(Clearwisdom.net) I received a letter from a friend that I met through the Internet. He said in the letter: "I was so happy to receive your phone call yesterday. The reason I wanted to thank you during our phone conversation was that you (Falun Gong practitioners) helped me find kind thoughts within myself again. Yesterday I had a dream in which I saw my previous personal enemy. I was running after him trying to kill him. I wanted very much to kill him myself. But ever since I saw your kindness, I felt like I didn't hate that enemy as much as before. So I thank you."
When I read this letter, I remembered what Master said in "Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005:"
"And what is more, you are truly saving people--openly and with dignity saving their very being--and they will be able to sense that. On top of that, as you go about clarifying the truth, the benevolence you exude and the righteous thoughts you project disintegrate the evil, awakening those lives you save and causing them to recover their very selves, and that can lead a person to truly come to rationally see these things for himself. And of course, as soon as people wake up, things are immediately different."
This Fa had touched me deeply. Though I had enlightened to this Fa principle, I had to put it into practice. It was most important. I received an MSN message from an Internet friend. He had a misunderstanding about Dafa and he supported the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). I spent a lot of time clarifying the facts to him, telling him what human rights activists in some provinces were doing; that people in Heilongjiang Province were advocating "No Olympics but human rights;" about the incident of forced surgical sterilization in Bobai County, Guangxi Province; that the CCP was harvesting organs from living Falun Gong practitioners; how Attorney Gao was persecuted after he published his investigation on the persecution of Falun Gong, etc.
I kept talking. The other person interrupted me and asked, "Can I say a word?" Although I said, "Yes, you can," whenever he said something that slandered Dafa, I talked more about the truth to him. In the end he still held on to his own understanding. When I hung up, I was very upset. Remembering Master's Fa, I realized my own shortcomings. I was not kind when I talked to him. I just tried to talk more to stop him saying anything negative about Dafa.
I realized that I should keep calm and be compassionate even though he didn't accept what I said at first and let him know that I was truly being kind. I wanted to clarify the facts to him again. The next day he sent MSN messages to me again. I called him straight away. I apologized to him for my nervousness, but then he apologized to me as well! When I let go of my heart of zealotry, he was also willing to listen to the truth.
When I clarified the facts to people, I found that many from mainland China were willing to communicate with me but that they were extremely poisoned by CCP culture. They mixed the concepts of the Party and the State and thought that supporting the Party meant they were patriotic. They believe the CCP's lie of "Stability surpasses everything." If I didn't break down that CCP culture, it was hard for them to become clearheaded. I felt that I didn't clarify the facts at a deeper level and realized that I should put more of my heart into it to do it well. So I started to collect more truth-clarifying materials and data and learned how to talk to them to break through their CCP culture mindsets.
When I started, I had many attachments that I held into firmly. I wanted to let them know the truth of Falun Gong and the evilness of the CCP and at the same time let them know the kindness of Dafa disciples. I had this heart and that heart. As a result, in the conversation, my divided heart was revealed. They said that I was too extreme and few of them agreed with me. I tried to improve the way I expressed things and get rid of my heart of eagerness, forcing my own opinions upon others, and agitation.
Cultivate Away the Qing
For a long time I communicated with a fellow practitioner by sending MSN messages. Almost every day I shared with him my experience of Fa study and truth clarification. Though we had conflicts, I could see a lot of my attachments in the conflicts. At the time I was not willing to touch those attachments, but later on I would remind myself to view the matter from a cultivator's perspective. Thus I liked to share things with him often. I didn't realize that I had developed qing toward him. I was used to communicating with him and relying on him. Once he didn't send me any messages for seven days and I found I had a feeling of loss. Then I realized that it was the qing that I had to get rid of though we only talked about our cultivation experiences.
This incident reminded me once more to look within myself to see if I had developed various attachments like this unknowingly. If we don't realize their existence, they will hinder us from returning to our original home. I reminded myself to have righteous thoughts and to do well. We should treasure the time we have and cultivate diligently.
