(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa in March 1998 and it has been almost 10 years since I began cultivation. When we look back on the path to godhood, the cultivation process of every cultivator can be written down and it would be a series of magnificent stories. I have written down some brief parts of my cultivation to share with everyone.
Falling and Rising Back Up
For a period of time when I was young, I was having a same dream over and over again. It was a scary dream; I was rapidly falling in the universe and because it was so fast, my body and heart could not bear it. In the end, I would fall into an extremely dirty cesspit. Just like this, I would wake up from these nightmares with cold sweat all over my body. I did not know the reason I was having this scary dream repeatedly and I did not dare to tell others about this experience. I did not really understand it until I started practicing cultivation.
Not long after I obtained the Fa, I had another dream and it was a complete contrast with the previous dreams. In that dream, Master came and I was totally overcome by Master's infinite Buddha's grace and I could not say a word. Master used telepathy with stereo sound to communicate with me. He told me that historically I was his relative, and he finally found me after I was lost for so many years. He asked me whether it is okay to bring me home. I impatiently nodded and agreed to go home with Master. He then held my hand and we were rising continually in the universe. I felt that we have gone up for a very long time, and reached a very high position. It was so high that my body and mind could not bear it and I was getting uneasy. Master used telepathy and told me that he could only bring me that far and the rest would be up to my own effort. I immediately said to Master that I would try my best to go home.
Doing the three things
I had more time when I just began cultivation. I studied the Fa a lot every day and I deeply felt that when we studied the Fa quite often, there was no tribulation that we could not get through. In the beginning period of the persecution, I felt that I was given a hint that I should memorize the Fa. Thus I indeed finished memorizing Zhuan Falun once. During that process I felt guanding very obviously many times. Memorizing the Fa also gave me a solid foundation for validating Dafa later. Then, as I was getting busier with clarifying the truth and Fa-validating projects, I could not study the Fa as much as I did before. But I still required of myself to study Zhuan Falun and Master's other lectures for total of at least 100 pages every day. I know that to assimilate myself to Dafa is the true meaning of my life and also is the basic assurance to my life. With a limited amount of time, I have thought about studying the Fa a little more. Especially today, the time moves so fast and if we do not hurry to do things that we need to do, it is very easy to waste time and miss the predestined relationships. My method now is to use the times between other things more efficiently - they can add up to be lots of time - such as the resting period after lunch and quiet periods in the evenings. Whenever I lose my attention in Fa-study, I would ask myself to read it over again and make sure that I know what Master is talking about. When my cultivation state is good, I really feel that there is nothing I cannot let go of.
On the aspect of improving xinxing, whenever I encountered some situation, as long as I remember that I am a practitioner, my righteous thought would come out right away, and I would be able to remember that for anything I encounter, if my mind felt uncomfortable, I must search within myself for the attachment. The most important thing is to look inward. I also realized that my Gong will go up only when I improve my xinxing and thus I will have more power to eliminate the evil. "One's gong level is as high as one's xinxing level" is indeed "an absolute truth" (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun).
As I have cultivated for quite some time, I often felt that these Fa principles seem to be so simple, yet from them we can constantly enlighten on different meanings. The Buddha Fa is boundless and in cultivation, there is no upper limit as we move up. Even the gods in the next level would think of me as an "everyday person", thus I have been able to become more and more humble.
Once a practitioner shared with me and complained about our local coordinators' bad manners and strong competitive mentality; as a result, some practitioners did not want to go to group Fa-study anymore. I said that the coordinators have their own ways of thinking over things and viewing things, and that I actually felt bad when I ask myself, did I cooperate and help coordinate the local projects and did I try my best to join the Fa-study? Of course the coordinators' manners may need to improve, but if other practitioners always consider the coordinators' shortcomings, then these are exactly the attachments that need to be discarded. Later that practitioner told me that it was to nice to share with me because there was no pressure. Then I realized that we should not do things following others' human notions, but should really put ourselves in others' position, and share with good will and based on the Fa. Only then can we all walk on the cultivation path without any deviation. I have not been able to always think about others first. This is what I will focus achieving.
On the aspect of sending forth righteous thoughts, I always make sure that I send forth righteous thoughts at the set global times. I try to clear myself in all layers, from microscopic to macroscopic. I believe that only by doing so can we send purer thoughts. Because I have realized that my entire being is made by the Fa, so recently when I send forth righteous thoughts sometimes I felt that in other dimensions I was as powerful as a huge Falun, and I could cover the entire dimensional field under the limit of my ability. At other times, I would send forth righteous thoughts when I thought of it or at the beginning of each hour. In this human dimension, wherever I go, I would try to clean and correct the field around me. Normally I often recite "Falun Dafa is good" in my mind. I hope that "I" in all layers of space can assimilate to Dafa unconditionally. I also felt that cleansing the body and bad thoughts of myself have been extremely helpful.
On the aspect of validating the Fa and clarifying truth, for these years I have participated in mailing truth-clarification materials sending, making truth-clarification phone calls, passing out flyers on street, joining the parades, sending righteous thoughts in front of the consulates, doing media work, and so on. Looking back it seems to be a pretty long journey in clarifying the truth. I cannot say that I have always been able to achieve righteous thoughts and righteous action, but from the process I have been able to get closer and closer to the state of the divine. Now, besides the projects that I am working on, I also try to require myself to make some truth-clarification phone calls, because this is a good way to save sentient beings and validate the Fa. I have continued this effort for about 6 years. As my level was moving up, my compassionate state to people has also been changing. Now I understand that I need to be harsh and serious to the evil in other dimensions, but not to the people I talk with in this dimension.
Although the essence of cultivation is suffering, but deep in my heart, I feel so lucky that I have the opportunity to cultivate and assimilate to Dafa. It is hard to put into words, but we must be the most admired beings in the entire universe. As I am writing this sharing, I am also referring to Master's article "Mature" to check myself, and hoping that I can be a mature disciple and achieve the realm of what Master said, "I find that none of them are written now with human attachments; there is no sense that the papers were written to complete some task, nor, in either form or content, done using cliched, bogus, vacuous Party-style rhetoric; absent is the attachment of reporting accomplishments with the mentality of "If I don't tell people, how will they know..." ("Mature")
Thank you Master!
