(Clearwisdom.net) Recently my daughter, a young practitioner, displayed a strong evil nature. No matter what I said to her she would not pay attention to me. She was careless when she studied the Fa. She likes to draw warped cartoon characters, and today while everyone was taking a rest, she jumped up and down and spoke with a loud voice. I persuaded her to be quiet, and she promised that she would, but she continued to do what she was doing. I lost my temper and slapped her on her bottom. She became quiet and behaved herself, but I could no longer remain calm, and I knew that my evil nature had come out.
Yesterday I read an article about a fellow practitioner who spanked his/her child. I thought to myself, "I have not spanked my child for a long time. My evil nature has diminished a lot, but I could not stop myself from spanking her today. Why is this evil nature so hard to eliminate through cultivation? Does it hide in the blood and flesh of my body? Why do I revert to violence and use it when I have exhausted other methods?"
I thought about the persecution of Falun Dafa practitioners by the old forces. To persuade practitioners into giving up their righteous thoughts, don’t the old forces use violence on practitioners who they perceive as not meeting the standard? Am I similar to the old forces by trying to make my daughter behave through violence? I felt a little afraid and could not help asking myself, "How many old force arrangements am I still harboring in my body that have not been exposed?" Because we pass through the old universe, our bodies will more or less contain matter from the old universe. During our cultivation we need to measure every word, action, notion, and every single thought with the Fa. When we discover anything that is inconsistent with the Fa, we must not allow its existence. The thought, "I only use violence once in while," is equivalent to acknowledging an old force arrangement. Therefore, the old forces have come to "help" me again and again. The evil party relies on violence to obtain and maintain its power. After I was born I was soaked in the culture of the evil party. I must disintegrate and eliminate these things.
