(Clearwisdom.net) I fortunately obtained the Fa in my middle age on August 5th 1998. I will never forget my previous experiences of hardship, since they make me recognize how fortunate I was to obtain Dafa. What a blessing it is to obtain Dafa, to cherish the Fa and to practice cultivation diligently.
I had suffered many illnesses and tribulations ever since I was born. Moreover, my parents were physically and mentally abnormal. During the crazy years of the "Great Leap Forward", people's communes and the nation-wide "Smelting Steel Movement" made Chinese people suffer a lot. There were six people in my family, my grandpa, grandma, father, mother, elder sister and I. In the year when my grandparents and parents died of hunger one after another, my sister and I became orphans and had to beg in the street to survive. We slept at the ends of the village or in grain mills and frequently had to run to escape the harassment of villains late at night. Those memories are too bitter to recollect.
Because my family was poor, I went to school for less than two years and could not read much. After my elder sister was married, I had to make a living by myself. I became independent and strove to stand on my own feet so as not to be looked down upon by anyone. At that time, I was honest and pure. Later on, with changes in social trends and the decline of moral standards, I became a selfish person who pursued self-interest and human success. Failures I encountered gave me a sense of loss, which led to poor health and many illnesses, including brain and kidney illness. I was stricken by many illnesses when I reached middle age and didn't have a formal job.
Just when I felt hopeless towards life with tremendous mental pressure from the illnesses, I was introduced to Dafa on August 5th 1998. At that time, there was one member of my family who was a Falun Dafa practitioner. I wondered how he could be so diligent in his morning practice. However, I was not sure if I could practice due to my low education level. Later I found my family member and all fellow practitioners at the practice site were not only physically healthy but compassionate and kind towards others. So I was determined to join in the cultivation.
On the ninth day of my cultivation, I slipped and fell down the steps just as I went downstairs to attend the morning practice. I was seriously injured in my lower back and legs but I soon recovered after staying at home for only nine days. After studying Zhuan Falun, and with the help of fellow practitioners, I came to realize that the incident was due to demonic interference to stop my practice or it might have been caused by my own karma.
On July 20th 1999 when vicious Jiang Zemin began to persecute Falun Gong, I joined a group appeal for Falun Gong and was illegally taken to Lang Fang City. There were many Dafa practitioners, guarded by the police, who had lost their freedom. The malicious police came to me and asked," How much money did your master give you? Why are you practitioners so united at heart?" I answered:"Our master gave us healthy bodies and the principles of being a human being, which is more precious than anything else. Therefore we are here to speak justly for our Master." A miracle happened on the second day. Since I and several fellow practitioners from Beijing did not bring our IDs and there was no one to take us back from the local police station, so we successfully went back home to Beijing. It was the power of the Fa.
I tried hard to do the three things well as required by our Master. Whenever I distributed truth-clarifying materials, I came out quietly and went back quietly without any mindset to seek anything, which I considered the right way to do it. Every time before I went out, I sent forth righteous thoughts to Master to strengthen us so that all connected people could get the truth and the evil people would fail to see me. If the evil saw me, it was frightened away. Every time I passed a policeman or undercover agent, I said to myself: "The evil is just an ornament, the truth materials sent by Dafa practitioners can reach one person who can spread it to hundreds, and the hundreds will in turn spread it to ten thousand people. On every leaflet, I wrote:" Dear friends, please be kind enough to read..." I did this with a compassionate heart to save the sentient beings.
Whenever I distribute materials as a duty in a hasty manner with an unsteady mindset, I find that someone will not read the material or even throw the leaflets on the ground. When we distribute truth-clarifying materials, we should do it with the compassion to save people, then they will accept it.
In the fall of 2003, I went to Zhongnanhai with some fellow practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts in close proximity to the target. After sending the righteous thoughts, fellow practitioners suggested that we should leave there immediately. I thought that since we were already there, the truth should be brought to the people there as well. I was found by a policeman. He caught me by my hand and asked, "Is there anyone else with you?" and then he started to search me. I had three plastic-coated cards about Dafa. I took out the three cards and handed them to the policeman, saying, "Please take a look and read what is on them. It will do good for both you and me. The words will bring you and me good fortune."
He then tried to make some calls but the calls did not go through, although he tried twice. At that time, several old ladies came over and the policeman said, "You can go now." I went away with righteous thoughts.
I went into Fa practice with serious illness karma at the beginning. I am much better after cultivating, but sometimes when I was unsteady in my mind, I failed to keep my xinxing and my illness broke out again. I knew it was because I did not follow the Master's words and stepped on the path arranged by the old forces. A TV commercial I watched this July claimed that a kind of massage machine will help people lose weight by massaging the belly. It triggered my ordinary people's mindset. In the past, I used to try slimming methods to lose weight for fear that my belly would become large again and be ugly to look at. I therefore used my hands to massage my belly instead of using the machine. After several days, I found that I experienced some blood loss with my bowel movements. At first I did not pay any attention but later it became more and more serious with bloody bowel movements three or four times a day. The blood was startlingly red and the amount of blood was increasing. My family was worried about me and asked me to have an examination in the hospital. I suddenly came to realize that it was not illness and I am a practitioner guarded by Master. I sent out righteous thoughts every day to Master to strengthen me and refused to take the road arranged by the old forces. At the same time, I sent more righteous thoughts and devoted more time to studying the Fa. Fellow practitioners also helped me with righteous thoughts and encouraged me to look inward. Through Fa study, I realized my mistake and after five days, the bleeding stopped and everything returned to normal.
Fellow practitioners, please practice our cultivation diligently and never miss the opportunities!
