(Clearwisdom.net) For a long period of time, the attachment of fear, fear which seemed to originate from the bottom of my heart, was very difficult for me to abandon. I would think to myself, "What is this fear? I must rid myself of it!" No matter how hard I tried, I felt I couldn't hit hard at its vital part, as if there was something stopping me from digging it out from the root. One day when I was studying the Fa, I suddenly realized that this fear was not as simple as I thought. Behind this fear I saw the attachments of being afraid of having omissions, and of not being diligent enough in cultivation, both of which were rooted in the fear of the old forces having excuses to persecute me. I was always seized with thoughts like, "I shouldn't have such a big 'omission' any longer. If I am not diligent, the old forces and evil beings could..." What a strong manifestation of fear! I also had fear of losing my self-interests in heaven and on earth. No wonder I never felt steady and sure!
To deny the old force's arrangements, we must examine every single thought of ours to see if it's on the Fa. Is it selfless? Are we proceeding according to Master's arrangements in Fa-rectification? Do we take a Dafa disciple's responsibilities of validating the Fa and saving sentient beings as our starting point? When we diligently do what Master wants us to do, we are actually denying the old force's arrangements. This is gaining without seeking. The purpose of our cultivation is not to deny the old force's arrangements, nor is it for opposing this persecution, and it is certainly not for protecting our self-interests either. As Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples, our process of cultivation and saving sentient beings through clarifying the truth is solely for the purpose of fulfilling what Master wants to achieve during the Fa-rectification period.
