(Clearwisdom.net) I would like to take the opportunity of the Fourth Internet Experience Sharing Conference for Practitioners in China to greet our benevolent and great Master! Greetings Fellow practitioners!
In the past eight years of validating the Fa, I have walked on my cultivation path more and more steadily. I have relied on and followed Master's teachings, relied on the belief in Master and Dafa and believe in the complete negation of the old forces' arrangements. Master said,
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts while the transformation of gong is done by the master." (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I have come this far and experienced Master's vast benevolence and protection on my cultivation path. My path testified to the magnificence and dignity of Dafa. As long as we walk righteously, we will experience Master's enormous and powerful grace.
1. Dafa Gives Me a Happy Family
Prior to Dafa cultivation, I was a businesswoman who had strong desires for recognition, money and emotions. I also had a bad temper and often fought with my husband. Several times I had an abortion as an act of revenge when I was angry with my husband. I had five abortions in the past. I ended up being unable to get pregnant. No doctor could cure me. My husband got drunk often and we were on the verge of getting a divorce.
Right then, in 1996, I was fortunate to begin Dafa cultivation. Three months later I was pregnant with our son. My temper was no longer as bad as before. I began caring for and respecting my husband. He witnessed dramatic improvements in me after I practiced Falun Gong. He saw the wonders of Dafa and began cultivating as well.
At the beginning of the CCP's persecution of Falun Gong, with the lies and framing of Dafa, my belief became shaky. However, through thorough Fa study, watching truth clarification CDs and reading truth clarification materials, I understood the Fa principles better and learned the facts about the CCP's deception. I took my family to go to Tiananmen Square several times to validate Dafa. With Master's benevolent protection, we always returned safely.
2. Dafa Gives Me a Second Life
Because I had focused my attention on my business for more money, sometimes I would argue with others because of my attachment to personal gain. I did not study the Fa enough. When I practiced the exercises, I still worried about my business. Therefore, the dark minions in other dimensions took advantage of me.
One day, riding my bike on the way to my business, I was hit by a car. I was unconscious on the ground for awhile. When I came to, I thought to ask Master to save me. My legs were so swollen that I could not walk. My bike was broken, and the driver had fled. I did not know what to do. I then thought of Master's words,
"Good or evil comes from that instant thought."(Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I immediately thought, "I'm fine. I am a Falun Gong practitioner."
After I returned home I studied the Fa calmly. I recovered within a few days. If I had not practiced Falun Gong, I would not have made it. Even if I had made more money, it would have been worthless.
Master taught us,
"Whether you can let go of ordinary human attachments is a fatal test on your way to becoming a truly extraordinary being. Every disciple who truly cultivates must pass it, for it is the dividing line between a cultivator and an everyday person." ("True Cultivation," Essentials of Further Advancement)
3. Establishing a Materials Production Site
Since surviving this life and death test, several practitioners and I from the same township established a materials production site. It went smoothly, and fellow practitioners worked really well together. Gradually, I began to become overzealous about Dafa work and eager to accomplish things. I spent less time on Fa study.
Suddenly one day the landlord's son knocked on the door, "The police are coming." Two other practitioners left right away. I immediately tried to clean up. Later on that child said, "Look at you, so scared. I was just teasing you!" We did not think about it further - wasn't it Master who tried to use his mouth to warn us?
Several days later I went out on business. When I returned, the landlord told me, "Practitioner A was arrested and beaten. She took the police to the materials production site, and the police took away the machines." This practitioner eventually told the police under interrogation my name and practitioner B's name. The police arrested me. At that time I did not know about sending righteous thoughts. I just asked Master to strengthen me, "They cannot persecute me. There are still many sentient beings waiting to be saved." The police threatened me, but I was not afraid. I felt Master close to me, and I did not cooperate with them. I kept telling them of the wonders of Dafa. Several hours later they let me go.
4. Re-establishing a Fa-study Group and Forming One Body
Our group exercise site was dismantled after July 20, 1999. Many practitioners were afraid of stepping forward, much less validating Dafa. I realized that we should harmonize in Dafa and form a strong one-body. Master does not want to leave even one practitioner behind. My responsibility should be helping fellow practitioners. I called them one by one to my home to study the Fa together. After Fa study we shared experiences and thoughts on how to do the three things better. We decided to go to the countryside to distribute truth clarification materials and posters.
We were unaware that practitioner C had been reported to the police when we went to her home for Fa study. We also did not know that practitioner C was arrested while distributing truth clarification posters in a suburb. She did not cooperate with the police, but the police discovered her cell phone and then went to her house to search.
