(Clearwisdom.net) I feel fortunate to have learned Falun Dafa in 1997. I have been persecuted many times, but nothing could ever change my belief or even shake my confidence.
After the persecution started in July 1999, I saw other practitioners distributing truth-clarifying materials. I asked myself what I should be doing. I didn't have any money to buy a copy machine; even if I did, my family environment would not allow it. My husband was against me practicing Falun Dafa from the beginning. He watched me even more closely after the persecution started. He tore up Teacher's articles and would not give me a penny. He and I slept in different rooms, so I took this as an opportunity to validate the Fa. I got carbon papers so I could handwrite materials, and using the carbon paper, made three carbon copies of each one. I produced about one hundred pages and then distributed them. I got other materials from other practitioners as well. In this way, I have distributed materials to every house in more than a dozen villages.
When I first started to distribute the truth clarification material, I was afraid. Later, I thought to myself, what do I have to be afraid of when I have Teacher and Fa. So I became braver and braver. One time, I had a bag full of materials and went out to distribute them in the middle of the night. As I came up to a crossroad, a police patrol car approached and stopped me. The policeman asked what I was doing and I handed the material in my hand to him. As he was looking at the material, I quickly went and hid. After a few seconds, the policeman looked up and searched for me. He murmured to himself, "Where is that person?" He looked around for a while but as I sent forth righteous thoughts, the car drove away. I then continued to distribute the materials until all were gone.
In 2004, the handwritten truth-clarifying materials were not enough as the Fa-rectification was progressing. When my mother sold her house, I bought a copy machine with 1000 yuan from her. With help from fellow practitioners, I started to make copies of truth-clarifying materials. At the time, I had to do it behind my husband's back. He was afraid that I would be arrested for distributing truth-clarifying materials. I could only do it while he was sleeping. One time, my daughter saw the copy machine box and told her father about it. My husband looked all over the place several times but I had already hid the copy machine at a fellow practitioner's home for a few days, daily after each use. I copied tens of thousands of materials and distributed them to over a dozen villages.
I had to go through such trouble to distribute the truth-clarifying materials. Prior to facing trouble, I usually went out through the front door, but when my husband found out, he would lock the door. So I used a ladder to get on top of the wall in our yard, then move the ladder to the other side of the wall and stepped down the ladder. When I returned, I would use the ladder to get inside the yard. The ladder is very heavy and usually takes two people to move it. Yet I could lift it quite easily. After a while, my husband eventually figured it out, so he locked the door and locked up the ladder. But, not easily deterred, I started to make a ladder with two bamboo sticks and few pieces of wooden sticks. Since it was easily put together, I would assemble and disassemble it each time I went out and returned. It would take one night to make copies and two nights to distribute them, all night long. I ran into police patrol cars three times, but I was able to cleverly find a hiding place. Therefore, I became braver through distributing truth-clarifying materials; I did not become anxious regardless of what was happening.
The local police station had a new director. He took me in a few days after he took office. I thought that Teacher had said we must make best use of time to save people, as even the police are sentient beings who had been poisoned. So I explained how the Communist Party is evil and that heaven would destroy it; how by withdrawing from the Party would keep one safe; that millions have already withdrawn, and some examples of how Falun Dafa has helped one become moral. A policeman named Cui said, "You are saying that by practicing Falun Gong, the moral standard of the society would improve." I replied yes. He said, "The Communist Party has led people to have a better life." I said, "Taiwan is not run by the Communist Party. Are people in Taiwan poor? America is not run by the Communist Party and are American people poor?" They said no. I told them, "It is not because of which party is running the country, it is the society that has developed and people have progressed." They all nodded their heads and sent me home in a car. The Fa had given me the wisdom and courage. In the past few years, my husband had beaten me many times simply because I distributed the truth-clarifying materials. He hit me with his belt and tied me up. Yet, in spite of such pressure from the society and family, I have been walking my path steadily.
Our family operated a public bath house at that time. I took the opportunity to advise people who came to bathe to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Sometimes when I was just talking to people about it, my husband would walk up and slap me on my face. Still, I was able to endure it. The process of clarifying the truth is also the process of rectifying myself. How can I not save my family when I could save other people? I have talked to my husband many times about the truth of Falun Dafa, but he still does not believe it. He does not believe in the existence of gods. When I give him truth-clarifying material, he won't read it; instead he just tears it up. He also gets very impatient if I talk too much about it. I have sent forth righteous thoughts many times, but he is very stubborn. However, I was able to talk him into withdrawing from the CCP's youth league. That was some progress.
Someone who visited the bath house reported me to the police. The policeman, Cui, asked my husband and I to go to the police station. He told my husband, "You better watch her. If she advises others to withdraw from the CCP again and gets arrested, she will be sent to the desert. You won't able to see her even if you wanted to." My husband was so scared that he rented out the bath house to someone else to operate. Due to that, I could not continue to advise people to withdraw from CCP at the bath house, however, I could do it on the street, when I was out shopping, taking a taxi, out to dinner, visiting friends, or any other opportunity that came along. I have now lost count on how many people I have advised to withdraw.
History has given us an important responsibility; special and precious. This period is about to end. Dafa disciples need to continue to work hard and use their time to do better.
