(Clearwisdom.net) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1997. I went to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong and was arrested by police officers. Since then, interference from my family, workplace, the community and local police officers caused me to unknowingly generate an attachment to fear. Teacher told us in Zhuan Falun, "matter and mind are one thing." I felt that the matter of my fear continuously accumulated in other dimensions. Plus, the human notions I had formed in human society presented a barrier, wrapped me up as if I was inside a shell, controlled me, and made me unable to think independently. Although I studied the Fa every day, I was not able to break through the obsession of fear.
In November 2005, my child's third eye opened. My child saw that when a non-practitioner goes to speak, a black ball comes flying over from another dimension. This ball has words on it, then it blows up to the size of a human brain and it enters into their brains all at once. Then, everything this person says is exactly the words on the black ball.
I enlightened from this that non-practitioners are firmly controlled by the old forces. Whenever fear emerges due to interference from others, our own loopholes in our thoughts and actions are actually the cause. The old forces can easily control non-practitioners. If you act according to the Fa, you are able to explode the interference from the old forces. Otherwise, you act as an ordinary person and you will cause a negative impact toward Dafa. Meanwhile, you are not on the path arranged by Teacher. Non-practitioners are almost all walking on the path arranged by the old forces. They are truly unaware. Even though they talk about things, they do not know what they are talking about.
My child saw that when fellow practitioners are sending forth righteous thoughts, their cultivated divine sides are magnificent and holy. Some have the appearance of a Buddha; some have the appearance of a Bodhisattva. Different Fa implements utilize different forms of energy, and thereby eliminate many dark minions.
I believe we should send forth righteous thoughts every hour. Since Teacher has given us such great capabilities, we should not disappoint Teacher's expectations in this Fa-rectification period and should uphold the requirements for Fa-rectification. Since I got this understanding, I began to send forth righteous thoughts every hour (from 6 a.m. to 12 p.m. midnight). I continued doing this for about two months. Unexpectedly, I realized that my thinking became clearer. When I read the Fa, I was able to concentrate and remember it. I felt that as long as I read, the Fa would fill me up. This feeling was completely different from my previous feeling when I learned the Fa. Previously, after I read the Fa, I still felt that my mind was empty and I was not able to deeply and clearly understand the connotations of the Fa. I thought that it had to be the result of my continuously sending forth righteous thoughts. So many bad things, such as human notions and attachments, had been cleared away from my mind. These were imposed upon me by the old forces, and obstructed my Fa study.
Meanwhile, after continuously sending forth righteous thoughts every hour for two months, I had a clear understanding of the Fa principles for cleaning up myself and eliminating the dark minions and rotten ghosts in other dimensions. Teacher told us in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference:"
"If you took a look in the extreme microcosm at the material formed by what your mind is attached to, [you'd see that] they are mountains, huge mountains, made of hard, granite-like rock, and once they are formed there's simply no way for a human being to move them. When your righteous thoughts are firm and when you can repel those things, I remove them for you bit by bit; however much you can do, that's how much I remove for you and diminish for you."
Teacher also said in "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" in Essentials for Further Advancement II:
"All of you are already aware of the principle of mutual-generation and mutual-inhibition. If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist."
Here, I enlightened that if I ceaselessly exclude things which I am attached to, especially fear, after Teacher removes them, my thoughts should be in a state of "nothingness." With no human concepts and notions, the principle of mutual-generation and mutual-inhibition (a principle in the old cosmos) will not able to restrict us. The principle of mutual-generation and mutual-inhibition can only restrict "something." I suddenly enlightened: if we offer salvation to sentient beings in a state free of intention, wouldn't this break through the arrangements of the old forces? Isn't this breaking through "the human logic that you, as an ordinary human, have formed deep in your bones over thousands of years" ("Cautionary Advice" from Essential for Further Advancement) and exploding human concepts and human attachments? With the progress of Fa rectification, we have already come out of the principle of mutual-generation and mutual-inhibition and the old forces cannot interfere any longer, otherwise they will be beaten down.
As long as we cultivate within the Fa, fundamentally cultivate our hearts, give up our desires, get rid of attachments, and act according to the Fa at all times, we can have a life that will cast off all the arrangements of the old forces, along with human concepts and attachments, and we can have a selfless life within the new cosmos.
Next, I observed every thought of mine as I encountered every different situation, and realized that I still had fear. I tried my best to exclude it by thinking: It is not me; as long as I let go of my attachments, the matter will not exist. In this way, I discovered attachments one after another, dug them out and separated from them on a fundamental level. It is so important to enlighten to the Fa principles. Only when I completely understand attachments from the Fa, am I able to get rid of them under the guidance of the Fa. This is truly understanding the Fa on the basis of the Fa. In this way, I went through a painful process, but finally one day, I felt an ease which I had never experienced before - a kind of detachment, as if I completely changed. I felt as though I was truly born out of the shell formed by all kinds of human concepts and attachments, especially fear, which were imposed upon me by the old forces. At that moment, I only thought of compassion and saving people. All the other human things had disappeared. I felt that I could truly make my own decisions and control my thinking and actions. Therefore, I felt independent on the path of validating the Fa and saving sentient beings. I would certainly keep up with Teacher's Fa-rectification process, and walk more and more solidly.
What my child saw with his third eye made me realize even more that we must achieve the state of being able to understand the Fa on the basis of the Fa. When we were doing things, fear emerged and it was difficult for me to calm down. My child then said to me: "There are 16 dark minions in your dimension." I was shocked, and immediately sent forth righteous thoughts. Then my child said, "You eliminated 9 of them" and asked me: "What thought emerged in you?" I answered: "The attachment of fear." My child said, "The attachment of fear is like rotten meat in other dimensions. The dark minions like rotten meat and are attracted by it; you cannot have fear at any time. Your attachment attracted the dark minions." The child was pure and said, "Your cultivated side is tall and majestic, is not moved, and nobody can touch it!" I had tumbled; the whole problem in front of me was caused by my mind. My child then said, "It is not enough to only rely on sending forth righteous thoughts, you must truly let go of the attachment." I pulled myself together and thought about Teacher's Fa. When I finally got rid of the attachment, my child saw that the dark minions were broken into pieces.
I remembered when Teacher said, "You have fear, It catches you, With righteous thoughts the evil collapses" (HongYin II). At that moment, I felt that Teacher is beside us all the time, and I have really become mature under the protection of Teacher. I will try hard to do the three things well, and walk well on the path of return.
If there is any mistake in my understanding, please point it out with compassion.
