(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa in 2005. At first, I only read Zhuan Falun at home and seldom practiced the exercises, much less sent forth righteous thoughts, clarified the truth, or helped others to quit the Party. Due to my lack of contact with other practitioners, I could not keep up with Fa-Rectification.
One day in July of 2006, I met an elderly practitioner by coincidence. Of course, the coincidence must have been arranged by Master. Through them I began to understand that truth-clarification materials are hard to come. The materials that they handed out came from their hard-earned savings, and relatively few practitioners had stepped forward to help. Many others only read Master's lectures, not other publications such as Minghui Weekly etc.
That night I really thought about this. What have I done? The next day I looked for this practitioner and began my journey to save sentient beings. Most of our materials were transported by practitioners from other cities once a month or bi-weekly. We would have a lot of materials but they were out-of-date and we had to go to a nearby printing shop to print the latest versions ourselves. Besides the high cost, time was also an issue. I began to wish that I could go online myself.
Compassionate Master saw my wish and on October 27, 2007, arranged for me to meet practitioners from other cities. They taught me how to use special software to safely visit the Minghui website. I made many notes and under their patient help, I learned how to go online, download materials and print them. The practitioners who helped me were very considerate and even brought all the necessary materials.
From then on, I began to read the Minghui website and learned a great deal. I realized that I was very far from Master's requirements to do the three things. I also learned to look inside more often. With the growth of my materials site, more and more practitioners came out. So I would like to thank Master and the practitioners who came to teach me on behalf of all sentient beings in my area.
This March, a number of practitioners were arrested in the run up to the Olympics. Among them was a coordinator who worked with me a lot. Many practitioners began hiding their books and stopped asking for materials. At that time, due to my lack of Fa-study, I developed a strong attachment to fear.
Seeing everyone else hiding their books, what should I do? Standing in front of Master's portrait, I cried as I read Master's article from February 6, 2008,
"Fa-rectification is sure to succeed, and Dafa disciples are sure to achieve Consummation. When Heaven dictates change, no one can stop it! The Fa's rectification of the cosmos and the re-creation of heaven and earth are coming to a close. The reformation of the vast firmament is charging forward rapidly and powerfully. What do a handful of wretched creatures above or on the earth amount to? The mighty virtue of Dafa disciples gloriously illuminates the universe. What gods and man alike have awaited and worried over has arrived. Save your sentient beings, fulfill your great prehistoric vows, and make good on the pledges you made!" (Greetings)
My heart began to calm down and slowly, my fear diminished and disappeared. I decided against disrupting my materials site. A few days later, two practitioners came to my place and ask with great concern, "These are all Fa-tools to save sentient beings, not evidence for the persecution." If we think that these are all Fa-tools to save sentient beings, how could the evil dare to enter this righteous field?
None of our local practitioners are adept with computers, and we also do not have much contact with other material sites, so we have to ask practitioners from other cities to come by and solve our problems. Under their help and Master's compassionate protection, we've made it through, and many practitioners are starting to ask for new materials again.
Recently my printer suffered interference. At first, we began to send forth righteous thoughts and study the Fa. With this it worked normally again. However, after a day or two, if began to develop problems again. In the end, the printer stopped working altogether. Through this incident, I was able to look inside and found many hidden attachments and human notions, especially that of reliance on other practitioners to fix problems. Although it has not been fixed yet, I will continue to look inside and do the three things better.
Today is October 27, the first anniversary of my materials site and I would like to thank Master once again!
