(Clearwisdom.net) Before I started to practice Falun Dafa, a fortune teller told me that I would die at the age of 45. After I began to practice, I experienced several serious "sickness karma" tests. At the beginning, I always thought that my life on this world had come to an end and that my sickness was taking my life. I now realize that this thought was arranged by the old forces long time ago. As long as I acknowledged it, the old forces would not let go of me, and tried very hard to persecute me until I died. This was due to my thinking like an ordinary person, because when the life span of such a person comes to an end on this earth, that person had to die. Through studying the Fa, I understand that while passing the sickness karma test, I must study the Fa well, and my main consciousness must be firm and righteous!
I remembered that I once had a very bad fever and the suffering caused me to constantly toss and turn in bed. My whole body was soaked when I awoke. I felt as though I had suffered for a long time. However, when I looked at my clock, I noticed that only ten minutes had passed. I knew that Teacher was next to me, so I said in my heart, "Teacher I can go through it!" At that time, I felt as though the evil was a dark cloud that slowly pressed down on me. I could clearly feel the density of the black substance that was formidable and my body was very weak. Had I not been a practitioner at that time, I would have died right that minute!
I unceasingly and silently recited the words that Teacher taught us for rectifying the Fa: "The Fa Rectifies The Cosmos, The Evil Is Completely Eliminated." I firmly believed that the power of these words must be able to eliminate my sickness, which was like a mountain. At the same time, a firm thought emerged in my mind, "You can not touch me! You can not touch me!" However, that dark cloud didn't stop moving toward me and it still continuously, slowly pressed down on me. When it was just about to touch the tip of my nose, it suddenly stopped. By then, I was still sending forth righteous thoughts, "The Fa Rectifies The Cosmos, The Evil Is Completely Eliminated. Eliminating!" While sending forth righteous thoughts, I also had an additional strong righteous thought, "You are nothing, I must be able to disintegrate you!" Then, I felt that dark cloud slowly backing off and disappear. After a little while, I opened my eyes and my body no longer was as painful as earlier. Later on, my body felt very light. Certainly, this kind of "sickness" was very easy to distinguish according to the Fa. As long as we let the attachment to life and death go and firmly believe in Dafa, we can overcome it.
Last October, I experienced another "sickness karma" hardship. I was thirsty and ate a lot, especially at 4 p.m. in the afternoon. I had to eat some bread and drink several cups of water, otherwise, I felt dizzy and weary. My father told me, "You have the typical symptoms of a diabetic. You should quickly go to a hospital to see a doctor." I didn't pay too much attention to my "sickness" and thought as long as it didn't affect me doing the three things it would be alright. However, a month passed by and the symptoms of my "sickness" became more serious. The last two days, my body could hardly take it any more. By then, I started to be aware and thought, "Is this arranged by Teacher? Could Teacher have arranged such bad physical conditions for me when I am trying to save people every day? Teacher had purified my body long time ago and also often does 'guanding' for me at every level. How could I have diabetes? This is 100 percent persecution from the old forces. I must eradicate it!" So I sat down immediately and sent forth righteous thoughts: "Thoroughly eradicate the old forces' persecution of my body! Firmly deny all their arrangements! I firmly deny and do not acknowledge the old forces' attempt to use these diabetic symptoms to persecute me! I only take the path that Teacher has arranged for me and nothing else! Teacher, please strengthen me!" At the same time, I said in my heart to the old forces, "This is my firm choice! If you still dare to persecute me, you will violate the new cosmic law and all the gods from the whole cosmos will together eliminate you!" That afternoon, I sent forth righteous thoughts three times. Each time after sending forth righteous thoughts, I felt better. Next day, I wasn't thirsty, not hungry at all and my body felt very light.
The key is whether we can clearly distinguish between normal sickness karma and persecution. It doesn't matter which situation arises, Teacher has taught it in the Fa very clearly. Only when we study the Fa well, are we able to distinguish between them and are then able to pass through them. Because every practitioners' state is different and his or her diligence and factors are different, cultivation doesn't have a formula. As long as we have righteous thoughts and righteous actions, there is no test that can stop us. We can pass through them all.
I think that two things are very important.
First, we should accurately judge our sickness symptoms. If we find that it is interference from the old forces, we should send forth strong righteous thoughts to eradicate it and meanwhile ask Teacher to strengthen us. While eradicating the evil persecution, we should not hesitate at all and should not think whether it works or not, or think whether the "sickness" will recur in the future. We must be confident and must steadily eliminate the sickness with one strong thought. This is not a question of curing a person when that person is sick. This is a manifestation of a practitioner using the divine power of the Fa to think and act righteously. If we really can achieve this state, the "sickness" will disappear instantly.
Secondly, look inward to find our loopholes. When the evil persecutes us, it starts with our human attachments. For example, one day a practitioner visited her son's family. Right before she left his home, her daughter-in-law told her that she should be careful because there was a dog in a lower level apartment. So while passing by that apartment she feared that the dog might come out to bite her. Due to her attachment, she fell down the stairs and hurt her leg. At the beginning, she thought that this was a sickness karma, so she was willing to endure it. However, her leg got worse and a year later, she was still in pain. If at beginning, she had looked inward to find her shortcomings according to the Fa, her situation could very quickly have changed. At the same time, the old forces would not have had a chance to take advantage of her and let her leg injury last for such a long time. However, she didn't look inward to find her shortcomings and firmly deny the old forces' arrangement; instead, she endured it. She also used some folk medicines to treat her injury. Under such a situation, how could the evil give up persecuting her? How could Teacher help his disciple when Teacher saw that his disciple lacked righteous thoughts and actions and couldn't understand the Fa rationally? Actually, she still regarded herself as an ordinary person. During the final period of the Fa-rectification, Dafa practitioners should be able to distinguish the manifestations the old forces use to persecute our bodies. We should be able to know why we have a "sickness" and know how to solve the issue. The best medicine to cure our "sicknesses" is to often study the Fa and study the Fa well, having strong righteous thoughts and firmly believe in Dafa.
