(Clearwisdom.net)
1.Learning how to handle the relationship with my husband
I used to be very sentimental when I was young. I grew up in a household ruled by my father's violence. At that time I always hoped to have a happy family, but that was not my destiny. Plus, I am rather stubborn. I could not endure any of my husband´s shortcomings because I wanted everything to be perfect. I treated our relationship with deviated emotions. All that time, I only wanted to take but not to give. On August 1, 1998, I started to cultivate in Falun Dafa. When clarifying the facts to my husband, I would use Dafa as an excuse to make demands and then expect him to improve. I did not get rid of my attachments and only wanted to obtain something from Dafa. The result was that the situation did not change. I even clung to the thought that Master said the whole family will benefit if one person in the family practices Dafa. I thought I would surely benefit. I kept cultivating with attachments like these. Even the demon of lust came to interfere. There was no peace in my family for several years.
Under great tribulations and pressures, my cultivation was not easy. I was confused. I longed to have someone to talk with, so the thought of getting divorced kept coming up. Although I kept studying Master´s new articles and my mind nature was somewhat improved, I was tested when three men came into my life. I was stuck and could not escape. I realized that the demon of lust was seriously interfering and wanted to drag me down. However, I did not let Dafa guide me, so my mind went further astray. I was separated from Dafa. Due to my shame, I did not dare to talk about my situation with anyone. One day my mother told me that she saw in a dream that the evil took a big tube of blood from my body. I was really frightened! I am a Dafa disciple in the Fa rectification period. How could I lose myself? I want to cultivate! When I strengthened my mind and adjusted my actions to eliminate the interferences, all of them disappeared from my life.
In 2003, my husband went away and did not come home for several months. He went to Beijing to stay at a friend's place. It got my attention: I am a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period! I am leading the way and I should save him. If I do not save him, who else will offer him salvation? When this thought came up, I felt that my xinxing was improving. Master is watching me. I should follow the cultivation path Master arranges for me. I started to send righteous thoughts continually to eliminate all the evil factors that had exploited my attachment to sentimentality and to have him return home. After two months, he came back. He changed totally. He started to take responsibility and be attentive to our child. He also quit gambling. He gradually became better. He now reads all the Dafa-related articles and he especially likes Zhengjian Weekly (the weekly digest of the Chinese PureInsight.org website). He also got a job and became a man of great enterprise. When the Nine Commentaries was distributed, I first gave him a copy and solemnly asked him to withdraw from the Youth League. He agreed with pleasure.
Once I put a copy of the article "Cultivate the Heart and Get Rid of Human Mentalities" in a cabinet before going to work in the evening. I was afraid that he would not understand this article so I did not want him to read it. The next morning when I got home, he laughed and said the person in the article was very much like him: everyday after coming home from work, he would go to bed at once with no other thoughts. "Did you write that article?" he asked. I realized that he had read it. I did not know his heart so I did not answer him at first. He asked, "What do you think of it?" I asked, "Are you satisfied with the way I behave?" He said he was quite satisfied and he would support my efforts. Currently, we still get along with each other very well.
I further experienced gaining in cultivation without pursuit. Loss is the real gain. Because we are Dafa disciples in the Fa-rectification period, we have different paths. We should get rid of human mentalities and walk on our own paths following the Fa. We should be strict with ourselves in every test and examine ourselves carefully. Did I follow Master´s requirements? I am a Dafa disciple in the Fa- rectification period. I am a guard of the Universe. I have to be responsible for my own cultivation!
Thank you, Master, for saving my family.
2. Establishing a truth-clarification material production site
The population of our county is quite small. After the evil CCP started the persecution of Dafa, one practitioner took the responsibility of delivering truth clarification materials. Not long after that, this practitioner was sentenced to three years in a forced labor camp. Suddenly we lost our source of materials. Practitioners in the county were deeply worried. When I saw that the detained practitioner's relatives were blaming us, I was filled with regret: "If all the practitioners were more mindful of the safety of others and cared about the whole body, things would not be like this. Why don't I take charge?" Later, another practitioner found me and hoped that I could take responsibility for delivering materials. In the process, many attachments that I was hardly aware of disappeared. Before, I did not know how to think from the the perspective of the Fa, so I always just followed my mother's advice. When my cultivation improved, I raised my own understanding and enlightenment during interactions with practitioners. After cooperating with fellow practitioners for a while, I could treat many things with righteous thoughts.
However, the evil continually persecuted Dafa. When we were preparing to set up our own material production site, a fellow practitioner was arrested the second day after the copy machine arrived. Several other practitioners and I tried to figure it out on our own. We encouraged each other and started to copy materials. In the end, practitioners from out of town came many times to teach us how to get on the Internet, and how to download, print and bind, until we could handle it on our own. I learned a lot during this time.
The contact person in our county was charged and sentenced to four years of imprisonment. Before he was arrested, I always wanted to talk to him when we needed to coordinate or make a decision. After this contact person was persecuted, I was afraid that fellow practitioners might want me to be the new coordinator. I decided that I would refuse to take the title of coordinator. Later I realized that my selfishness had taken over and I had been afraid that others would misunderstand me because I was young. However, cultivation cannot stop, and maybe this was what I was able to do. Incorporating fellow practitioners' skills, I coordinated several projects. All of them turned out very well.
There is a young practitioner who obtained the Fa after July 20, 1999. Her righteous thoughts are very strong. With fellow practitioners' encouragement, she started to take charge of the material production site. She works hard every day and tries to provide enough materials on time. At the same time, she gives financial help without complaint. We have direct contact with each other. During our sharing I would point out her shortcomings with benevolence. Now she has become mature and is able to view things with the guidance of the Fa.
Recently I watched the "Fa-Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners" DVD. I realized when Master talked about cooperation with the whole body that the key is to look inside and to see the bad things as opportunities to improve. Dafa practitioners are a whole body. We should consider things from the perspective of the whole body and adjust our thoughts and actions using divine thoughts to understand Dafa. We should not go to non-practitioners with our interpersonal problems because that may cause them to form an negative view of Dafa. Everyone is valuable and deserves salvation. Everyone is in the Fa and has to position themselves. Now I have my own computer. The evil cannot stop us from making truth clarification materials everywhere.
3. Clarifying the facts and helping people to withdraw from the CCP
After the persecution started, my co-workers could not understand how I could believe in Dafa. Even those younger than I criticized me. At first, I did not try to explain anything to them, but just used my behavior to validate Dafa. I tried to do well in my work and did not struggle with others. I treated everyone with benevolence and let Dafa guide the way. At appropriate times, I talked about the beauty of Dafa and the evil persecution. After years of clarifying the facts, all of them have changed greatly. They call me a beautiful golden lotus flower. All the co-workers in my office have withdrawn from the CCP, and almost everyone in my company has withdrawn from the CCP with my help and the help of my fellow practitioners. Several have even started cultivation in Dafa.
After cultivating in Dafa for more than nine years, there are so many understandings to share. I have never written an article before. Now I realize what a big loss that is, because I have forgotten many things. This sharing I wrote today is rather superficial even though it took me all night to finish it. Please point out anything inappropriate.
Cultivation is not a game. Getting rid of attachments and human thoughts are the process of uplifting the mind nature. Everything we gain is from the compassionate power of our Master. In the Fa, we cultivate a clear and steady mind, kind behavior, true nature, and sincere words. Time is passing quickly. During this limited time, I will do the three things well together with all Dafa practitioners. I will be more diligent and offer salvation to more sentient beings to fulfill my wish from long ago in history.
