentioned in "Your Master Consciousness Needs to be Strong" in Zhuan Falun:
"While you're alive you have to think. But since people are lost among ordinary people, they often form in their minds a kind of thought that revolves around reputation, gain, lust, anger, and those things. As time goes by, it shapes up into a strong thought-karma. Everything in other dimensions is alive, so karma is, too. When someone wants to cultivate a true teaching he has to eliminate his karma. Eliminating karma means eradicating it and transforming it. Now of course the karma won't go for it, so people have tribulations and they have obstacles."
I came to some new understandings yesterday. Maybe many practitioners have already enlightened to them, but I will still write about this to encourage those practitioners who may have similar problems.
Recently, my mind was restless. My mind was full of blame towards people around me, including my good friends, especially my boyfriends. I felt in total opposition to the principle "Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance," and I was not even as magnanimous as an ordinary person. There seemed to be a voice telling me how bad they were, how many unforgivable mistakes they made, and how unfair it was to me. These kinds of thoughts constantly cropped up and I could not control them. I was very troubled!
Suddenly I realized that this was because I had not eliminated my fundamental attachment--the longing for a harmonious life full of love and happiness among ordinary people. That is why I kept focusing on this so-called happiness in my mind, generating this strong thought karma along with vanity, attachments to money and fame, emotion, desire, and the mentality of fighting. In the past, I always followed these bad thoughts and continued to think about them and believe that they were me, which strengthened the bad thoughts even more and made me unable to dispel them. Once I realized that I should let go of these substandard thoughts, they became afraid and tried their best to interfere with me.
I have now realized that to be strict with each and every one of our thoughts is not merely a "slogan." We really have to keep clear minds all the time. Whenever a thought appears, we should evaluate it immediately with the Fa. If it does not conform with the Fa, then it must not be from our true self and should be eliminated with righteous thoughts. We also have to dig deeply within to find the attachment behind the thought and correct ourselves immediately, so that we do not leave any loophole for the evil.
Most of the time when there was a conflict, it was because I forgot Teacher's teachings. The Fa is clear about how to get along with others:
"... and whenever you have issues with other people you first think about whether they can take it or whether it will cause them harm, then you won't have any problem."("Improving Character" from Zhuan Falun)
We must catch every selfish and evil thought, correct ourselves, and cultivate to the best status.
During the process of cultivating a clear mind, I found another unworthy thought--the intention of using Dafa. I thought that as long as I study the Fa, I would have a harmonious life, I needn't worry about diseases or disasters, Teacher would arrange my work and life well, and things would be very comfortable. Actually, this is a very dirty thought, but it was buried so deeply. After realizing this, I was very shocked. I suggest to fellow practitioners that they also dig down into their thoughts deeply, since as practitioners, we must be very pure and righteous.
If there is anything incorrect in my sharing, I would appreciate fellow practitioners compassionately pointing it out.
June 2, 2008
