(Clearwisdom.net) A few days ago, a local practitioner who was involved in coordination work was suddenly arrested. Shortly thereafter, the police ransacked the practitioner's home and confiscated all the truth-clarification equipment. The total loss was nearly 30,000 yuan (about 4,400 US dollars).
I am one of the coordinators who worked closely with this practitioner. When I was informed that the practitioner was arrested, I felt a shadow flash over my mind. As a Dafa practitioner however, my responsibilities didn't allow me to think too much because I had to notify other practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts and collect evidence of this practitioner's illegal arrest and mistreatment.
This afternoon, I sorted out the information we gathered and created self-adhesive posters. When I distributed the printed documents to the practitioner who was in charge of processing the truth-clarification materials, I spoke with him about the harassment that he had been experiencing at home for practicing Falun Gong. Just at that time, I received a text message from my wife, "Warning, you have been tailed! There is a special group working on the practitioner's arrest." I had talked about the security issue with fervor and assurance just a moment prior, and now I instantly felt worried. The fear that overcame me must have appeared ingenuous. I knew the old forces were using this information to magnify my attachment of fear, but I still couldn't help feeling frightened. The fellow practitioner said firmly, "I wouldn't even think that the evildoers will dare to come."
At that moment, two other practitioners arrived, so I bid them all farewell and left. On my way home, I recited the Fa to strengthen my righteous thoughts, but the bad thoughts kept coming while I was eliminating them. Upon arriving home, I sat on the bed cross-legged and began to clean out my own dimensional field, and looked inward to eliminate my attachments while eliminating the evil forces. The evil forces tried very hard to interfere with my thoughts and kept sending bad thoughts into my mind.
I recalled Teacher's Fa,
"I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe." ("Characteristics of Falun Dafa" from Zhuan Falun)
I certainly believed in what Teacher said. This showed clearly that it was not me who had this fear. Then, what was this thing that had this fear and why was I failing to distinguish it from my true self? I was ashamed for having these thoughts. At the time, Teacher reminded me of the following Fa teaching,
"We absolutely cannot promote among students somebody's being attached to writing a book to expose the persecution and for that purpose being transformed by the evil. Do you know what "transformation" means? In fact, what Gods see is: the person got out of there to expose the evil because she could no longer endure it, and her pursuit of getting out was really an attachment that she wasn't able to let go. " ("Master's Fa Taught in the International Teleconference")
I instantly enlightened to this Fa principle. Like Teacher said, "Being afraid of persecution was a real attachment that [I] wasn't able to let go." I had the attachment of fear since I had very frequent contact with that practitioner and we were doing Fa-rectification work together. I had this fear despite understanding the Fa principle that the evil uses our attachments to persecute us. However, the human logic that had formed over thousands of years in my mind, contributing to fear based on the fact that I had been persecuted before and was a "core member" of our local group of practitioners--and thus a prime target for persecution--as well as the the fact that this fellow practitioner was arrested and the evildoers would track me down by tracing me to him, was prominent in my thinking. I sent forth righteous thoughts with this fear in my mind, therefore the purpose of sending forth righteous thoughts wasn't pure. I was using Dafa to protect myself. With such filthy selfishness, how could I generate the kind of upright and cleansing thoughts that a practitioner should have when sending forth righteous thoughts? Teacher taught us,
"To reduce the losses, and to save sentient beings, put your Dafa disciples' powerful righteous thoughts to full use! Show your Mighty Virtue! " ("Righteous Thoughts")
Teacher asked us to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil interference with Dafa, to save more sentient beings, and to let us, as particles of Dafa, eliminate the evil factors. Righteous thoughts are not to be used as an umbrella to protect ourselves.
The evil factors will interfere with us if we have the attachment of fear. Teacher said,
"All of you are already aware of the principle of mutual-generation and mutual-inhibition. If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist." ("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Upon finding my attachment, I became sober-minded. I said quietly to Teacher, "This bad thought was not mine so I will not acknowledge it." I also asked Teacher to help me remove it. Instantly I felt that I was no longer wavering. Since the bad thought lost its root, it instantly disappeared.
I was so grateful to Teacher, who let me truly find myself, differentiate who I am from the evil factors, and help me dig out the attachment of fear. The purpose of writing this article is to share my enlightenment with fellow practitioners. Please feel free to comment and correct any misunderstanding.
Teacher's Fa that I have quoted here in this article has an even more profound inner meaning than what I could express. What I wrote here is only my personal understanding.