The police were waiting in front of her door, and they arrested us one by one. The police said we were "gathering." They found out the location of the materials production site from fellow practitioners, and they demanded our addresses and names. We did not cooperate. One practitioner tried to run. Several police officers caught her and tried to beat her. I realized that Falun Gong practitioners are one body. Persecuting her is also persecuting me. I immediately opened the window and shouted, "Hey, everyone, come and see. We are good people, but the police are arresting and beating us!" When the police heard me, they pulled me over and threatened me and beat me. When they beat me I shouted, "Mom! Mom!" Then I immediately remembered Master's teaching,
"When they were beaten and in a lot of pain, many of them cried out, "Oww! Mom!" They completely treated this persecution as a persecution of ordinary human beings against other human beings. Then if I tried to protect them at that time, those old forces wouldn't stand for it, because they're upholding the principles of the old cosmos; they think those are the only principles of the cosmos, and they can't see the new cosmos. They would say: "This is your disciple? Do you think he sees you as his Master? Has he regarded himself as a cultivator? Does he have righteous thoughts? Has he put aside the thought of life and death? Has he remained solid and unshakable, like diamond?" At those moments, Master really couldn't respond to them in the face of their criticism." ("Touring North America to Teach the Fa")
I then shouted, "Master! Master!" The police immediately stopped beating me. My tears fell. At that moment I truly felt Master's benevolence - the enormous and powerful grace.
Just then, my righteous thoughts became stronger. I told them the facts about Dafa. They refused to listen to me and verbally abused me. I sent righteous thoughts to have them receive karmic retribution right away. The police chief immediately showed signs of not feeling well. He was pale and called for additional support to take practitioners away. I asked Master to strengthen me. There is still so much to be done to save people. I wanted to make him fail to make the phone call. It worked! He had to go to the patio to try. I immediately asked practitioner C to open the door and run outside. The police came to chase us. I was running barefoot, and there were sharp rocks on the ground and broken glass. But I felt my feet were not even touching the ground and swiftly ran away.
Another time, right after I had finished printing "Minghui Weekly," police and people from the Neighborhood Committee arrived at my home. I immediately closed the bedroom door and asked for Master's help to not let them see these materials. Right when I was done, a police officer climbed up the window and saw me. He kept knocking on the window. I then thought of Master's Fa principles,
"No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates." ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful", Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I said, "I'm following the principle of Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance. I am trying to be the best kind of person. You do not go and find bad people, but instead you come here to harass good people. It's time for me to rest now. When I have time, we can have a conversation." They immediately promised not to bother me anymore and left. They never came back. All righteous thoughts come from the Fa.
5. Cultivating Xinxing First Before Fixing Machines
As the Fa-rectification continued to advance, I bought my own computer and printer. With fellow practitioners' help, I learned how to access the Internet, edit, print, make truth clarification posters, make banners and copy CDs. Due to limited resources I took over many responsibilities such as distributing materials and coordination. My time spent on Fa study and practicing exercises became less and less. I was preoccupied with thinking about the things I could do to validate the Fa. I could not calm down when I studied the Fa or practiced the exercises. While reading the Fa, I still thought about Fa validation. It was actually a waste of time. I did not do well sending righteous thoughts, looking inward when facing conflicts and when distributing materials. Even the printer did not cooperate. I sent righteous thoughts toward the printer, but it did not seem to help. I became anxious and tired. I wanted to ask practitioners to help, but they were too far away. The local practitioners work during the day, and there is no bus at night. It was not convenient for them to come either.
Actually, nothing practitioners face is coincidental. I stopped what I was doing and focused on Fa study. I looked inward and asked Master to strengthen me. Having realizations along the Fa principles, I discovered my strong ego and my desire for renown and showing off. In the meantime I said to the printer, "I know you work very hard too. You are great. You are fortunate enough to be a Fa implement, assisting Master in Fa-rectification. This is a great glory! Because Dafa is supernatural, you should also have supernatural powers." I sent forth righteous thoughts and asked Master to strengthen me. When I restarted the printer, everything worked normally.
I realized I should work with more practitioners and improve together. So, I gathered practitioners around me and taught them the techniques for making posters, banners and CDs. With Master's strengthening, we cooperated well with one another.
It was Master and Dafa that helped me walk this far, helped me become mature when in tribulations, and made me let go of my ego in validating Dafa during the Fa-rectification period. Dafa gives me everything, including the highest future glory. I would like to use all of these to offer sentient beings salvation. I will always bear in mind Master's teaching,
"The only thing you have a role in is saving people." ("Teaching the Fa in the City of Chicago")
This is my personal understanding. Please point out anything inappropriate.
