Studying the Fa and Letting Go of Attachments
(Clearwisdom.net) I thought I cooperated very well with practitioners A and B on truth clarification. But one time, for reasons unknown to me, one of them said that I had a "fear attachment," and the other said that I was usually "not friendly to talk to." I was very angry after I heard those comments. It was not a big deal for them to say that - if there was a misunderstanding, it would be okay to give some explanation because we are fellow practitioners. But I just could not take it.
I am my parents' only daughter. I was headstrong and not an obliging person. I did not like others talking about it. I cultivated away a lot of it. However, I felt this was unfair and I felt wronged. I could not fall asleep that night. I got up and read Teacher's words. Teacher said,
"Accordingly, in your future cultivation practice you will run into all kinds of tribulations. How can you practice cultivation without these hardships? If everyone is good to one another without conflicts of interests or interference from the human mind, how can your xinxing make progress by your only sitting there? That is impossible. One must truly temper and upgrade oneself through actual practice..." "Everything will assume the form of everyday situations, such as someone may have irritated you today, someone has upset you, someone has mistreated you, or someone suddenly speaks to you with no respect. It is to see how you will react to these issues." (Zhuan Falun)
After reading this section, I understood my problem. Fellow practitioners may not always be friendly. How can we improve our xinxing if there are no conflicts? I assured myself I could pass. At that moment, I felt peaceful. But soon I had other thoughts: I was not like what they said. With tears in my eyes, I said to Teacher's photo, "Teacher, I finally understand how painful it is to get rid of attachments." I took note of Teacher's words in "Fa-Teaching Given to the Australia Practitioners" many times. Later, I gradually calmed down.
Looking inward is really magical. I found one of my biggest attachments - I did not want others to talk about my weaknesses.
Previously I could not keep anything to myself. I liked to tell others everything. But I did not want others to talk about me. After I realized this attachment, I started to mind my own speech. I use the Fa to correct myself. Now I can do better.
I want to thank Teacher for helping me to understand the Fa, get rid of attachments, cleanse my soul, and purify my body. I cannot express how grateful I am.
The above is a bit of personal sharing. I welcome comments about anything inappropriate.