(Clearwisdom.net)
I started practicing Falun Gong on December 30, 2001. At the time the persecution of Falun Gong by the Chinese Communist Party was still very rampant. My family all opposed my learning the exercises, so I could only study the Fa and practice the exercises when no one was around. Every time I wanted to study the Fa and practice the exercises, Teacher would make arrangements for my husband to go out so I could study and do the exercises when he was away. This lasted for more than a year. As I improved by continuously studying the Fa, I enlightened that this state of affairs was not right, but I could not seem to change it. I simply wanted to cry for failing to do this.
I would copy down fellow practitioners' truth-clarification articles from the Clearwisdom website and memorize them. Still, I dared not clarify the truth even to my own family members. Whenever there were people in my home I did not dare do the exercises. One day, when a practitioner came to my home to pick up a Falun Dafa book, my husband was home. I was so scared that I didn't dare take the book out to him. However, my husband said very calmly, "Give him the book. Hurry up!" And he did not ask any questions.
Some time later, whenever I wanted to study the Fa and do the exercises, my husband did not go out anymore. This created a lot of obstacles for me. If I did not practice I would drop down, and to be unable to do the great exercises would be a shame. I wouldn't be able to continue practicing if my family members did not allow me to. What should I do? I had no choice but to force myself to practice the exercises in front of my husband. He flew into a rage and beat me terribly. I did not say anything but continued to practice. He was furious with me.
After that day I practiced at home daily and was also beaten daily. I really did not know what to do ,so I shared with other practitioners. They suggested that I give him a copy of Zhuan Falun to read. I said, "What if he tore the book?" The practitioners asked me to tell him, "Don't tear the book! This is a wonderful book for you to read. It's not like what the TV programs say; those are nothing but lies in an effort to cheat the Chinese people."
On returning home I gave the book to my husband. It was a miracle he accepted it and did not lose his temper. Thereafter, whenever he began to lose his temper with me, I would give him the book to read. This would calm him down. He did not oppose my reading the Fa and doing the exercises anymore. On the contrary, he began to support my study of the Fa. I knew it was the result of the power of the Fa and the compassion of Teacher. In my dream that night I saw someone pushing me upwards to a very high place. I knew this person was Teacher.
I studied the Fa, recited the Fa, and did the exercises frequently. Teacher said in "Hurry Up And Tell Them" from "Hongyin" II ,
"As Dafa disciples tell people the facts,
It's like sharp swords shooting out together from their mouths."
When reciting the poem I felt an urgency to save sentient beings. However, I only wanted to get benefits from the Fa and I did not want to give. This attachment was very bad, and I was determined to let go of it. When I could not open my mouth to clarify the truth to other people I would recite Teacher's poem "What's to Fear?" from Hongyin II.
One day when I went to buy cooking oil, the shop owner gave me seven yuan and 20 cents change too much. I knew I was a practitioner and could not take other people's money unfairly, so I returned the extra change to the owner. I took the opportunity to clarify the truth to her. When I gave her back the money she thanked me. I said, "Don't thank me. If you really want to express your thanks, please thank Falun Dafa. We Falun Gong practitioners are all good people." This was the first time for me to tell someone else that I practiced Falun Gong.
Thereafter I began to clarify the facts to friends, relatives, and strangers. Whenever the fear mentality and the human notions emerged I tried very hard to suppress them and eliminate them. Gradually my fear mentality began to fade. I knew that the process of clarifying the truth is the process of letting go of the fear mentality and the mentality of fearing to lose face. It was also the process of letting go of qing (sentimentality). I became mature in the process of clarifying the truth to save sentient beings.
Now we are talking to people and asking them to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), the Youth League, and the Young Pioneers (which is described as the "three withdrawals") and spread widely the "Nine Commentaries on Communist Party". I helped many people to do the three withdrawals. However, I think I am still not doing enough. I hope that I can do it better to save even more people. What I have achieved is the result of firmly believing in Teacher and the Fa.
When I clarify the truth I always talk about the benefits I have experienced. I use my own experiences to validate the Fa. I tell them about my illnesses and how they miraculously disappeared after reading the Fa and upgrading my xinxing.
Teacher said,
"Dafa disciples are the sole hope of salvation for the beings in each region and each nation. Cherishing what they are doing amounts to cherishing yourselves!" ("My Thanks to Sentient Beings Who Have Sent Greetings")
After reading this recent article I realized the true meaning of the Fa-rectification and my mission during the process. I realized how important it is to save sentient beings.
Now I use every opportunity to clarify the truth to save sentient beings. I clarify the facts to strangers, food market vendors, and my relatives. I have written "Falun Dafa is good!" "Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance" and "Save your life by withdrawing from the CCP and/or its affiliated organizations" on telephone poles. I've also written these phrases on paper bills. When I spend the money I send forth righteous thoughts so that the truth-clarification paper bill will play its role in saving sentient beings. Whenever I meet people but do not have the opportunity to clarify the truth to them I send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors of the CCP in their minds and use my supernormal powers to send the messages "Falun Dafa is good!" "Heaven will extinguish the CCP" and "Save yourself by doing the three withdrawals" into their minds.
When I thought everything was going smoothly in our village, I suddenly heard unfavorable comments about me. I thought the things I was saying were all for the good of everyone. Why was I being treated this way? Whenever I felt uncomfortable, Teacher's words came to mind;
"Don't pay heed to the affairs of bygone dynasties
All will be known when you return home at Consummation" ("Clarity Upon Gaining the Way" from Hongyin II)
I knew it was Teacher encouraging me not to lose heart and asking me to continue to clarify the truth to save sentient beings.
When I first learned Falun Gong, I did not pay enough attention to sending forth righteous thoughts. One night Teacher gave me a hint in my dream. Thereafter I paid special attention to sending forth righteous thoughts and doing the three things well. It is very important to believe in Teacher and the Fa.
