(Clearwisdom.net) All of us originated in the old universe. Much of our lives has been arranged by the old forces, including work, living environment, sickness karma and so on. Of course, superseding the old forces' arrangement, Teacher has given us new, and more detailed arrangements, and the protection of His Fashen, so that we can break though the control and arrangements of the old forces as long as we stay focused on the Fa. Consequently, the old forces cannot touch us anymore and we can follow Teacher's arrangements to cultivate and open up opportunities for future sentient beings. I'd like to share some of my experiences with fellow practitioners for reference.
One day in December 2006, I suddenly felt great pain in my heart. It felt as if hot pepper was searing the area from my heart to my throat. I had a similar feeling once before, in 2005, while I was doing the fifth exercise around midnight. I felt as if death was coming for me. I spite of this, I was not scared. I was clearly aware that I was a Falun Dafa practitioner, that nothing would happen to me, that I would not die, and that my body had been given to me to help me complete my cultivation. I then lay down quietly and stopped thinking about it. Within about half an hour, the symptoms disappeared. Since I did not firmly reject the old force arrangements and made no breakthrough, they reappeared. However, I had gained a better understanding of cultivation and the destruction of the old forces. I immediately thought: "Heart, you should assimilate to Dafa together with the rest of the body. You should not experience birth, aging, sickness and death as ordinary lives do, and you should not follow the arrangements of the old forces." As soon as I had this thought, everything disappeared in a second. It is true that one thought determines the results. At that moment my heart escaped from the clutches of death and it since walks on the path of Teacher's Fa. If I had not gained the Fa, and if Teacher had not eliminated karma for me and given me timely protection, I'm afraid that I might have really died of heart pain according to the old force arrangements.
My husband is an irascible person who is not very rational but resorts to violence and believes in such fallacy as "those who are obedient shall thrive and those who resist shall perish". I know that this is also a tribulation arranged by the old forces. At first, I always tried to endure or to distance myself and avoided facing the conflicts. I used to have to go about my business covertly and he would fly into a temper whenever he noticed me doing anything he didn't approve of. I realized soon that this was not correct behavior and I started to deal with him in an upright manner.
I told him clearly what I would do and went ahead with it, and his attitude seemed to become better. Still, I could feel the hatred he nursed inside because he often took the opportunity to censure Dafa. As my character improved, I understood that my family environment was also arranged by the old forces, and that Teacher was making use of it to temper me. What could I do to break down the old force arrangements and to save him? I could neither escape nor force my way around it. I came to understand that regardless of who arranged the situation (we should not even admit the existence of the old forces), and what kind of enmity existed between us, I should just treat him as a sentient being. I started to always consider his wellbeing first no matter what happened, and I did everything truly for his benefit. I tried my best to prevent him from making karma for himself. When I was really thinking and acting like this, I could feel that I have broken through the the old force arrangements. My husband too has changed a lot; I sincerely hope that he will gain the Fa some day.
