(Clearwisdom.net) I'm a woman from the countryside. I had the good fortune to begin practicing Falun Dafa in July 1998. After I learned Falun Dafa, I realized that Master had been taking care of me since a long time ago. I remembered that once I was on my way home from the hospital and I could not hold back my tears while looking up at the sky. I felt very sad and wanted to go home, as if my parents were waiting for me in heaven. I didn't know what was going on until I learned Falun Dafa.
On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party's persecution of Dafa practitioners began, and our Master was slandered by evil people. At this time four members of my family and other practitioners enlightened that we needed to practice firmly and walk our paths following Master until the end, even if the sky fell. Thus we have been steadfast amidst tribulations to this day. I cannot count how many times the government has harassed us at our home. Later my whole family was forced to leave home for over a year. We returned in 2003.
On April 13, 2005 my husband was arrested and taken to the detention center. For eight months we were forbidden to see him. In order to take Master's lectures and articles to him, I wrote them on a piece of cloth. I wrote for four full days and my hand was covered with blisters. On the night I finished writing Master gave me a hint and helped me. I dreamed that I went onto a very high dam with another practitioner. Along the way there were images of Buddhas, Taos, Gods, Bodhisattvas and lotuses. I stepped on their shoulders one after another, and stepped on a lotus last. At the top, there was a broad straight path. Another practitioner and I walked forward. When I woke up, I realized it was a dream. It was Master's care, help and hints that firmed up my righteous thoughts.
The next day, a practitioner offered to send forth righteous thoughts with me near the detention center. After we arrived there we walked around the detention center and sent forth righteous thoughts, and then we successfully delivered the material into the detention center. It was Master's care that helped us do the three things well to save sentient beings and eliminate the evil.
In May 2006, a series of things happened in my family. My mother, who is 88 years old and a Dafa disciple, used to stay at my home. She went to my sister's home, and so I was the only one left at home. About a week later the prison called and said my husband was in critical condition, so my family and I went to the detention center. After we arrived we learned that my husband had died from torture. We started to question the police. They could not give any explanation, and promised to grant some of our requests and pay for the cremation. I brought his ashes home and all the Falun Dafa practitioners of my village came to say goodbye to him. Right after that my eldest daughter (also a Falun Dafa practitioner) broke up with her boyfriend.
All these things were really unbearable for me. It was really difficult. The sadness that filled my heart, the feeling of not being able to let go, and the attachment of protecting myself from being hurt made me feel it was so difficult to get rid of the attachments. Sometimes when other practitioners pointed out my shortcomings, though I accepted it, my heart was moved. I could not let go of the selfishness of protecting myself. The good thing is, Master's Fa echoed in my ears,
"Be solid and firm like diamond, or granite, and then nothing can affect you." ("Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference").
I also often remembered the section "People with Great Inborn Quality" in Zhuan Falun. Therefore I didn't fall and passed these tribulations calmly and quickly. It was under Master's care and help that I could get through it all.
The birth and death of a human is not the real birth and death. If a life leaves Dafa, what it will face is endless and extreme pain and desperation, and that is the death and destruction of the life, and is the most dreadful. Actually, as long as we put cultivation, validating Dafa and saving sentient beings first, we can do anything, and the miracle of Dafa will manifest in us.
