(Clearwisdom.net)
One night I had a dream, and in it I found that I was sitting alone in an empty space next to an endless black line with my head down. My left leg was inside the line and the right outside the line. I found that the skin of the left leg was very delicate, white and rosy. I was really shocked! How come, after so many years of cultivation practice, I only had one leg inside cultivation while the other one still remained outside?
The reason I first learned Falun Gong was to cure my illnesses. Therefore, curing my illnesses and enjoying a happy life became my fundamental attachment. In 1996 after starting cultivation, most of my illnesses disappeared. However, a muscle spasm and a persistent itch still reoccurred frequently. I was seized with sharp pains whenever these symptoms reoccurred and my vision also gradually deteriorated. I knew that Teacher came to save us, not to cure our illnesses, and as a practitioner I should not go to a hospital for medical treatment. However, I really wanted to relieve the sharp pain so I used acupuncture to treat myself. This was actually admitting that I had illnesses and I was treating myself as an everyday person.
Teacher said,
"If you cannot relinquish the attachment or concern for illness, we cannot do anything and will be unable to help you."(Zhuan Falun)
"For a long time now, some students just haven't relinquished their fundamental attachments! And as things have piled up, at the end they aren't able to overcome them and their tribulations get big. When problems occur, instead of searching for problems in their xinxing, fundamentally improving themselves, or truly letting go of the matter and coming through in an open and dignified manner by another route, they focus on the thing at hand-- 'Goodness... why is it that I still can't overcome this thing?.'" ("Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference")
My attachment to treating my symptoms as illnesses was that black line I saw in my dream, which represented the limit that I needed to go beyond. I was determined to resolutely let go of the attachment to my symptoms and so I stopped my acupuncture treatments. Through Fa study and sharing with other practitioners I also enlightened to the fact that as long as a practitioner has problems in validating the Fa and suffers from continuous interference, it must be the dark minions that are taking advantage of our loopholes.
One evening, when the symptoms of illnesses appeared again, I instantly sent forth the righteous thoughts: "I am a Dafa practitioner. Everything is well with me. There is no pain and no itching!" Under these righteous thoughts, the itching, which had lingered on for more than a decade, disappeared in no time and so did the remaining symptoms of my other illnesses.
My experience has proved once again the importance of practitioners' righteous thoughts. It has also proved Teacher's words,
"Be upright, dignified, and confident, and regard yourself as a Dafa disciple. If you can truly let go of your attachments in any circumstance, and treat yourself as a Dafa disciple who is different from an ordinary person, I believe everything will change." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Western U.S. Fa Conference")
For those practitioners who are still undergoing medical treatment, please take my experience as a lesson and avoid detours. We must use righteous thoughts to deal with all the things that happen around us and strive to do the three things well and fulfill our grand historic vows to help Teacher validate the Fa and save the sentient beings.
