(Clearwisdom.net) A few people have been telling me about their attitudes toward me for some time. They are aware of my situation and shared their sympathy and concerns at the injustice done to me. A co-worker much younger than me would sometimes touch my face while passing by my desk. I felt something was wrong and looked inside: I had been acting appropriately in front of the opposite sex, how come this was happening? I recalled Master's words,
"Whenever there is interference of one kind or another in qigong practice, you should look for reasons within yourself and determine what you still have not let go." (Zhuan Falun, Lecture Six)
I soon discovered my wrong mindset. My husband had a few affairs. Discussing this with him many times did nothing to improve the situation. Sometimes I would become upset and think, "I'm no less than any of those women. And look how awful you are! I don't mind, because I practice cultivation. Otherwise, I would have had several affairs to let you know how it feels." It was merely a thought, but such a thought is wrong for a practitioner. Wasn't I the same as my husband? Hadn't I descended to the level of everyday people? Wasn't the interference mentioned above the result of my bad thoughts? I was startled when I realized that emotions moved me. I immediately spoke somberly with the two people who had expressed their feelings about me, "We are both married and have our responsibilities. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. What I want is not what you are thinking; for me, cultivation practice means to stay with it until consummation."
I recalled a story shared by a practitioner in a Clearwisdom article, "Recalling Experiences with Master with Gratitude." In the story, a woman practitioner was planning to hold Master's arm while someone took a group picture, but when the camera was ready she just couldn't extend her hand to do it. The thought disappeared because Master's righteous field suppressed the thought. I came to realize that I cannot let others develop inappropriate thoughts about me; that I should display the demeanor of a Dafa practitioner. When the young co-worker approached me again later, I sent righteous thoughts to stop his hand from touching me, and indeed, he walked by and never touched me again from that day on.
He used to argue with me when I talked to him about Falun Gong because he had a lot of Party culture stuff in his mind. Now he respects practitioners, and has a good opinion of Falun Gong.
